i'm not a bad man

Chapter 238 The Subtle Atmosphere

I really have no way to determine whether I sent it to Luxi or Blackfoot, because their WeChat avatars are somewhat similar, both based on white. It is really difficult to tell who is who at a glance without zooming in.

"If you think about it carefully, should you send it to Blackfoot or Deer Creek?"

I patted my head and replied: "I really can't remember. Around the same time in the evening, I chatted with them for a few words..." After a short pause, I said again: "Anyway, they are all here, no one can come." It’s the same, let’s just wait and feel at ease.”

"What are you and Lu Xi chatting about?"

"Didn't she ask me to write a song for her? When I get some inspiration, I'll just chat for a while."

Qiao Jiao nodded, and then fell into silence. At this time, I pulled down the brim of my raincoat, lit a cigarette, just enough to cover it. The smoke dispersed, and my mind wandered. Sometimes I'm thinking about tomorrow's bonfire party, and sometimes I'm thinking about the messy past. It feels like a dream; who would have thought that I, who once wandered around and didn't want to live like a normal person, would settle down in a small town and start to I started my career like a human being. Although the ending is uncertain, the process has been turned upside down. Because of this, I have a feeling of being reborn. I am no longer as obsessed with freedom and women's bodies as before. Gradually, he began to look like a normal person, planning his own life while pursuing hard...

The rain was still falling, but it was a little less intense than when it was at its worst.Qiao Jiao is a person who cannot bear loneliness. After staring at the water in front of her for a while, she asked me again: "Han Chao, you are so immoral and flirting everywhere. How many girlfriends have you had?" "

I turned to look at her, and after a moment I replied: "I can't tell others this kind of thing, because it's not a conversation topic."

"Then let me guess?"

"Even if you guessed it, I won't admit it." I was probably a little bored, so after a pause, I added, "But you can try."

"The only ones I know are Luan Yu and Zuo Xiaowei. If they are the base number, then we have to multiply this by...six...that's twelve."

I smiled.

"Why are you laughing? Am I being too conservative?"

"Can you still apply formulas to get a girlfriend? It seems that you are good at mathematics."

"Don't interrupt me, just say it's right or not."

I took a deep breath of the cigarette, and actually recalled my relationship history in my mind; in fact, I only had three real girlfriends, among which Luan Yu was the most unforgettable; the one who always liked me to give her My first love when I was shopping made me realize the reality; Zuo Xiaowei was a mistake because at that time, I couldn't refuse her beauty and sexiness, but I couldn't fall in love with her, so she was the one who always paid the price unilaterally. , I just followed the trend, but even so, she also made me realize the responsibilities that a man should bear. Therefore, they are both my ex-girlfriends and my life mentors, promoting my growth step by step. As for those Women who have had sex but do not need to take responsibility for each other...

I really can’t remember clearly, and I don’t want to think of those women, because deep down, I don’t want to be labeled as a bad man.

I finally spoke to Qiao Jiao and said, "You are wrong. I have only had three real girlfriends."

Qiao Jiao sneered: "What a scumbag, you still dare to quibble... I asked too conservatively, I shouldn't ask your girlfriend, I should ask about your relationship history, including those women you have had sex with." .”

"I won't tell you this even to death."

Qiao Jiao shook her head and sighed: "Oh! Others always have a lot of love that can be repeated, but when it comes to you, there is a lot of love that can be messed up... Can't you be more pure?"

"I'm pure enough."

After saying that, I thought of Heizu. The so-called purity is only relative. Compared with Heizu, I can certainly be considered pure, but I am not embarrassed to drag Heizu into trouble in front of Qiao Jiao, because this approach is not kind.

"Are you still pure? You are just an old pervert!"

Even though I was scolded by Qiao Jiao, I wasn’t angry because I am a very self-aware person. I used to be really obsessed with women’s bodies. I regarded their bodies as an antidote. After each release, I would suddenly I will become disgusted with the relationship between men and women, so that I will temporarily forget the trauma caused by the relationship, or in other words, I will become indifferent to this trauma. I feel that when a man equates love with sex, everything will It becomes very simple, even the emotions will become simple... I don't know if this statement is considered scumbag, but it is indeed my experience.

I stepped on the cigarette butt under my feet and subconsciously looked down, only to see a bright red color flowing along the rain to my feet...

Qiao Jiao got her period without any preparation, and the rain refused to stop. This bright red color became an inevitable thing, but it was such an inevitable thing, but I didn't know how to talk to her... …

In fact, I really respect her, so I never talk nonsense on these sensitive matters. I just looked down and felt more and more that this was a very tragic night, especially for Qiao Jiao. God knows who she is at this moment. How uncomfortable, how unbearable!

I really couldn't bear it, so I took off my raincoat, then took off my own coat and handed it to her, indicating that she could use it to keep warm.

……

A beam of light came from a distance, and I saw the hope of being rescued because this was the first car passing by since we were trapped here. Unless there was a very strong purpose, it would not Someone drove a car onto this road.

I think the possibility of black feet is higher, but what finally parked in front of Qiao Jiao and me was a Mercedes-Benz SUV. I have a very deep memory of this SUV because Lu Xi was driving it to "Shuanglong Lake" at that time. "Meet me.

The car door opened, and Lu Xi stood in front of me and Qiao Jiao holding an umbrella. She was about to speak, but she focused her eyes on the bright red on the ground. She was stunned. As a woman, she understood in an instant. How is this going.

So, she fell silent again.

Inexplicably, I felt that this scene was very shocking. It was as if the three people had removed everything related to the body, leaving only their souls facing each other. However, the souls did not gain absolute freedom because of this, so she hesitated to speak, and I also He hesitated so much that Qiao Jiao didn't know anything.

……

It wasn't until we were sitting in the car that Qiao Jiao noticed something strange about herself, and quickly wrapped my coat around her waist. Lu Xi and I pretended not to see it, and the three of us fell into a new round of silence.

……

After returning to her residence, Qiao Jiao locked herself in the room. I was not idle either. I cooked a pot of brown sugar ginger soup. While waiting for the ginger soup to be ready, Lu Xi and I began to have a real meal together. chat.

We were sitting on the sofa in the living room. After looking around for a while, she said, "Are you planning to live here in the future?"

"Well, Xiao Chang can't live in such a big house by himself. If three people live together, they can take care of each other if anything happens."

Lu Xi responded without saying anything more. I turned to her and asked, "How long do you plan to stay in the small town?"

"When your bonfire party is over, Sister Minhong and I will prepare to go back to BJ."

I nodded. For some reason, there was no argument between us, but the atmosphere was inexplicably subtle. Qiao Jiao, who was always good at chatting, did not come out of her room. In the huge living room, I could only hear the sound of the heater. "Huhu" warm air blows outside.

I wanted to end this atmosphere, so I planned to find a topic to talk about, but Lu Xi suddenly looked at my face and said, "Your face has become clean."

I touched my nose subconsciously, remembering the scene when Qiao Jiao removed my blackheads...

(End of this chapter)