i'm not a bad man

Chapter 210 It's Not Good
After Luxi left, it became dark. Winter is boring and lonely. You can’t even hear the chirping of insects and birds. The entire Shuanglong Lake fell into complete silence. I was finally assimilated by the external environment and gradually calmed down. .

It had been a long time since I had experienced camping in the wild, so I picked up some dry firewood and dead branches nearby, lit them with a lighter, and then sat on the back of the mirror. The mirror blocked part of the cold wind, and there was There is no feeling of coldness in the burning flame; my only trouble is hunger, but at this moment, I don't want to go back to the streets and alleys full of fireworks. I want to stay here for a while.

This is also a very special experience in my life.

I am finally free. Where is Luan Yu at this moment? What is she going through?
In the dancing bonfire, I seemed to see Luan Yu’s face. That was the first time I saw her. She was standing at the school gate waiting for the delivery, while I was borrowing water to refill the RV in front of a restaurant opposite the school. Water source...

I didn’t have any particularly bad experiences, I just fell in love with her beauty, and since I had been lonely on the road for too long, I took the initiative to strike up a conversation with her and asked her if there was a place selling fruit near the school.

She was born with enthusiasm and immediately showed me the way. I went to buy mangoes and durians, then gave her half of them as a thank you, and took the opportunity to ask her for WeChat.

We started chatting on WeChat that night. She was a senior student at Xiamen University. She was about to graduate and was planning a graduation trip. I shared my experiences and photos on the trip with her. This behavior was really annoying. She was so in tune with me that she immediately became addicted to my wandering life; that night, I was in the RV and she was in the student dormitory. We used WeChat as a medium and chatted until dawn...

After that, I stopped in Xiamen and waited for her for three days. After she completed all the graduation procedures, I took her on the road, and everything started from here...

The night before leaving, I treated her to a big seafood meal at a seafood restaurant near the school and drank a lot of beer. I congratulated her on her successful graduation. That night, I took her first... When she seemed drunk but not drunk.

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I lost my mind in front of the bonfire. When I think about this again, time seems to have been compressed. I just feel that what happened yesterday has not gone far.

My heart was full of mixed feelings, and I couldn't help but light up another cigarette for myself. This was the last cigarette in the cigarette box. Everything was full of loneliness. This cigarette actually stayed alone in the cigarette box. a long time.

The wind blew and the smoke spread everywhere. My eyes were blurred by the smoke and tears filled my eyes.

Two wrong people met each other at the wrong time. It was really endless entanglement and endless pain. Even though Luan Yu had disappeared from my world for more than a year, now she is still entangled mercilessly. Together, none of us benefited from this, only a mess was left.

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After smoking the cigarette in my hand, I finally put out the bonfire and stood up. I hid the mirror left by Lu Xi among the mountains and rivers, and then walked down the mountain facing the stars, and the lights at the bottom of the mountain. It was bright and the traffic flowed continuously. Looking back towards the mountain, everything I had just experienced seemed to be just a dream.

But I know that it won’t be long before Luan Yu calls me. We can contact each other, but we just haven’t contacted each other. This makes me feel a little uneasy. I don’t know how to face Luan Yu. Not only can I not I gave her the life she wanted and ruined everything she had carefully planned, but I have tried my best. Under Luxi's offensive, I really can't hide it from her for the rest of my life.

Sitting on the street, smelling the smell of the night, and looking at the passers-by going home, I didn’t want to go anywhere. I felt more and more that this small town was so strange, because after I told the truth, I no longer had any sense of belonging. The meaning of life here.

Even Zuo Xiaowei has left. It seems that I can return to Qingdao, return to the embrace of the sea, and return to the life of feasting and feasting.

But when I thought of "Shuanglong Lake" and my passion to resurrect this scenic spot, I gave up the idea of ​​returning to Qingdao. If I returned to Qingdao now, I would be doomed to achieve nothing in my life because of uncertainty.

I feel that there is no better opportunity than this in my life. It is precisely because there is such a scenic spot waiting to be revitalized that my accumulation along the way becomes of substantial significance; along the way, I have met many For friends who are engaged in the cultural and tourism industry, as long as I can stick to my determination to make a career, I will definitely be able to find a win-win opportunity with them.I have to make a career. If I have a career, there may not be two tragic women, Luan Yu and Zuo Xiaowei, in my life, and I will not be defined as a bad person. Man, in some ways, I am indeed a bad man, because I always want women too easily, but I don’t have a heart to give...

It was me who provoked them, but I was unable to compensate them.

This is not good!

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This night, I spent this kind of reflection. It was almost 10:30 when I returned to the villa where I and Chang Yuli lived. Chang Yuli seemed to have gone out to socialize. I took a bottle of liquor alone and sat on a stone pier under the street lamp. While drinking, I waited for Luan Yu’s call. She would definitely make this call...

While waiting, No.2 walked through this intersection alone again. Last time, we said hello, so this time, we also nodded. I don’t know what happened, but every time I see her, I think of her. Xiaowei, when I think of Zuo Xiaowei, I can’t calm down even more.

As a result, I didn't drink a few glasses of wine, but my reflections and regrets became more and more.

It wasn't until Chang Yuli came back that I was freed from a person's emotions...

"Brother Chao, why are you drinking alone again?"

I motioned him to sit down, and then poured him a glass. He refused me because his eyes were still recovering. I stared at his eyes, and there seemed to be some signs of improvement. He and I talked about it. When I look at it, I can already focus.

"If you don't want to drink, let's talk about business...Tomorrow, you can ask the cleaning staff to clean the hotel you own at the bottom of the mountain. I'm going to send an invitation letter to invite my friends with RVs to come here to praise the scenic spot. A venue... By the way, how long has that hotel been closed? Are the facilities in the hotel still available? "

"It didn't take long, just over a month, and the water and electricity were still on."

"That's no problem. When the time comes, we will hold a bonfire party in front of the hotel. Most of these friends who have RVs are engaged in the cultural and tourism industry. We entertain them with good wine and meat, and everyone is willing to work together. Maybe we can have a chance to chat while playing..."

"I think it's okay, is there anything else you need from me?"

I thought for a while and then said: "The temptation of delicious food cannot be missing. Prepare a few more sheep and find a few more chefs who are good at barbecue. We will have a roast sheep feast that night, and the waiters cannot be missing. Although the hotel is not in operation. , but on the day these friends check in, we still have to ensure good service quality."

"No problem. I'll transfer a few waiters from other hotels. As for the roast lamb feast, that's no problem. My dad has a farm in the countryside. The sheep are all ready-made and he can roast the whole lamb. Master, our hotel also has them."

I was speechless and asked after a long time: "How many properties does your family have in this small town?"

"Everything is involved in food, clothing, housing, and transportation, but it has not been possible in recent years. More than half of them have suffered losses." (Follow the author Wei Xing's public account: ***, reply "Lu Xi" or "Qiao Jiao" to view the photos of the protagonist! You can also check out the latest chapters! Participate in the event to get a signed book from the author.)
Just as Chang Yuli and I were chatting about this, my phone finally made a vibrating sound. My heart immediately tightened. I picked up the phone and looked at it. It was not Luan Yu as I imagined, but Qiao Jiao using WeChat. Voice request sent.

(End of this chapter)