i'm not a bad man

Chapter 629 She will still choose you

After the pain reached the extreme, I gained a kind of relief that could transcend everything. I no longer had anything to gain, and there was nothing that I couldn’t lose. I suddenly became a very transparent person, free. , undisciplined, with nothing to do, and no need for direction.

Almost everything has become clear, and the only suspense left is Zou Chang. There is no news about her so far, so I still don’t know whether she is dead or alive.

I decided to wait for another three to five days. If I really couldn't wait for any news from her, I would have to settle her mother down before I could go to Phuket with peace of mind.

……

I was probably really relieved. I actually slept from morning to afternoon. If the front desk of the B&B hadn't called me to ask if I wanted to extend my stay, I would have slept until evening.

After waking up, I packed my backpack and prepared to leave Qingdao in the evening. I also had to go back to the small town because there was a second-hand car I bought before and I wanted to get rid of it. And completely draw a clear line with the small town. At the same time, I also need some money. After all, my life is starting from scratch.

I found a paper map in an inconspicuous compartment of my backpack. It had been folded too many times and had serious creases. Only then did I remember that this map had been with me for as long as time. About that RV; when traveling in an RV, you often pass through some mountainous areas and remote places where there is no mobile phone signal, so I prepared this map. There are countless marks on the map, but the XJ area is clean...

Lighting a cigarette and facing the gentle sea breeze, I recalled the places I had been to on the map. I have never been willing to spend such a long time doing things related to memories, but this time It was an exception. By the time I came out of the storm of memories, it was already evening.

I stared at the endless sea for a moment, then raised my hand and threw the map into the sea. I no longer had the desire to go to XJ, but this map was a ship that should not stay still, it should Follow the waves to farther places until they are completely torn apart by the wind and waves...

However, at the moment when I was about to turn around, it was swept back to the beach by the waves, thrown into the sea again, and swept back again. Having completely convinced myself of my fate, I had to feel a little more in awe. He could only put it on the rocks, dry it in the sun, and stuff it back into his backpack.

……

The train was heading towards Zhengzhou at a very high speed. When it was almost eight o'clock, the train stopped in the city of Xuzhou. Because Xuzhou is a transportation hub city, the stop time would be slightly longer, which was enough to smoke a cigarette. So, I took He got out of the car with his cigarette case and lighter.

While I was hesitating, my phone suddenly made a vibrating sound in my pocket. This was the first call I received since that day. I looked at the number out of habit, but it was not someone I was familiar with. I seemed to have been trapped in this world. I forgot, I even suspected it was a sales call or a scam call.

But I still got through, and to my surprise, the other party was a woman with a nice voice and she could call me by my name.

I asked her with confusion: "Who are you?"

"We have met, but I may not necessarily leave an impression on you...but it doesn't matter...you just need to believe that I am Xiaowei's best friend in the small town."

"Zuo Xiaowei?"

She asked back: "Do you know a second person named Xiaowei?"

When I was silent because of surprise, she added: "Xiaowei has something very important, and she asked me to hand it over to you... Where are you now?"

I subconsciously looked at the station sign hanging high and replied: "I'm at the Xuzhou Railway Station. I stopped for a cigarette on the way to go to Zhengzhou..."

"Just wait for me in Xuzhou. I will go to Xuzhou to find you."

"Can't we meet in Zhengzhou?"

"For safety's sake, the farther away from the small town the better... It won't take long. I'm in Zhengzhou now. It's very fast by train."...

I put out the cigarette in my hand, ran back to the carriage immediately, took my backpack with me, and got off the train in Xuzhou; then I found a teahouse near the train station, waiting for the man who I had met before but could not stay. Impression of woman.

Three hours later, I met this woman. I remembered her, not only, but also had a very deep impression, because she was the woman I occasionally saw when I lived in the villa in Chang Yuli. I jokingly called her No. 2 because she lost to Zuo Xiaowei by one vote during the election of Miss Tourism in a small town.

I once talked about her with Chang Yuli, saying that she was the happiest woman in the small town. Happiness is something that is difficult to define, but because of that window with no curtains, we changed our understanding of happiness. , given to her with sincerity.

Yes, we saw her and her husband dancing close to each other in that window. If there was no happiness, how could she do such a romantic thing?So, this is the real reason why she left a deep impression on me. Not only did I remember her, but I also remembered what romance and happiness should look like. What’s more, she was indeed a very beautiful woman, and she had the reputation of being a famous person on a small town TV station. A decent job…

She just sat down opposite me, staring at me with sadness for a long time. This made me a little uncomfortable, but because she was too unfamiliar, she didn't habitually light up a cigarette to hide her emotions. .

"There is news from the hospital... Xiaowei injured her nerves due to a car accident, resulting in aphasia..."

"Aphasia?"

"Well...she will never be able to sing again...not only can she not sing, but even talking has become a very luxurious thing."

Because of the grievances I kept accumulating, I desperately hoped that Zuo Xiaowei would be banned and never be able to sing on stage. But at this moment, I didn’t feel the slightest satisfaction because this idea came true, because the singing was Zuo Xiaowei’s. soul and pride; or maybe it’s time to let go of all the grudges I’ve had, and I even blame myself so much because I was the initiator behind this car accident.

Can resentment really kill a person?
I'm lost...

At this time, No. 2 spoke to me again: "It seems a bit abrupt that I come to you, but I am indeed Xiaowei's best friend... We already met in a dance cram school when we were ten years old... …”

"She never mentioned you in front of me."

"I never mention her in front of my husband."

"Why? You are such good friends already."

"It seems that you really don't know women very well... I don't mention her because I'm "jealous" of her talent; she doesn't mention me because she always feels that she can live happily without me, and we don't want to Showing your vulnerable side to the person you love the most...but it doesn't affect us at all from being best friends privately."

In order to make me believe what she said, she took out her mobile phone and opened the photo album. There were many photos of her and Zuo Xiaowei in the photo album. They had also visited many places together, such as Sanya, Dali, and nearby Some of Xi'an.

"Han Chao, although Xiaowei has never mentioned me in front of you, she has talked about you to me countless times; sometimes, she will even call and chat with me until late at night... She said that you are her most important person in this world. The man she most wants to marry is also the man she loves most... Unfortunately, you have never really loved her..." After a pause, she said to me in a deeper voice: "It makes no sense to say this. , you didn’t even love her when she was at her best, not to mention that now, she has lost her voice... Let’s get down to business... This is the evidence she collected..."

As he spoke, No. 2 took out a document bag from his shoulder bag, handed it to me, and continued: "These are evidence of Guan Yubo's crimes, including his early years of opening an online casino and committing loan sharking to death. A teacher, and evidence of later involvement in gangsters monopolizing the market... These evidences were enough to sentence Guan Yubo to death, so she was very cautious and never dared to keep them around her... She told me that if something happened to her one day, Let me hand over these evidences to you... I asked her why she didn't hand them over to the police herself, and she said, this is what you want most..."

After a period of silence, I finally asked: "Why did you wait until something happened to you before you took out the evidence?"

After No.2 thought for a while, he replied: "Maybe she still has some expectations for Guan Yubo... I hope he can change his mind and be a good person... She once told me that there was a bad relationship between her and Guan Yubo. Fate, but when I am with you, I only have expectations and longings... So, if one day, you and Guan Yubo come to the point of fighting to the death, she will still choose you... In fact, she also did the same... But what I don’t understand is that she and Guan Yubo got into a car accident together in the end. According to normal logic, Guan Yubo might harm her because she had the evidence, but why should he also get involved?… …Is it possible that this is really an accidental car accident?”

(End of this chapter)