i'm not a bad man

Chapter 328 Death can exceed the speed of light

In the convenience store on the street, I bought a pack of black Lanzhou cigarettes, lit them, and hummed quietly the song I sang next to the "Zhongzhou Bridge" in Lanzhou that year: "Lanzhou, always run away in the early morning; Lanzhou , the warm drunkenness at night; Lanzhou, the endless water of the Yellow River flows eastward; Lanzhou, the end of the road is the entrance to the sea..."

I wanted to use this method to awaken the memories of Lanzhou and bring her back, but when the deep night pressed down on me like a rotten rag, I felt that it was so futile because time It is impossible to look back, and people cannot come back from the dead. Even the buses that leave the platform cannot stop at the same place the next time they come. This is a world that is constantly changing and dying...

This time, I really wanted to cry, but I couldn't shed any more tears. The past two days had exhausted all my emotions; I really couldn't accept that a woman who had been with me day and night for two years suddenly appeared in front of me. Disappeared in this world without a trace.

I didn't even keep a single photo of her. How much did I hate her at that time, so that I would delete all traces of the two of us being together so completely?

"Han Chao, this is a photo I found when I was sorting out Luan Yu's belongings... After thinking about it, I gave it to you. After all, this is a memory related to you."

After saying that, Lu Xi also handed a photo to my hand, and I took it from her hand tremblingly. This was the photo that Blackfoot’s girlfriend at the time took for us; in the photo, I was wearing sunglasses and hugging Playing the guitar, Luan Yu rode on me, holding in her hands the two bunches of candied haws that left a deep impression on Black Foot...

I have mixed feelings, and because of this photo, I think of Luan Yu's appearance again. I have thought about her countless times these days, but her appearance is blurred in my mind...

I carefully held this photo in my hands, not even knowing where to put it; at this time, Lu Xi said to me again: "The priceless love event you planned should have already started planning... You Carrying Luan Yu's photo and her feelings for you, climbing to the top of the mountain together... is the last thing you do for her... Before that, you can feel sad for her, but after climbing to the top of the mountain, You have to pick yourself up again and be a happy man, because this is what she wants to see most in you. She has spent her entire life waiting for you to give her a home, so you can't do this last wish. Don’t let her down again.”

"it is good."

"Well, everything will get better slowly... Go back to the hotel and rest early."

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Back in the hotel room, I picked up the only remaining photo of me and Luan Yu and looked at it over and over again until someone knocked on my door...

When I opened the door, it was Qiao Jiao. This was the first time I saw her after arriving in Qingdao.She was carrying wine in one hand and appetizers in the other. I thought she was going to drink with me in the room, but she asked me to pull out the key card in the room and seemed to take me out.

I was taken downstairs of the hotel by Qiao Jiao, and she said to me: "I have observed that no one has moved in to the villa I sold, and the RV you had before is still there. Parked in the yard... Let's go have a drink in your RV... I know you're sad now, but people always have to come out. The only way to come out is definitely not to escape. You have to face what you have experienced. Everything...then let yourself hurt to the limit. After reaching the limit, you will naturally enter the pain subsidence period..."

I looked at Qiao Jiao and didn't know what to say for a moment, but she thought it was a question, and hurriedly said to me: "Believe me, I have experience. This is how I got through it."

After saying that, she opened the car door for me and pushed me into her car.

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The car was driving very fast along the Huanhai Highway. I kept the windows open to let the cold wind pour into the car. I became more and more awake, but I still couldn't tell clearly what really hurt my heart. Where does it come from? It's like a person who is sick and can't find the root cause of the disease. He only feels pain everywhere. Wherever I press my hand, it hurts the most. …

The car drove for about 10 minutes before arriving at Qiao Jiao's residence. She parked the car in an open space not far from the villa, and then got out of the car with the wine and food she had prepared in advance.She looked very careful, leaning on the guardrail of the yard and looking over and over; in fact, there was no need for her to be like this, because the buyer behind this house was her father, and she was actually the owner of the house.

After making sure there was no movement inside, she handed me the wine and food in her hand, and then said to me: "I'll dig in first, and when I get in, you can hand me the wine and food."

"You don't have to drink here. Your place is close to the beach. We can go to the beach to drink."

"If you are so afraid of memories, then you will never come out."

After saying that, Qiao Jiao didn't give me a chance to speak anymore, and climbed directly onto the guardrail, preparing to climb over the yard. While she was climbing over the wall, I finally looked into the yard, and I saw the car that once took me there. The RV traveled to 296 cities with Luan Yu and me...

Memories were like a tide, instantly occupying my mind, and I lost my mind because of it. It wasn't until Qiao Jiao exclaimed that I looked up; I saw Qiao Jiao's coat caught on the spikes at the top of the guardrail. And her whole body was hung in the air, a little helpless...

This scene finally freed me from the memories related to Luan Yu. I recalled that night when Qiao Jiao and I entered the kindergarten together. That time, my pants were caught by the sharp point on the guardrail. The thorn is stuck...

Only then did I realize that in the two years after I separated from Luan Yu, I actually had some unusual memories with other women.

"Han Chao, what are you doing standing still? Get me down quickly!"

While she was talking, there was another tearing sound from Qiao Jiao's coat, but it was not completely torn, and she was still hanging in the air. Then I also turned over the guardrail, and then jumped neatly into the yard. inside.

The guardrails of villas are generally not high, so I was able to hug Qiao Jiao's legs with my feet up. After giving her the strength to support me, I asked her to try to take off her coat. Qiao Jiao was quite smart and immediately twisted. She moved and pulled herself out of the coat. At the moment she pulled away, a downward gravity was generated. This gravity made me stagger. In order to prevent the two of them from falling, I subconsciously hugged them tightly. Qiao Jiao......

But even though I wanted to hold her tightly, because the injury had not healed, and the downward gravity of an adult was pressing down on me, there was a strong pain in the swollen and painful area of ​​the leg, and I lost it. He lost his support and suddenly fell to the ground with Qiao Jiao...

At the moment when I fell, feeling the weight of Qiao Jiao, I no longer had the desire or motivation to get up. I just lay straight on the ground, staring at the starry sky with dull eyes...

I was thinking: If there is another world, it must be on another planet, and death is a vehicle that can exceed the speed of light. It will instantly take a person to another planet and start a new life. …

It must be so!
(End of this chapter)