i'm not a bad man

Chapter 209 You Listen To Me
The lake is at the bottom of the mirror, and the green mountains are stacked on the upper layer of the lake. The setting sun hangs on a corner of the green mountains, and is finally reflected in the lake, as if forming a closed loop, but this closed loop does not bring any depression to me. I know that this is the most generous gift from nature, and the mirror is the "gift" given to me by Luxi. It turns out that I can also appreciate the scenery at dusk in this way, although it is not as beautiful as the naked eye. The width of the viewing angle, but precisely because it is bounded and limited, makes the sunset, lake and green mountains more prominent...

I couldn't help but be immersed in it, and in a daze, I "forgot" that this was a "letter paper".

What is more beautiful than dusk is Lu Xi standing by the lake holding lipstick. She is also in the mirror. If there was no Luan Yu and no deceptive engagement between her and Lu Ming, what a romantic scene it would be!

"Idiot Han, you want to cheat again, don't you?"

Then I turned around and looked at Luxi, and the world became real and vast again, not just limited to a mirror.

My heart began to suffer, but what is certain is that I was already convinced by Lu Xi. She showed wisdom on this matter that ordinary people could not match, and even had a bit of philosophy. What I could imagine The best way is to use a firework stick, light it, and use it as a pen to write at dusk, but it is fleeting and difficult to capture. If I deliberately want to cheat, of course I can cheat, but when I use a mirror and a lipstick In front of me, it was like a red letter on a white paper, with really no chance to take advantage of it.

My heart was already anxious. I really didn’t expect Lu Xi to be so persistent in this matter. In addition, Luan Yu himself was at fault in this matter, which caused my persistence to be broken. the edge of.

As long as a man makes a promise, this mistake should end here!
I finally took the lipstick from Lu Xi's hand, and my heart was still trembling. Luan Yu was afraid that it would be over, and my relationship with Lu Xi was also afraid that it would be over. After all, everyone hates deception, and it was such a violation. Deception of principle.

Before I started writing, I subconsciously glanced at Lu Xi again. She seemed to have stopped breathing and looked nervous.

"Sister Lu, do you really want me to write it out? Once it is written, some relationships can never be looked back on."

"Write, I've been waiting for your answer."

I nodded, then closed my eyes and took a long breath. When I opened my eyes again, I let go of all the obstacles in my heart.

"Sorry……"

I wrote these three words first, and Lu Xi frowned.

"Luan Yu..."

After I wrote Luan Yu's name, Lu Xi kept looking at me without even blinking. Her heart must have been shaking, and the truth was already coming out.

"Luan Yu is my ex-girlfriend."

Just eleven words seemed to have exhausted all my strength. My hands were low and weak, and my head was hanging. I could no longer observe Luxi at this time. I was trapped in my own emotions, with mixed feelings.

I am very unwilling to say such an unspeakable thing in such an intoxicating beautiful scenery. This is how the so-called beautiful scenery has been let down.

After an unknown length of silence, Lu Xi finally said to me in a heavier tone than ever before: "Is my sister-in-law your ex-girlfriend?"

"Yes, she was with me during those years on the road; finally, we came to Qingdao, and she left without saying goodbye. I waited for more than a year, and she finally appeared, but not to give me a result... She said that she met a very good man who was not only very good to her, but also very good to her family. She felt that she had someone to rely on in her life. She loved and cared about that man very much, but this man But because of her religious beliefs, she banned premarital sex... For this reason, she went for hymen repair surgery. She didn't want to lose this man. The reason why she came to me was because she hoped that I could leave Qingdao so that she could be foolproof... I Of course I don’t want to leave Qingdao, but I don’t want to interfere in her life anymore. Just when I thought everything was about to calm down, there was that dinner party. I was sitting in your car, and she and your brother were between us. Entering the hotel... At that moment, I couldn't describe the mood at that moment in words... I thought of many things, all about me and Luan Yu... If she hadn't met me in her life, what would she have done with your brother? How perfect this relationship would be! But she happened to meet me at her best age, a man who had run away from home and was in trouble... At that time, I had no idea what responsibility was, and I only blindly pursued that absolute love. Freedom, I don’t want to get married, and I don’t want to extend my life by having children. She may have been happy by following me, but in the end, the pain will become deeper..."

After saying that, I finally looked at Luxi. She seemed to be still. At this time, the sunset hanging in the air also sank behind the mountain. In just an instant, the place became much dimmer.

"These are not enough reasons for you to leave Qingdao and fulfill her." I was almost exhausted. I sat on a bench by the lake and lit a cigarette. I was trying hard to calm down my mood, but the cigarette was half full. After smoking, my mood did not improve at all, so I could only suppress my emotions and said to her: "Her father is seriously ill. If I expose her, once your brother lets it go, her ending will be too bad." It’s tragic... Let’s just pretend that it’s not a disaster for my family, so... I finally chose to leave Qingdao and leave this right and wrong.”

After saying that, I almost finished the remaining half of the cigarette in my hand. When I exhaled the smoke accumulated in my mouth, I suddenly felt empty, extremely empty, but this kind of emptiness was no better than the relief I felt after telling the secret.

"But why did you do that to me? You smashed the deer you gave me Ping An... If you really wanted to protect Luan Yu, you could just leave quietly."

"I don't want to leave any thoughts for myself, I want to erase you from my memory."

"You are so heartless, you are really a heartless man!"

I looked confused, and it took me a long time to raise my head and look at Luxi...

"Will you tell your brother this secret?"

"There should be no deception between two people who decide to spend a lifetime together."

I nodded and said, "You are his biological sister, so it is understandable for you to do this..."

"But I will advise him to continue this relationship."

If I was at a loss just now, I was shocked at this moment. I didn't expect that she would give me such an answer with room for improvement. This was different from what I thought. I thought she would use the most unpleasant words to criticize me. But she showed a kind of reason that transcended her age and experience.

She didn't seem to be a mortal woman. The mortal world was full of dust and right and wrong, but she was spotless.

After a long time, I shook my head and said, "This is about your brother's principles and beliefs. If you don't have faith, it doesn't matter. Once you have it, it won't change anything whether you persuade him or not."

"Compared to the first time, isn't love a higher faith?"

At this moment, I looked at Luxi and felt the darkness in my heart, as if it was lit up by thousands of lights. My heart has never been so shocked by just one sentence. This is the most real Luxi... …

I saw myself in the mirror again, and couldn't help but feel ashamed. If I had the same ideals and heights as her, at least when I had the opportunity to talk to Luan Yu about this matter, I would persuade her to confess to Lu Ming, because love is the same It can also become a belief that for two people who truly love each other, nothing is insurmountable.

"Han Chao, listen to me, no matter what my brother chooses in the end... I will be responsible for Luan Yu's father to the end... Even if she is not my sister-in-law, she is at least my friend, because she is very good to me... I You can let these two feelings exist independently, there is no need to mix everything up, and I hope you will do the same."

This was the last word Lu Xi said to me this evening, and it was also the most meaningful word. Then, she left...

But my emotions couldn't calm down for a long time. I seemed to have been taught a hard lesson. I should behave like Lu Xi. Han Chao made too many mistakes.

(End of this chapter)