i'm not a bad man

Chapter 374 I am also settled
I find that I can’t think of Lu Xi and Luan Yu at the same time. I feel very uncomfortable because a large part of Lu Xi’s contribution to me is due to Luan Yu. When I think of Luan Yu, I also feel that she is wronged. What is she doing? I did nothing wrong, but I gave her such an unacceptable result without any psychological preparation for her.

It was precisely because she couldn't accept it that she took such an action that was beyond her character. Of course she was not a woman who would easily go to a bar to get drunk. This is something I can do, but she won't...

Therefore, this time, the harm I did to her may have exceeded my prediction of the outcome. Maybe something unexpected will happen later, but I don’t know what will happen when these things happen. In what way it continues to me.

To put it simply, I have doubts in my heart. Will the grievances and hatred in Lu Xi’s heart lead to unexpected intersections between us?Or should we say that all the love, hatred and resentment will slowly fade away, and in the end we will forget each other in the torrent of time as if we have never met before?

difficult!
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When I returned to my residence, I saw the dog named Xi Le that Lu Xi had given me. It was lying at the door, whimpering feebly. It wasn't until it was confirmed that I was back that its dark eyes became brighter and its whimpers became louder. It's so big, it seems to be accusing...

I looked down and found that the basin that originally contained water and dog food had been licked clean by it. I don’t know if Chang Yuli came back to feed it during the two days that Qiao Jiao and I left. Pass water and dog food.

There shouldn't be, otherwise it wouldn't look like it's about to starve to death.

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After refilling the water and dog food, I sat on the steps to accompany it. It seemed that its brain was not working well. It didn't know whether to eat dog food or drink water first. After being stunned for a while, it chose I saw it diving into the dog food bowl, eating half of it, and knocking over half of it. It looked funny, but I felt even more uncomfortable because I had failed Luxi's trust to me. Joy becomes no joy at all.

I dialed Chang Yuli's number again, and I felt a little angry. After Chang Yuli answered the call, I scolded him: "What's the matter with you? It's just a dog. Please take the time to come back and add some water and dog food." You can even forget about food!"

Chang Yuli replied aggrievedly: "Brother Chao, I really didn't forget on purpose. It's not like you don't know. What I deal with is medical security. How difficult it is to deal with hospitals. All kinds of coordination... Moreover, there has been an outbreak of influenza recently. Our small town hospital is simply understaffed. I have traveled to several counties next door to try to borrow some medical support from them. This is all time consuming... Now it is not just about medical security. This part of the process falls on me. My dad wants to talk to the government about free highways. There is a lot of human connection involved. My dad doesn’t drink much anymore, so I can only keep him company. He drank to me until he was seventy percent drunk yesterday. Ba Su, I just stayed in the hotel, and I went to work on the scenic spots this morning...who cares about a dog!"

I was a little speechless, because Chang Tianming and I really put a lot of pressure on Chang Yuli when it came to reviving the scenic spot. When he was already overwhelmed, I couldn't put myself on this dog. I have to ask him according to his standards, not to mention that this is the dog Luxi gave me, and only I can truly understand the emotion in it.

I put the satiated Joy on my lap, and then stroked its head with a force that it enjoyed very much. This made it feel at ease, and it looked at the mountains in the distance with me motionless. , I was so absorbed that I even forgot that I hadn’t ended the call with Chang Yuli.

"Brother Chao, I'm not telling you, this is not the right time to raise a dog. Let's not talk about the scenic spots. Aren't you going to Hunan to see your godfather and godmother soon? The days will definitely not be short, and Sister Jiao is not here either. Who will take care of your dog then... Why don't you listen to me and find someone who has the time and energy to send it out, and you don't have to worry about it all the time, and it can live a better life than following you."

I subconsciously looked down at "Happiness", and unconsciously thought of the scene when Lu Xi entrusted it to me, with mixed feelings in my heart.

Chang Yuli took my silence as a kind of acquiescence, and he said to me again: "If you agree, I will send it to Moments to see who is willing to adopt it."

After I came to my senses, I quickly replied: "Why are you so anxious? I still have to go to Hunan in a few days."

"By the time you go, it will be too late to find someone to adopt him."

"Then I'll take it with me to Hunan."

"Uh... you are really not afraid of trouble when you eat, drink and eat all the time!"

"No trouble."

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After finishing the call with Chang Yuli, I raised the already sleepy Xixi above my head, then raised my head and stared at it; it indeed looked cuter and sweeter than the average native dog. Being lazy, the value of its existence seems to be to eat and drink enough. This makes me feel that getting along with it is a very relaxing and pleasant thing, so even if it is thousands of miles away, I am still willing to take it with me.Bringing it with me is just like fulfilling the promise I made with Lu Xi. After all, this is the dog she gave me. It is a kind of representation to a certain extent. Although it seems a bit dramatic, it is also considered as letting me go to Hunan. The matter has come to a settled conclusion.

I put down "Happiness" and then took out my mobile phone. After taking a deep breath, I finally took the initiative to make a call to the old man after three years...

Although I felt sad in my heart, I still let myself be filled with a sense of closeness and shouted: "Ji (the Miao people's name for father)."

The old man agreed repeatedly and said to me almost choking with sobs: "After waiting for so long, you finally called us!"

"Ji... these years, I have been thinking about you and Li'a (the Miao people's name for mother)... I... but I don't know how to face you, so..." After a pause, I continued In a relieved tone, he said softly: "Ji, now that I have thought about it, I miss you and Li A very much... I plan to go to Hunan to see you and Li A with you after I finish the things at hand. Chinese New Year..."

"Okay, okay, okay... You have been gone for more than three years, and I am finally looking forward to your return... You and I will prepare early and clean up the house... This year, we got a lot of bacon and sausages at home. It's what you like to eat... You Lia always told me that it was time for them to come back and take a look. I was right, so I killed the fattest pig in the house. They like to eat bacon and sausages... Hey...it's really, it seems like it was destined that you guys are really back!"

Tears welled up in my eyes, and it took me a long time before I replied: "Ji, I remember telling you last time that Luan Yu and I are no longer together, so...this time, I am alone. Go back and see you."

"This...don't you think about it? Young people are somewhat conflicted about their feelings...we can get back together if we think about it. It's not like we don't have feelings for each other!"

"You misunderstood... What I said was to let go... Ji... Luan Yu is very good now. She married abroad. Her husband is very good to her and listens to her in everything. He won't be like me. I always go against her, always compete with her... When two people are together, affection is of course the foundation, but whether they can tolerate each other is the final deciding factor... I have never been good at this. ...So, don't feel sorry for us...because the separation must be for a better life...Luan Yu is happy now!"

My heart was bleeding, but in order not to reveal the secret, I kept holding back the tears, let alone choked.

After a period of silence, the old man finally replied with emotion: "No wonder I haven't been able to contact her recently. It turns out that she went abroad... maybe she changed her phone number?"

"Well, you must change your phone number when you go abroad." After a short pause, I said in a gentle tone: "Ji... please don't contact Luan Yu in the future. She is already married... From her She has some concerns about her family. After all, this relationship only exists because of me... If the news reaches her husband, it will seem a bit disrespectful..."

The old man said again and again: "Don't cause any trouble to her... Don't worry... We won't cause any trouble to her!"

After saying that, he seemed to fall into a low mood again...

"Don't feel too sad... Ji... just keep some feelings in your heart... Luan Yu will not forget you... Before she left the country, she left 8 yuan for me and asked me to transfer it to you. ...Although she didn't say anything about the reason, I know that she is fulfilling her filial piety in her own way... You and Lia will always be a concern in her heart, just like you are concerned about her..."

I could hardly control my emotions. Without waiting for a reply, I hurriedly said before I choked up: "Ji... I still have some things to do here... I'll wait until I decide when to leave. Let’s call you…”

"Xiaochao...wait..."

"Any thing else?"

"Xiaoyu's relationship is already settled...what about you?"

"I also have a settlement...she went abroad to spend the New Year with her mother...otherwise she would have come with me to see you and Lia!"

(End of this chapter)