i'm not a bad man

Chapter 47: Be frank and frank
A person who came to Tianjin specifically for me?Although there is still an element of mystery, I already have the answer in my mind, because the city with her is really too close to Tianjin. If you take the high-speed train, it only takes between 10 and 10 minutes at most.

Sure enough, after the car got on the viaduct, I saw a giant sign leading to the train station. I didn't tell anyone about this, but just looked at this city where I had lived for more than 20 years in silence in the rearview mirror. Going backwards quickly...

Gradually, sadness came from my heart.

At one time, I thought it was just a mood, but after experiencing so many things, I have a deeper understanding of this mood. It is not just a mood, nor does it burst out suddenly, it is a kind of silence. When you look back, you will see countless selves in the past, suffering, lonely, entangled, persisting, enduring, escaping...

But even after enduring so much suffering, his life still did not improve, and his spirit remained as barren as ever, so the disappointment spread infinitely in his body, and he finally turned into a frustrated man in ragged clothes, hiding in the dirtiest corner of the world. , neither glamorous nor energetic.

I think the result in front of me is more like a warning from my parents, asking me to try their pain back then...

Because they left so quietly, no one knew their whereabouts. They must have been like me before, changing their phone numbers and disappearing from this city.

I understand this feeling of escaping so well, because I no longer have to face those endless gossips.

This world is really extremely absurd. What is even more absurd than this world is what those idle people say: They actually rumored that I was going to jail just because I disappeared for four years.

Isn't this absurd and sad?
……

When I came to my senses again, Ren Ran had already driven the car to the high-speed rail station.After she parked the car, she asked me with some surprise: "Why are you not curious at all, who is the person who came to Tianjin specifically for you?"

"Who else could it be besides Zuo Xiaowei?"

"Why are you so boring? Can't you cooperate with me to create that kind of surprise atmosphere?"

"Is this self-entertainment or self-deception?"

While talking, I saw Zuo Xiaowei mixed in the crowd, looking around and walking in our direction. Ren Ran got out of the car immediately, and she waved to Zuo Xiaowei. After Zuo Xiaowei noticed Ren Ran, He quickened his pace and ran over here, and then he hugged Ren Ran, very intimately.

This is probably the effect of distance producing beauty. In fact, when we were hanging out together in the bar, the two of them were not as close as they are now. Especially Zuo Xiaowei, who always likes to compete with Ren Ran, for fear that she is not as beautiful as Ren Ran; Therefore, when there is an occasion for Renran, she will deliberately dress up very sexy, but Renran always lets her go. Even so, the title of the richest woman in the world still falls on Renran; no way, temperament This kind of thing really cannot be dressed up...

Maybe I'm biased, there are always people who prefer sexy women.

……

I didn't get out of the car. Zuo Xiaowei knocked on the window. After I lowered the glass, she looked at me coldly and asked, "Why haven't you contacted me?"

"There is nothing to be diligent about, either a traitor or a thief."

"At this time, you know that if you show courtesy for nothing, you are either committing adultery or stealing?"

I had no intention of quarreling with Zuo Xiaowei, I just glanced at her and fell into silence; Zuo Xiaowei still looked reluctant, and she didn't stop until Ren Ran motioned her to get in the car first.

It’s not her fault. I’ve never told her about my family’s affairs, so I don’t know what happened after we came to Tianjin, let alone my mood at this moment. So she stayed the same as usual. When we met, he stabbed my bad mood again.

...In a very famous local barbecue restaurant in Tianjin, we asked for a booth, and then ordered some beer and skewers, eating, drinking, and chatting...

Ren Ran asked Zuo Xiaowei first: "Xiaowei, how does it feel to switch from Qingdao to BJ?"

"There are two extremes. In Qingdao, I just dawdle, but in BJ, I am so busy that I have no time to breathe."

"Why are you so busy right now?"

"I'm getting ready to debut. Not only do I have to release an album, but I also have to pursue various relationships with Lin Xiangyu..." At this point, Zuo Xiaowei sighed and said, "The album can't be made in a short while. Most of the time is spent socializing.”

"Well, this circle is very complicated. You have to control yourself."

Renran said this with great sincerity, but Zuo Xiaowei looked at me and replied: "Everyone knows that this circle is complicated, so just think of it as dedicating yourself to art."

I finally said at this time: "Don't think about taking shortcuts. Although it can bring you some benefits in front of you, it will never last long... You should still think about how to improve your business level. It is gold, and it will always be To shine in this industry.”

Zuo Xiaowei immediately retorted: "You really can stand and talk without pain in your back. How many serious singers who have graduated from music conservatories have weak professional skills? But there are only a few who can really become famous... …When I was in school, I worked hard, and to really enter the circle, I fought for connections and resources… If I didn’t even have this level of sobriety, I wouldn’t have to hang out in this circle.”

After saying that, she turned to Ren Ran and said: "Sister Ran, I heard that you were also in the hosting industry at the beginning, and you are interested in hosting a program on a higher-level TV station, so you can be regarded as half of the entertainment industry. ...But then why did you quit the job and marry a wealthy local businessman when you were at your most successful?"

This was indeed a bit painful for Ren Ran, but Ren Ran did not choose to avoid it. Instead, she said to Zuo Xiaowei in a very calm mood: "The higher I go, the more I feel suffocated, because in this circle, people The water was really too deep, and my tutor didn’t allow me to go astray. It happened that he appeared at this time and was excellent in all aspects, so I withdrew from this circle.”

"But what's the result? Is your marriage still unhappy? And you're controlled by others... It's better to risk it all and take the initiative in life in your own hands."

When Zuo Xiaowei said this, Ren Ran and I made eye contact unconsciously; we both felt strange to her because of what she said. She is no longer the same person as before. That ignorant and artistic young woman sang love songs in the bar. At least, I saw in her an ambition to control her own destiny.

She changed, and she changed the moment she chose to go to BJ.

But I didn't know what to say to her; I just suddenly thought of the word "everyone has his own ambitions", just like from elementary school to university, I got along with so many classmates day and night, and we played, studied and grew together; finally , some people became fitness coaches, some became stewardesses, some became full-time waitresses, some became scientific researchers, and some died young...

This process, not to mention just me, even their parents could not really control it; so, I simply chose to remain silent and never told Zuo Xiaowei what I was thinking.

……

At this time, Zuo Xiaowei suddenly poured herself a large glass of beer, raised her head and drank it, and then said to me: "Han Chao, in fact, I also really hate the person I described in my mouth, a woman, but ordinary people I have a little support around me, but I don’t want to end up like this... You know? Sister Ting Ran said that you guys came to Tianjin together and asked me if I wanted to get together... So I sneaked over from someone else’s dinner party, I know this is not good and will make Lin Xiangyu very embarrassed... However, I still want to fight for myself once, just think it is arranged by God... Although you did not go to BJ, Tianjin is also close to BJ, so I will lie to myself Myself, think that you are here just for me... I don’t want to rely on Lin Xiangyu, I want to fight with you in BJ... You know I like you... We can form a band together, I will be the lead singer, you have creative ability, we Take it one step at a time, and at the worst, I can participate in the talent show. I don’t rely on anyone, just rely on my own strength... It’s really popular to be a band now, and many TV stations have put on band-themed variety shows, so we really have a chance.” (Follow the author’s WeChat public account: *** to view the latest chapters!)

Seeing Zuo Xiaowei losing her composure, Ren Ran took the beer glass from her hand and said, "Xiao Wei, you're a little drunk..."

"I didn't drink too much, I was very sober... When you love someone, you have to be open and honest. I will never learn other people's secretive feelings!" After finishing speaking, Zuo Xiaowei said to me in a more serious tone. : "Han Chao, what do you think I like about you?... Do you like that you are coquettish? Do you like that you have a broken RV?... Or that travel experience you have talked about hundreds of times?... None, I really like you It's your talent... your musical talent... Because this is something that I will never have in my life, and I really want to get closer... If one day, I really become the queen of the Chinese music scene, I hope You must be the man who put the crown on me with your own hands..."

(End of this chapter)