i'm not a bad man

Chapter 283 You are inside, I am outside

This was the first time I talked to Lu Xi with emotions. Although I had reminded myself more than once that as an ordinary person, I should not expect to have an emotional intersection with a popular female star. But as the relationship between us As we continued to get along with her more deeply, I discovered many of her emotional weaknesses. There were times when she was lonely and helpless, and she was also afraid of facing an empty house alone, so whenever she returned to Qingdao, she would stay in a hotel; in addition, there were The obsession in her heart, and it is this obsession that makes me no longer obsessed with her star aura. She also has people she misses and times she misses, and this person must be an ordinary person. The reason why she is in Lu Xi's heart He left a precious position just because he had accompanied her through the darkest period of her life. This shows that Lu Xi’s subconscious does not care much about the identity of her partner. What she cares more about is the relationship between the two of them. The feeling of being together, so this gave me the confidence to pursue it, because in addition to material poverty, I can really provide her with a very fulfilling spiritual companionship; in addition to spiritual and material aspects, I have no choice to continue to degenerate. That's why I was willing to stay in the small town and form such a big game. The purpose was not only to realize the value of life, but also to get closer to her in all aspects.

I really have a lot of fantasies about her, about life, about the future, about life...

Lu Xi never responded to me; so, I spoke to her again: "Not speaking is also an answer... You will be lonely and long for company by your side, but you will suppress yourself better than Qiao Jiao... If it's because of Luan Yu, if you really feel that long-term pain is worse than short-term pain, then you might as well find a boyfriend now and openly announce it to the public... Only in this way will I feel discouraged. In addition, the obsession in my heart will not fade at all... Anyway, we are still young, so let's use it up... It is a kind of result to exhaust it to the end and have no way out... But you You can't push me to Qiao Jiao's side, making it seem like I was given away by you. You should know Qiao Jiao better than I do, and even if she is dependent on me, she should not disdain this kind of given feeling..."

After a long silence, Lu Xi finally spoke: "Yes, you are right, Jiaojiao would disdain this kind of giving up feelings... so she chose to stay with you and be with you. Starting a business, working together, and even living together. For a man and a woman, there is no more perfect experience than this. You will slowly discover her advantages... But, I can't do these, I don't want to I just feel ashamed of myself for giving up this relationship.”

This time, I spoke after a period of silence. My voice was very low: "When I calm down, I will try to understand you...understand your identity and understand the obstacles that stand between us. , but also to understand your mood, I will never be able to replace the position of that man in your heart. For him, you can practice skating unremittingly, and you can be in the entertainment industry, but you never bother to spread scandals with anyone... even , for that so-called difficult move, for his promise to you, he would not hesitate to tear his Achilles tendon... I am not mocking you, I really am not mocking, for a woman, this kind of quality is really It's so rare, so rare, especially in this era where feelings can be rampant... So, I'm just envious, even a little jealous, but more importantly, I'm sorry that I couldn't be there in the darkest days of your life. , giving you equal companionship..."

After taking a deep breath, I forced a smile and said, "I have listened to what you just said to me. I will definitely settle down and do a good job here... Whatever is important in the future On every occasion, I will wear the suit you gave me, not only because it fits me perfectly, but also because I want to regard this suit as a commemoration between you and me, commemorating the moment when you were For me, this kind of heartbeat is the motivation for struggle... In addition, I am also a little curious. There will be a day when any career will end in stages. When I realize Danangou When the scenic spot is revived, what kind of state will you and I be in?"

This is a question that won’t have an answer right away, so I didn’t expect Lu Xi to answer me. I hung up the phone before her because I had finished saying what needed to be conveyed and what needed to be said, and the rest was There is only a hint of sadness and a hint of loss. On the premise that I sincerely hope that she will be happy, there is no need to show this emotion in front of her.

Standing there, I looked around blankly. The setting sun had already hung on the top of the shortest mountain, and the golden sunlight was scattered all over the ground. Qiao Jiao was standing in the sunlight scattered all over the ground, with an expressionless face. looked at me.She seemed to have heard the conversation between me and Lu Xi, but I did not notice her presence. All my attention and emotions were consumed by the phone call just now, and they have not completely subsided until now.

……

Qiao Jiao walked over to me, and I asked her first, "You didn't go back?"

"Why should I go back? I just can't stand Chang Yuli and the others killing sheep in front of me, but it doesn't mean that I won't find the roasted lamb delicious."

"Too."

I responded, lit a cigarette for myself, and then looked at the waterfall higher up for a while. At this time, Qiao Jiao said to me again: "I'm quite curious, can you tell me, consumption Being at the end of your rope and running out of resources is also a result... What kind of result it is, I have been thinking about it since you said this sentence... Unfortunately, I have too little experience to think about it. To find out why, I have to ask you to explain it to me."

I sank and sat on the stone at my feet. Qiao Jiao did not sit down with me this time. She just looked at me condescendingly and blocked part of the afterglow of the sunset for me, reflecting her. The golden color is shining, she really heard the conversation between me and Lu Xi!

After taking another deep breath on the cigarette, I finally said to her: "I'm exhausted, I'm exhausted and I have no way out. If you ask me what the result is, I can't tell you, but I can give you an example." Example...you know Brigitte Lin and Qin Han, right?" "Brigitte Lin knows it, but Qin Han doesn't."

"As long as you know one person, Brigitte Lin and Qin Han's relationship was exhausted and exhausted... The two have been entangled for a total of 20 years, but in the end they still couldn't be together... I can't tell who let down whom. , I can’t tell who is right and who is wrong...anyway..."

"Anyway what?"

"There is no result for them, but for onlookers, there is a result... Because Brigitte Lin married a wealthy businessman after going around in circles. As for Qin and Han, he is not as famous as Brigitte Lin, so not many people pay attention to him What kind of state will it be like after separation from Brigitte Lin... So, there is no result, but it is also a result."

"It's the same as not saying it."

"Emotional matters are just a puddle of muddy water. No one can explain clearly."

Qiao Jiao then sat down next to me. She was neither very close nor far away from me. After a moment of silence, she finally spoke to me and said, "Since no one can explain clearly, let's start with No more talking, there will be results anyway..." After a short pause, she added: "Let's talk about the matter at hand...don't you think there is something suspicious about what Chang Tianming said just now?"

I was a little surprised and asked: "What's the doubt?" (Follow the author's Weixin public account: ***, reply "B&B" to see the prototype of Tank Inn B&B.)
"Ordinarily, that person is his distant relative and nephew, so he will not be emotionally biased towards Guan Yubo... Why would he suddenly rebel?... Even if Guan Yubo gave him a benefit, this benefit would be greater than what Chang Tianming gave him. Is there any benefit? Chang Tianming invested in a B&B worth over 2000 million yuan, and planned to give him shares. This share would give him a long-term job... He wouldn't really be able to distinguish between a full meal and a meal. The difference is that he is full, unless Guan Yubo gives him enough benefits at once, but I feel that such a thing is not worth Guan Yubo spending so much money to buy... There must be something fishy in this..."

"Didn't you accept Uncle Chang as your goddaughter? How come you still talk about Chang Tianming?"

"I won't recognize this identity until I figure out what's going on here...I won't allow him to deceive you, because his deception is a risk to you." After saying that, Qiao Jiao patted me again. Leg said: "Make an appointment and let's go find that person together and see what the truth is... I think the truth is very important to us. If Chang Tianming didn't lie, it proves that he has no intention of deceiving us. And we can also use this incident to figure out how determined Guan Yubo is to become our enemy. His determination depends on how much he spent to bribe that person... It is said that only by knowing yourself and the enemy can you be victorious in every battle."

I don’t know when, Qiao Jiao has already acted as a strategist beside me. Her thoughts are so delicate that I was shocked, but I was just shocked, not scared, because everything she said told me that this is our With a common cause, we have become a whole, and I also need this kind of complementarity. Because of my personality, I am not a person who likes to be on guard everywhere. That's why I was plotted by Zuo Xiaowei and those friends that time. When we arrived at Luxi's room, Zuo Xiaowei could figure me out, let alone those in the business world? ()

This complementarity gave me a sense of security, and I subconsciously nodded to Qiao Jiao. (Follow the author's Weixin public account: ***, reply "B&B" to view the prototype of Tank Inn B&B. Reply "Lu Xi" and "Qiao Jiao" to view the character picture!)
Qiao Jiao also smiled slightly because of my approval. She seemed to have made a decision and said to me: "From now on, you are in charge and I am in charge, as long as it is inconvenient for you to come forward, I will take care of it." Do it... Anyway, I am a woman and I have a thick skin, so I am not afraid of offending people!"

(End of this chapter)