i'm not a bad man

Chapter 404 Her Change
This message from Qiao Jiao made me very sad, because after experiencing the baptism of years, sometimes I also learn to think in other people's shoes; from Qiao Jiao's perspective, the current situation is really... It's a dilemma. What's even more difficult is that she is no longer with me, but fate has left Lu Xi by my side. She must be insecure, but Lu Xi is still her friend of nearly 20 years, and she herself She felt guilty about Lu Xi, so she didn't know what to do in this relationship, but even if she didn't do anything, the damage was already there...

Compared to Qiao Jiao, Lu Xi didn't have so many worries at this time, otherwise she wouldn't have told me with certainty that she wanted to stay in this village for the New Year.

Suddenly, I had a belief in my heart that I could not give Qiao Jiao such uneasiness at this time. I had chosen her and had expectations because of this choice. If I lost my opinion at this time and left Shake it right and I am not worthy of any woman trusting me with her happiness and future.

I am also convinced that I cannot treat Qiao Jiao like I did to Luan Yu, leaving me with pain and regret in the end. More importantly, Qiao Jiao deserves it; every time I think of everything we have experienced since we met, my heart It's full of warmth.

Based on this, I finally sent a message back to Qiao Jiao who was far abroad: "People are always emotional, so everything in this world, including love, is not eternal... But, about our feelings , I hope it is eternal, because no one in this world can replace you. Without you, all illusions about the future will become pale and powerless... So, none of us should waver, just treat this as a test. , you are the same, our lives still have a long way to go, maybe on this long road, you will meet another man who makes your heart beat. When you waver, you must think of us. The original intention..."

"Are you really that mature?"

"After so much, shouldn't I be mature?"

"Listening to what you said, I suddenly felt that everything I had done was worth it... Before, I always felt that life was like a lonely boat drifting on the sea, and it might be overturned by the waves at any time, but you But it gave me an island that I could dock on, and it was an island that felt like spring all year round..."

"When you feel at ease, I feel relieved... But you also have to tell me, have you already seen that Chinese doctor?"

"I have seen."

"Can you tell me more about it?"

"Very handsome and polite."

"This is just a perception. I want to hear your inner feelings...at least you have to tell me whether he has expressed his affection for you, and if so, what do you think in your heart."

"Yes, I have."

"Why are you acting so indifferent? You can't even answer my question...I know, do you want to retreat in order to advance? On the surface, you are expressing your worries, but in fact, you want to give Find a way out for yourself and the Chinese doctor?..."

"Believe it or not, I will blow your dog's head off!"

"Then why do you act so indifferent when I talk about that Chinese doctor?"

Qiao Jiao directly shattered my doubts with actions. She sent me a screenshot. The screenshot was the information about her ticket purchase. She will return to China on the third day of the Lunar New Year. She will first go to BJ, and then transfer from BJ. Changsha, the final destination is of course the village where my godfather and godmother live.

Calculating the time, we will meet in a week. A week is neither long nor short. What kind of changes will happen here?When that day comes, will Luxi still stay in this village?

If she is still here, how will the three of us face this relationship?
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With such doubts, I finally fell asleep. When I woke up, it was already evening; I sat on the bed for a while, and then my brain gradually regained its clarity.Although I'm temporarily staying at Lao San's place, I still have to go to my godfather and godmother's house for meals, so I will inevitably meet Lu Xi in the next few days.

I don't object to meeting her, but what I object to is the feeling of being at a loss after meeting her.

Because I was too afraid of being overwhelmed, I walked very slowly on the way to my godfather's house. It wasn't until a dog stared at me and chased me away that I walked as fast as flying and ran to my godfather's house in one breath. The high place where home is...

I was a little embarrassed, bent over and breathing heavily, but Luxi was very leisurely. She was lying on the lounge chair under the old locust tree, and seemed to be playing King of Glory again, and the audio was turned on; this was not what made her the most It looked casual, and I saw a Bluetooth speaker placed next to her recliner, which was playing Jay Chou's song...

She didn't even notice me. She kept calling Uncle Wen into her mobile phone, instructing him on how to cooperate with her. Only then did I know that after the phone's power was restored, she started playing games with Uncle Wen again.

In addition to leisure, she was also very comfortable, because my godmother was really kind to her. Not only did she cut a fruit plate for her, but she also made her a pot of hot tea.

Being a little dazed by the afterglow of the sunset, I suddenly felt that everything had nothing to do with me. She was here for vacation; here, there were people who cared about her eating and drinking, and people who played with her. Only I would make her sad. Based on seeking gain and avoiding According to the principle of harm, she will definitely forget about me, the person who makes her sad, and focus on enjoying her happiness, so I will definitely become less and less aware of my existence.

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This is not my imagination. At this moment, I can no longer see any traces of sadness on Lu Xi. She only has games in her heart and is fully focused on it. So the next moment, I saw her sit up from the recliner and face her. The phone shouted urgently: "Oh, Uncle Wen, didn't I ask you to ambush on the right? Why did you come to the left again?... Hurry back to the right, and you should be able to rescue me!"

I have never seen such a Lu Xi, and it is difficult to connect such a her with her star status...

In fact, celebrities are also human beings. Maybe I have been deliberately imposing this star halo on her, but she never cared about this identity. However, I really can't forget the moment I saw her on the giant billboard. In one scene, she was so beautiful and outstanding; at that moment, her halo seemed to light up the whole city and me...

No wonder some people say that the first impression is the basis for in-depth communication. If I saw the Luxi now, maybe I would not have such a strong admiration mentality. I would only think she is cute, not cold, but And radiant.

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Lu Xi finally noticed me standing outside the courtyard gate, but there was no emotional fluctuation. After she glanced at me, she focused on the game that was not over yet.

My mood relaxed a lot because of her move, and then I found a small bench and sat under the big locust tree, using my mobile phone to kill the time before dinner.

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During dinner, I realized that Lu Xi’s leisure was not limited to this. She also made an appointment for a card game after dinner. The card game was organized by my godmother. Except for Lu Xi and my godmother, the other two The participants are unknown, but this does not hinder my judgment about Luxi. She has indeed found a comfortable lifestyle here. I have a hunch that she will be able to mingle with the people here before the Chinese New Year.

This is something that even Luan Yu couldn't do back then.

(End of this chapter)