i'm not a bad man

Chapter 506 Amazing Coincidence

Zuo Xiaowei did not lie to me. It has indeed been rainy recently in BJ. Not long after she left, the sound of falling rain came from the window. I walked to the window, opened the curtains, and looked down at this huge and beautiful building again. In the humid city, it was difficult to calm down with so many thoughts in my heart, so I lit up a cigarette out of habit...

Soon, this small room was filled with the smell of tobacco, which is also the smell I am most familiar with and rely on most.

At this time, I seemed to be omnipotent and had done many things that were beneficial to me. However, only I knew the powerlessness in my heart. At least, Qiao Jiao was about to get married, and I did not dare to interfere rashly from beginning to end. .

During this period, I had some communication with Qiao Jiao. Of course I could sense some subtle thoughts in her heart. She was also afraid. She didn’t know what would happen to her for the rest of her life if she married someone she didn’t love. She was afraid that the regret and unhappiness would stay with her for the rest of her life.

I can understand this feeling, because Zuo Xiaowei at that time was not the woman I really loved. I went to the small town with her, and the thing I thought about the most was the second half of my life that had no suspense. I have to sell a house there, have children, and then grow old little by little in the wealth of money, rice, oil and salt. This makes me feel upset, so that I always lack a little patience with Zuo Xiaowei, so I get angry easily and don't want to be sincere. To tolerate her...

How can a life that is easy to get angry and find trouble at every turn be happy?
If Qiao Jiao didn't really love that man, her mentality would be like me when I just went to the small town; no, it would be even worse than me, because I never married Zuo Xiaowei from beginning to end. I have a way out, but once she gets married, It will be difficult to even find a way out for yourself.

Counting the days, she will soon hold her wedding to Lu Nai.

However, how many people in this world can finally spend their lives with their beloved?Most people spend their entire lives making do, making do...

Me too, so when it comes to relationships between men and women, I no longer struggle, work hard, or strive for...

Just find one that suits you.

……

"Suitable", I squinted my eyes and took the last puff of the cigarette. In the diffuse smoke, I thought about this word over and over again. After thinking about it, my brain suddenly went blank. In the end, I couldn't even think of the meaning of the word "suitable". Woke up.

Life is really helpless and painful!
I can't fight fate. I think of Luan Yu. Even if we can overcome all the contradictions in the world and insist on being together, in the end, the disease that comes with terror will still completely separate us. And this is the arrangement of fate. There is no power. resist.

I never deny that Luan Yu was once a woman I loved deeply, but we have always been led by fate.

……

With this emotion, I lay heavily on the bed, staring at the ceiling like a statue. I couldn't sleep, so I could only pick up my phone again and look through the photo album to relieve my boredom.

There is a photo of Qiao Jiao and I. We are sitting on a seesaw. In order to make us both appear in the shot, I deliberately used a wide-angle lens.

That night, Qiao Jiao smiled so happily.

……

The phone vibrated, and it turned out to be a message from Qiao Jiao. It was also a photo. In the photo, she was sitting on an electric car that had run out of power. It was snowing all over the sky, and I was struggling to push the electric car in the snow. Walking...

She still smiled happily.

It seems that she is always happy when she is with me, whether on the seesaw or on an electric car that is running out of power.

Speaking of which, this is really an amazing coincidence. On such a night, she actually thought of me just as I thought of her!

……

When I was lost in thought, she finally sent me another message and said to me: "Han Chao, if I invite you on my wedding day, will you come?"

After lying on the bed and tossing and turning for a while, I finally replied to her message: "I'm not going."

"Well, if there is a next life, will we be together and have a wedding that belongs to us, without so many helpless choices and without so much pain?"

My hand was tightly gripping the phone, relaxing, then tightening, and then replied: "Give me 500 yuan, or else send this message to your husband."

Qiao Jiao really sent a transfer of 200 yuan, and I really accepted it.

"Brother Chao, please be kind to yourself in the future. I'm sorry."

People are always accustomed to using a period to describe the end of a relationship between one person and another, and I am not exempt from this. I looked at this message repeatedly and felt in my heart that it was a dividing line. Qiao Jiao and I finally fell in love with this message. The dividing line has reached the end.My heart is sad and low, in this life full of farewell and helplessness.

……

I have never written a good song in four or five years, but on this night when I couldn’t sleep, I spent an hour writing a song, including the music and lyrics, and the title of the song is "Excuse me" .

In my memory, this seems to be the first tragic song I wrote. The lyrics and melody are very sad.

The song I wrote was of course for Zuo Xiaowei. It was like an entanglement of fate. In the end, this experience between Qiao Jiao and I needed Zuo Xiaowei to interpret it.

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The next day, Zuo Xiaowei came to my place at almost ten o'clock. She made me lunch. This time it was two dishes and one soup, but there was still my favorite fried bacon and garlic sprouts.

While eating, I said to Zuo Xiaowei in a casual manner: "I had a little insomnia last night, so I happened to use this time to write a song."

Zuo Xiaowei looked at me and replied in surprise: "Are you really writing songs again?"

"Ah."

"Show me now."

"That's the notebook on the coffee table."

Zuo Xiaowei immediately stood up and took the notebook over, and then while reading, she hummed along with the melody until the end; then she closed the notebook, and after a while of pondering, she said to me: "In this song The emotions don’t come out of thin air.”

"If you think something is wrong, you can tell me your opinion."

"It's pretty good. Although it's not the type that will become a hit, if there is such a song in the album, it will make the whole album more enjoyable to watch."

"It can be used."

After that, I continued to eat, but Zuo Xiaowei still didn't take the chopsticks. After thinking for a while, she said to me: "Today is not a day for our company's regular meeting. The reason why it is placed today is because Lu Xi Qin Minhong and I are going to Qingdao to attend Qiao Jiao's wedding... With the relationship between Lu Xi and Qiao Jiao, just being a bridesmaid is not enough. She has to go in advance to help with the preparations..." Follow my WeChat public account: *** , reply "B&B" to view the prototype of Tank Inn B&B.Reply "Lu Xi" and "Qiao Jiao" to view the character picture!You can also view the latest chapters

"It's time to go ahead and help with preparations."

"Can you really be as indifferent in your heart as you show?" Follow my Weixin public account: ***, reply "B&B" to view the prototype of Tank Inn B&B.Reply "Lu Xi" and "Qiao Jiao" to view the character picture!You can also view the latest chapters

"You don't have to worry about what I think... You should have heard Qin Minhong comment on Qiao Jiao's marriage partner. What did she think?"

Zuo Xiaowei hesitated for a moment and replied: "She...she said that this is a match made in heaven, because Qiao Jiao is the daughter of a wealthy businessman, and her fiancé's family is also a leader in the pharmaceutical industry. Qiao Jiao should marry such a man."

"Isn't that great?" After a short pause, I said to her with a smile: "Life is just a passing cloud... let's eat."

Zuo Xiaowei looked at me again and then picked up the chopsticks.

Halfway through the meal, I took the initiative to say to her again: "After your meeting is over, you can accompany me to the mall..."

"it is good."

"Is there any shopping mall near here?"

"SKP is nearby. Almost all luxury brands are there... What do you want to buy?"

"I'm not interested in luxury brands. I just wander around, as long as it's in a shopping mall."

Zuo Xiaowei nodded and agreed to my proposal to go to the mall.

(End of this chapter)