i'm not a bad man

Chapter 403 Why go to the dock again?

Since I met Lu Xi, I never imagined that one day she would say to me the words of giving up her celebrity status, so I never had any delusions about what she would mean to me after she gave up her celebrity status, so that I Unable to cope with the fact that she wanted to give up her celebrity status, all I could say was the road, so after pondering for a while, I said to her: "But the dangerous road is the most difficult road in the world."

"Yes, it is difficult to leave, but you have already left for me... You made this choice at the cost of your life. As a star, what can I not let go of?"

In my silence, Lu Xi said to me again in a very soft voice: "Over the years, the most imaginary thing I have imagined is that if one day I don't become a so-called star, what kind of life will I live?" Life?... This kind of assumption would be particularly pale if I were alone, because after I stop being a star, I will get a lot of time. I don’t know how to squander this time when I am only one person. … All I can think of is traveling, shopping, and socializing with friends I’m not so familiar with anymore… So, even if I’m tired of this job sometimes, it’s hard for me to make up my mind to leave… But If there is one more person in this fantasy, it will become a lot more fulfilling... We can travel together, shop together, meet new friends together, and talk about Jay's songs together when we fall asleep... If this If it's not fulfilling enough, we can also do something together. As long as you like it, I will be with you... You just said that there are very few paths in life, and I agree, but I am still willing to be there for you. Open a VIP channel in your life...With this VIP channel, why do you have to go to the dock again?"

Shocked, my heart was shocked. Compared to what Qiao Jiao said, there was still a different kind of tenderness in it. I was almost addicted and almost suffocated.

There shouldn’t be any more entanglements between us, but it happened that such a dangerous road opened up a wider road for us. As long as I am willing to open my legs and walk on this road, I will go very far and very far. Far……

……

I looked at Lu Xi, and Lu Xi looked at me. This was the longest look between us. I was even more suffocated because of her appearance, her eyes, her temperament, and what she wanted. everything.

However, this is not a reason for me to overthrow myself. I already have Qiao Jiao and have fantasies about the future. I have already become dependent on Qiao Jiao without knowing it, and I love her passionately. I don’t want her at all. I dare to imagine life without Qiao Jiao, and I dare not imagine her heartbroken because of my breach of trust.

I shook my head, shaking it harder and harder, and then my emotions were dominated by another force. I whispered to Lu Xi, who had been watching me: "I'm sorry, I can't let go of Jiaojiao..."

"Han Erjin, Han fool."

My heart was trembling when I heard her calling me that; but she didn't affect my emotions anymore. She just smiled and said, "It's nothing... I just want to call you."

"Ah."

She pointed to the wine bottle next to me and asked, "Is this the wine you drank?"

"Ah."

Lu Xi picked up the bottle, shook it, and said, "There doesn't seem to be much left." After saying that, she raised her head, closed her eyes, and drank the rest of the wine in one gulp. This kind of shochu was very strong and very potent. She rushed, but she managed not to cough...

Putting down the bottle, she still looked at me with the same look as before. After a long time, she said: "What kind of bad relationship is between us... I have obviously decided to leave, why do I use this method again?" How to keep me here?...I thought it was God's will, but you are still the same you, but I am no longer the same me..."

After saying that, she walked out of the yard, but I kept looking at her back, my heart beating but my body not moving.

……

The firewood was still burning, and the clothes hanging by the bonfire had been dried. I was still sitting there. I didn't want to sleep, and I didn't want to leave the bonfire. I didn't get up until the firewood burned out and the heat gradually dissipated.

I was no longer in the mood to blame my third child for talking too much. I stripped myself down to just a pair of underwear and then lay down heavily on the bed.

When I was in a small town, I was always eager to have some private time of my own because of all kinds of busyness. But when I really got my wish and got a lot of time, I didn't know how to squander it. In the end, I just picked up the phone.

Only then did I discover that there was a message on WeChat that Qiao Jiao sent half an hour ago. She said: "Knowing that she was fine made me feel a lot more relaxed... But after I felt relieved, I felt even more complicated... I always feel that the fate between us is something I have worked hard for, but the relationship between you and her seems to be destined by God... It was such an accident that kept her... In fact, even if If you don't tell me, I can imagine how anxious and anxious you felt when you went to find her... I'm not sure what you think of the two of us now, but I'm sure that you had been there before going to Tianjin. , she is the one you like the most in your heart... If it weren't for Yang Yiming's appearance, I wouldn't even have the chance to take advantage of it... Taking advantage of the opportunity, she is really someone who makes me feel ashamed just thinking about it. Ci, and she is also the most important friend in my life... If we were to fight for someone, she would be the one to give up, so she chose to leave the village and leave you... However, she did not do it again and again. And the reason for giving up three times... Women are inherently emotional... So, I don’t know how to describe my feelings. I am very conflicted and powerless... But I still want to tell you, if she is really you The woman and obsession that I can never let go of in my heart... You can forget me and don't carry a heavy burden because of your promise to me... As a human being, the luckiest thing is probably to be loved by the person you like. Like... So, you are lucky... Lu Bao'er is also lucky... Can I really destroy this most beautiful luck because of my selfish desires?... I don't have the answer, but you are so smart, you You should know what I'm talking about...unless you really love me...and I must really love you!"

This is a message of 540 words. I read it over and over countless times, from having only a partial understanding to fully understanding Qiao Jiao's mood and contradictions.

In this relationship between three people, she gave in again. It would be understandable to her if I chose Luxi at this time, but I couldn't be happy anyway.

This must be the white rose and red rose that Lao San said, and it is also the most difficult choice in relationships.

Therefore, I have never been so confused as I am now. The past experiences between me, Qiao Jiao and Lu Xi kept flashing in my mind; in the end, these past experiences were competing with each other in my mind. Take half.

Whoever you give up or choose is a regret and pain!

(End of this chapter)