Smiling at the peach blossom fan, peach blossoms smile at the spring breeze

Xiao Wan does not give up, she believes in the two sentences of the sage: one is "women chase men, the veil is interlayered", and the other is "there is only a hoe that is not good to wield, and there is no wall foot that cannot be dug down." "The long road continues.

Hard work pays off, and an opportunity that is not an opportunity has come. This year, he took the exam. Slightly different from the past, this is the last time he will take the lifting exam, and he will not succeed or not, and he is no longer willing to accept failure and start over again, whether it is in terms of time, energy or psychology.

In fact, he didn't have a chance to take the exam if he wanted to, because before he waited for the next time, the Ming Empire died.

The exam results came out, and Mao Bijiang fell again without surprise. This time he announced that he had no chance in this life, no career in office, and no chance on the broadest stage and the most important way for all scholars to realize their value. He had been working hard to hope and spent the first half of his life in pursuit of the ideal of life, shattered, and the damage was more severe than the sum of his previous attempts, and this critical blow would be broken to the point of blood.

The pain of Luodi is different from the pain of losing Chen Yuanyuan, but it is just as painful as it is heartbreaking, and it hurts so much that I can't breathe. In the past, I couldn't lift people in the exam, and I took the liberty to find all kinds of reasons to deceive the person to comfort myself, sometimes saying that the performance on the spot was not good, sometimes saying that the question was wrong, sometimes saying that the Tai Sui Ying was on duty, and even once said that it was the left leg that stepped first when entering the examination room. No matter which defeat he loses, he has the desire to become famous in one fell swoop, and at that time, no one will laugh at him for remembering a way, and will only envy him for being a late bloomer.

After being slapped in the face again and again by reality, Mao Bijiang finally realized that he was not the material for studying or exams at all, he was purely a useless wreck, a second-generation official who was waiting for death to eat old people, and had no proud capital except for feeling good about himself. Over the years, he has always thought that he is a scholar and secretly laughed at those scumbags who have tried and failed, and now he has suffered retribution, and he finds that he is actually the scumbag he has always looked down on.

He didn't even dare to see people, knowing that behind the harmless faces of people and animals full of concern and sympathy around him were likely to hide ridicule, sneer, contempt, indifference and even schadenfreude, and he couldn't tell which of the gentle comforts was true and which was false and which was the condensation of love.

He didn't have the face to go out to meet people. He felt that people all over the world were laughing at him and despising him, and even felt that Chen Yuanyuan, who was in the deep palace, would spit on him with great disdain when he learned the news of his fall, and was glad that he didn't have the waste with him in the first place.

Falling into the heart of Mao Bijiang, coupled with Chen Yuanyuan's departure, Mao Bijiang began to doubt himself, deny himself, all kinds of comfort became irrelevant, what he really needed was to be recognized and affirmed, longing for someone to praise from the bottom of his heart "You are really great", eager to be comforted by people "Actually, you are very good, you are just not suitable for the exam", eager to find a reason for failure - the biggest role of the imperial examination is to bury real talents.

At this moment, Mao Bijiang received a letter from Dong Xiaowan for the N+1st time.

If you say who is the person who worships the people in the world, it is undoubtedly Dong Xiaowan. Mao Bijiang can see that Dong Xiaowan's recognition of him is innocent, transparent, and flawless, never pulling the calf to twist and turn, he can see the stars in Xiaowan's eyes and the saliva that is about to flow out, no matter whether he has a future or not, Xiao Wan has never forgotten his original intention and has been pestering and sticking, has been sending Qiubo to flattering eyes, has always praised him and praised him and sent little red flowers, and is always ready to give him a low and a small commitment to be a concubine is the best proof.

Mao Bijiang knew in his heart that although he hid it well and did not reveal it at all, he did look down on Dong Xiaowan a little, thinking that he was talented and promising, with a higher career pursuit and beauty pursuit, and felt that Xiaowan was not worthy of him. In his eyes, Xiao Wan's enthusiasm is purely cheap, climbing high branches, if it weren't for looking at Xiao Wan's still a little bit of beauty, he would have sued Xiao Wan for harassment.

used to be full of pride, but now he only leaves empty bags, and after his blind self-confidence in the frontier retreats, he finally knows what he has changed, it is nothing more than the second generation of officials who survive on his father's shadow, and he is a rich man in the countryside who does not learn and has no skills, and the reason why he looks down on Dong Xiaowan over the years, in addition to having a share of the family property inherited from his father, is more of a third brother's self-confidence, and a sense of superiority for no reason.

When I was frustrated, I looked at Xiao Wan's enthusiasm, and I felt very different from usual, Xiao Wan is no longer an inferior person who wants to marry a wealthy family, no longer a sticky actor, no longer a personal artist, but a red breeze with huge eyes and poor knowledge, the amorous and kind Zhuo Wenjun, the seven fairies who fell into the mortal dust for true love, and one of the few people in this world who really appreciate him and like him.

At this time, I received a letter from Dong Xiaowan, saw the familiar handwriting, and tasted the indissolvable affection behind the familiar words.

It is the most difficult to accept the grace of the beauty, but it is ridiculous that he is blind, he does not know how to cherish what he has in front of him, he has to pursue the past that has passed, and hangs himself on the tree of Chen Yuanyuan, so that the amorous Xiao Wan spends his years in vain. Fortunately, Xiaowan has been persevering, otherwise it would have been a good marriage, and at the same time, she would have missed the beauty for life.

Thinking that Xiao Wan put down a woman's reserve and took the initiative to contact herself, and thought that Xiao Wan was willing to pay for life without regrets, the tears of risking the frontier were about to flow, this is the real trust and recognition. This woman has been waiting for him, and she has expressed her willingness to marry her without hesitation, how can such a beautiful woman live up to it?

Mao Bijiang decided to marry Dong Xiaowan home, it's good to break the jar like this, the world's accusations don't matter, a group of hypocrites who can't eat foxes and say that grapes are sour, let them be jealous!

With eagerness, apology, and excitement, he came to Yangzhou again.

Fireworks Alley, Yiyo Danqing Barrier. Fortunately, there is a person who can be searched. And the red leaning on the green, the romance and the life are smooth. Youth is paid. endured the floating name and changed it to a shallow low singing. I haven't seen it for a long time, and I don't know if the beauty is the same as before.

Bantang, Twin Cities Pavilion. Xiao Wan is full of poems, restless, restless. A few days ago, I received a letter from Mao Bijiang, in which she reaffirmed the traditional friendship between the two sides, thanked her for her care and support over the years, and expressed her willingness to cooperate at a deeper level and in a wider field.

Xiao Wan cried. Except for the first time she came to Mao Bijiang, she took the initiative to deliver it to her door, and Mao Bijiang felt lukewarm and even a little bored. Now that he has come to the door again, it is obvious that Zhang Yu has changed his mind. She felt sad about her infatuated unrequited love, and on the other hand, she was excited that she was about to embark on the road of conscience. Over the years, Xiao Wan has seen many predecessors who are gradually passing away, many peers have no hope of singing and indulging in wine, and the vast majority of sisters are difficult to be lucky enough to meet their lovers, their lives are like flowers soaked in salt water, overdrawn and beautiful, delicate and blooming, and then quickly withered, lonely and old, and died when no one noticed after suffering from poverty, and finally were thrown into the wilderness, scattered into mud and dust.

In order to avoid failure, Xiao Wan did not dare to be careless, learned the lesson of the failure of the last meeting, closed the business in advance, practiced piano, singing, calligraphy and painting at home all day long, quit smoking, quitting alcohol, quitting arrogance and rashness, improving the level of business, and building an image outside and strong quality inside.

In order to show the best side to Mao Bijiang, Xiao Wan took out all the experience accumulated from men in this half of her life, repeatedly deduced the plot of the meeting, and tried over and over again what kind of expression and what language to use to be both reserved and subtle, and fully express her deep love, figuring out what Mao Bijiang would think, what kind of reaction she would make, what words she would say, and how she should respond to the best effect.

Excited, scared, suffering from gains and losses, mood swings, Xiao Wan didn't think about tea and dinner for several days, couldn't sleep, her immunity was seriously reduced, and she sweated after cleaning up the house, she suddenly got sick, and she couldn't get out of bed or get off the ground.

When Mao Bijiang came in, Xiao Wan was lying on the bed, and when she saw her longing lover, she forced herself to sit up and greet Mao Bijiang. Mao Bijiang hurriedly beckoned him to lie down.

Xiao Wan didn't lie flat, but just half-lay down against the head of the bed, pulled the quilt, and covered half and half exposed like tiles. Without saying a few words, he was out of breath, urging him to go quickly, not wanting to ruin his image because of his ill appearance.

took the liberty of the frontier but was amazed. The last time I met, Dong Xiaowan's face was full of alcohol, and her professional characteristics were very obvious, but this time they met with a completely different situation, the righteous qi was weak, the cold evil invaded the body, the yang deficiency and the yin were sheng, the liver and blood were insufficient, and the spleen was not healthy, resulting in a pale face, with insufficient liquid, the stomach fire was too strong, the lungs were on fire, and the emotional excitement made the face flushed, like a pear flower with rain, a begonia in the wind, and a delicate and unbearable one, the medicinal fragrance was mixed with powder, balsam, and daughter's fragrance, which was not only easy to arouse a man's strong desire to protect, but also made people feel the urge to kiss Fangze, coupled with the bitter love and depression of these years, even if it is a stone heart, it will be tempting。

By the way, it is said that Xiao Wan at this moment is the most direct source of Lin Daiyu's sick beauty image in "Dream of Red Mansions".

Mao Bijiang is finally tempted, what kind of chaste archway is cold-eyed by the world, what Chen Yuanyuan Chen Bianbian, everything is floating clouds, and it is proper happiness to take the beauty in front of you.

There are no clouds and no rain in the sky, no matchmaker in the underground can not get married, and no matchmaker is not hired for fornication. The two people who are the matchmakers for the two are two people whose identities are close to the two, whose status is far higher than the two, and whose reputation is far greater than the two: the famous artist Liu Rushi and the retired second-tier national high-ranking cadre Qian Qianyi and his wife. After Liu Ru is media pulling, Qian Qianyi funded the redemption, and Mao Dong and Dong finally came together after experience.

Dong Xiaowan's redemption is worth "3,000 gold", taking into account factors such as rising prices and currency depreciation, this price is equivalent to the current 2 million yuan. Ordinary artists are not worth the price, but Dong Xiaowan is definitely worth it, she is the pillar of the unit, and her resignation is dismantling the unit's stage.

The story of Qian Qianyi and Liu Ru is husband and wife will be told later, as for why the two are so enthusiastic about protecting the media and pulling the line to spend money to achieve other people's good things, there is no record in history, and some good people have done research, thinking that Liu Ru is doing this for the sake of sisterhood, she sincerely blesses this sister who is five years younger than her with the same disease, and sincerely hopes that she can be happy. And why did Qian Qianyi endure the pain of contribution?

It turned out that before venturing into Xinjiang, as a 60-year-old national cadre, Qian Qianyi married the 23-year-old artist Liu Ru. This incident detonated the national literary and political circles, Zu'an culture prevailed, that is, some people who did not show off their talents and raised diplomas also rushed to be the champion of Zu'an. Funding Mao Bijiang to marry Dong Xiaowan, on the one hand, in response to Liu Ruye's request to please the beauties, on the other hand, it is also to pull people for his own front, and smear Mao Bijiang, he himself is not so black, don't let the guns of public opinion always be aimed at him.

Some people think that Qian Qianyi is self-defeating, one person makes an example, and two or more people become gangs, and the old hooligans help the little hooligans to engage in hooliganism, which not only does not share the firepower, but attracts more firepower.

Mao Bijiang can't take care of these anymore, he is only happy here, no matter how he settles the account, he has taken a big advantage, he can still hold a beautiful woman without contribution, and he is not ashamed to take the lead like Qian Qianyi, and there is naturally no psychological obstacle to marrying Dong Xiaowan.

Around the winter, Mao Bijiang, who was rich in feelings and had a chaotic private life, and Dong Xiaowan, who was also rich in feelings and even more chaotic in his private life, finally came together, and the two traveled to get married, and then Dong Xiaowan returned to Rugao with Mao Bijiang. Seeing that the situation was inviolable, Su Yuanfang, the wife of Mao Bijiang, turned the passive into the active, and set up a separate courtyard for Dong Xiaowan to facilitate the fornication between the two of them.

This year, Dong Xiaowan was 19 years old, and he was 31 years old.

In the early summer of the second year, on the days when the peony, jasmine blossomed, lychee, and bayberry were ripe, Dong Xiaowan's inspection period expired, and a wedding ceremony was held under the auspices of Su Yuanfang.

I don't know what Mao Bijiang's wife and concubine who have entered the Mao Mansion are thinking when they are lonely and sleepless after lingering with the newcomer, and I don't know what the other women who have been hanging out with Mao Bijiang for many years and have never been allowed to enter the Mao Gate are in the heart-I don't know if Mao Bijiang looks at the jade man sleeping beside him, and will suddenly think of Chen Yuanyuan who is as deep as the sea when he enters the Hou Gate, maybe Chen Yuanyuan is tossing and turning at this time, staring at the boundless dark night with big eyes.