i'm not a bad man

Chapter 497 Damn Possessive
I raised such a possibility to Zou Chang, but this time she did not give me 100% approval. After a period of silence, she said to me: "In terms of Guan Yubo's crime, even sentencing him to death is not enough." Well, under the current situation, I don’t think he would return to China because of a woman; I know men in small towns too well. They only see drinking, making money and having fun. In fact, they don’t think women are very important. What's more, for a man like Guan Yubo who has no shortage of women, even if he has true feelings for Zuo Xiaowei, he will still weigh it... Unless Zuo Xiaowei is really at a critical moment of life and death, he may come back. If he just has I have married another man, I think it is unlikely that he will come back..."

"You probably don't know what possessiveness is... You and I have the opposite view. Zuo Xiaowei is really at a critical moment of life and death. He may not come back. But if Zuo Xiaowei betrays him and has a new relationship, he will He would lose his mind... That's why he hired a murderer to kill your father, but after so many years, he was not with Zuo Xiaowei because he always thought that Zuo Xiaowei didn't have a boyfriend. "

"But... Guan Yubo is also a famous figure. He won't..."

"If you knew what a terrifying desire possessiveness is, you wouldn't have so many questions..." After a pause, I added: "This damn possessiveness!... Why is there such an extreme desire?" In rhetoric, use damn to describe possessiveness?... I have never felt that Guan Yubo is an impeccable person, because in my understanding of him, he is a person with character flaws... As long as it exceeds his critical point point, he will become crazy, including towards himself... So, he will kill your father and the teacher who slapped him when he was a student."

Zou Chang fell into silence again.

"Whether it can be successful or not, time will give the answer. There is no need for us to debate here."

"I know, brother... I should believe you. We people have too mediocre vision, so I have been doing nothing in my life, and in the end I can only be reduced to a bartender."

I could feel Zou Chang's inferiority complex, but I didn't say anything about it. After a moment of silence, I changed the subject and said to her: "You have to promise me something. No matter what, Zuo Xiaowei is being raped." You can’t tell anyone about the sexual assault.”

"Don't worry, brother, we have the same position on this matter, and I won't tell anyone."

……

After finishing the call with Zou Chang, I still did not leave the "Xiaogang Pier". After smoking a cigarette, I picked up the phone again, and then found the phone number Zuo Xiaowei had contacted me before...

In my memory, except for that time when she left quietly, I almost never took the initiative to call her; during the long period of time we knew each other, she was the one who took the initiative, took the initiative to talk to me, took the initiative to ask me out, and took the initiative to be there for me. Do something and take the initiative to plan our future; to this day, whenever I think of Zuo Xiaowei, I will think of the word "active". Therefore, even if we have reached this point, I never think that she will Away from me.

With my fingers hanging, I finally pressed the dial button on the phone number after a moment of hesitation.

……

Zuo Xiaowei on the other end of the phone didn't seem to believe that I would call her. After being silent for a long time, she tentatively said to me: "Han Chao?"

"Well, it's me...where are you now?"

"I've been doing BJ's lately."

"I want to meet with you."

Zuo Xiaowei was silent again. I could feel that her mood was very complicated, but I couldn't be sure what she was thinking. So, she gave me a somewhat unexpected answer. She said: "She's gone. Recently." I’m very busy, I’ve been preparing for the concert.”

"Don't you have time for a meeting?"

"If you want me to tell the truth, then I tell you... I don't want to meet you."

"why?"

"There's no reason, I just don't want to meet you."

After pondering for a while, I asked again: "Is it because you want to avoid suspicion? Are you afraid that Guan Yubo will be unhappy?"

"As long as you know."

"Then...that's alright...then I won't bother you."

After saying that, I ended the call with Zuo Xiaowei; because the call was too brief, the cigarette in my hand had not been finished yet. I raised my hand to look at the half-burned cigarette and did not throw it away. , I took a while to finish it, and then I booked a high-speed train ticket from Qingdao to BJ on my mobile phone at 03:30 pm.

……

I went back to the hotel and simply packed some luggage, then took a taxi to the high-speed rail station, and then boarded the high-speed train at 03:30 on time; this is a slightly slower high-speed train, and it takes four and a half hours to get to BJ. That means I can't arrive until eight o'clock.

I was a little tired. After getting on the bus, I stared at the slightly monotonous scenery outside the window for a while, and then fell asleep in a daze; until the seat next to me was replaced by a new passenger. When he was placing the suitcase, he made a I woke up when there was a lot of movement... It was already halfway through the journey. I took my phone out of my pocket. There was an unread text message on it, which was sent by Zuo Xiaowei: "Do you have something to ask for?" me?"

This message was sent an hour ago. Seeing that I didn’t reply, she sent another one 10 minutes ago: “If something really happens to you, it’s not like I can’t see you... To make a long story short, that’s fine.”

I let out a long breath, and then replied to the message: "Nothing special, I just happened to go to BJ, and suddenly I wanted to see you."

I still couldn’t understand Zuo Xiaowei’s mood. Anyway, after half an hour, she replied to the message and asked: “When will you arrive?”

"It says it's eight o'clock. I don't know if there will be a delay."

After this message was sent, Zuo Xiaowei did not reply to my message, and I also checked the remaining kilometers. At this time, there were still [-] kilometers away from BJ, so there should be no delays.

……

When we were about to arrive at BJ, Renran called me again. After the call was answered, she asked me: "Where are you? I haven't seen you all day."

"Something."

"It's already dinner time. Your elder brother said he would treat us to a delicious seafood meal. Come back quickly. The hotel has been booked."

"I can't go, Sister Ran, you can eat... I'm on the train right now, and I'll be at BJ in about an hour."

"You...you went to BJ?"

"Ah."

"Why are you going to BJ suddenly?"

"I want to walk around while I'm free now."

"No...are you going to find Lu Xi?"

I was stunned for a moment, feeling incomprehensible... Even Ren Ran never thought that the person I was really looking for when I went to BJ this time was Zuo Xiaowei, not Lu Xi; in everyone's eyes, Zuo Xiaowei was the one She is a dispensable person in my heart. For Zuo Xiaowei, this must be a very painful and bad feeling. Because I have never treated her with my heart, so I left such a feeling to others. impression.

After a while of silence, I finally spoke to Ren Ran and said, "No, I'm just taking a walk to relax."

"Then why don't you ask us to go together?"

"Human beings' joys and sorrows are not the same. When I am with you, I can't feel your happiness, and I don't want you to see me with a dark face... It's fine to go around by myself."

"Han Chao, I really suspect that you may have a psychological problem... A person's psychological problems start from not being gregarious."

"Come on, I'm mentally healthy."

"When are you going to come back?"

"what happened again?"

"I must take you to see a psychiatrist."

Of course I thought this was a redundant suggestion, but just when I was about to defend myself, the train entered a tunnel and lost the signal. The call between me and Ren Ran was cut off.

This tunnel seems to be a critical point. Before entering, it can be called evening. The moment you come out, it is really dark.

(End of this chapter)