i'm not a bad man

Chapter 196 The feeling of mutual love

If Qin Minhong hadn't made the assumption on the phone that she and Lu Xi would come to the small town together, I would have almost ignored Qin Minhong's purpose of inviting me to sing. All I could think about was the 30 yuan reward, but I forgot that these songs were written for Lu Xi. , which means that if I want these 30, I will inevitably have many more opportunities to contact Luxi, which seems to go against my original intention of leaving Qingdao...

Inadvertently, there seems to be another dilemma in my life. Although I have gradually forgotten about Luan Yu, this is also without Lu Xi. Once Lu Xi and I are together, Luan Yu has become This fact about her sister-in-law will haunt me like a curse and make my liver and gallbladder split.

Everything started with Luan Yu, and everything ended badly because of Luan Yu.

Ever since my home was ruined, I seem to have been living in a mistake. I shouldn't have run away from home, I shouldn't have met Luan Yu on the road, and I shouldn't have come to this small town with Zuo Xiaowei. So, what is the problem? Where?
I was so puzzled that I felt so frustrated that I even forgot that I was still on the phone with Qin Minhong.

"Han Chao, I'm talking to you, do you hear me?"

"I heard."

"Then why don't you answer?"

"I was thinking about something else..." After a short pause, I added: "Actually, writing two songs is not a particularly troublesome matter. There is no need to meet at all. You can tell me your general needs first, and then I determine the creative direction, and after the song is written, we can communicate online and discuss the issues clearly, so I don’t have to go to BJ, and you don’t have to come to the small town.”

"This is your attitude towards doing things, not my attitude towards doing things. Now that I have decided to let Lu Xi test the music scene, I will definitely do it in the best possible way. Details are the reflection of the status. If I asked you to write two songs. From the beginning to the end, we didn’t even meet in person. We communicated on the phone the whole time. Don’t you think it’s childish?… Or do you think we didn’t even have to meet when we signed the contract? ?”

"We are all friends. Just a verbal commitment between us is enough. There is no need to sign any contract."

Qin Minhong on the other end of the phone seemed speechless, and after a while she replied: "I always thought you were a bit weird. Before, when I didn't want you to pester Lu Xi, you would be attentive to me every day when you had nothing to do; now, I hope there can be a relationship between you. There is a bit of cooperation, but you are dodgy and evasive... Could it be that you have a split personality?"

I smiled bitterly twice, and then fell into silence again. Qin Minhong had nothing to do with me. After complaining for a few words, she suddenly had something to deal with, so she hung up the phone.

So, whether they came to the small town or I went to BJ became an undecided matter.

……

After finishing the call with Qin Minhong, Chang Yuli and I went to the largest supermarket in the town. In addition to buying some daily necessities, I bought two bubble guns because of the big sale in the children's toy area. Chang Yuli One and me, we sat in front of the supermarket square...

I lit a cigarette and took the lead in pressing the switch of the bubble gun. The bubbles seemed to have seen a beautiful new world, and they swarmed out from the circular exit. They floated higher and higher, and some of them floated higher and higher. Broken by the wind, some swayed under the neon lights, colorful and dazzling.

Chang Yuli also followed me and shot a bunch of bubbles. There were more bubbles flying all over the sky. So, the two old men just raised their heads and followed the wind to follow the direction of the bubbles...

Chang Yuli finally spoke: "Brother Chao, what do you think it feels like to have a good relationship?"

I turned to look at Chang Yuli, feeling a little surprised. I didn't expect that the son of the richest man in a small town would never have a good relationship. In order to describe that feeling as vividly as possible, I deliberately recalled my own experience in my mind. I have had several relationships; but failed relationships cannot be remembered, so that my spirit became more and more exhausted. Finally, I said hastily to Chang Yuli: "Your eyes will be healed soon, and there will be no shortage of women around you in the future." , so you don’t have to look for answers from me, you will have the answers yourself soon.”

Chang Yuli shook his head and replied: "That's essentially the same as coming for my money." After a pause, Chang Yuli added: "Actually, I have no shortage of people around me these years. woman."

After saying that, Chang Yuli took out the bubble gun again and shot a string of bubbles into the sky. At this time, the wind stopped and there were few burst bubbles. They were almost hovering in the air. Several children raised their hands. Capture looks so innocent.

"What you lack is a woman who can truly be in love with you."

After saying that, I took out my gun and shot out two strings of bubbles, then squinted my eyes and took a deep breath of the cigarette; in fact, I didn't seem to have really felt what it felt like to be in love with each other. My first woman was with me just because I was willing to spend money to buy her all kinds of gifts. Later, when the university was in another city, it became inconvenient to treat her to dinner and buy gifts, and she fell in love again in the blink of an eye. I followed another boy who could do these things for me. After knowing who she was, I no longer had any feelings for her.

My second real girlfriend is Luan Yu, and I still haven’t figured out whether she loves money or me most.

The third girlfriend is Zuo Xiaowei who just left me. She is the most beautiful and talented of all my girlfriends, but I have never really loved her, and I have never even given her my heart. No, at least, I can remember my first girlfriend and Luan Yu’s menstrual period, but I have never paid attention to Zuo Xiaowei on such matters.At this time, Chang Yuli asked again: "Brother Chao, have you ever had a woman who was in love with you?"

In order to prevent him from losing his pursuit of beautiful love, I lied, nodded and replied, "Of course, and more than once."

Chang Yuli seemed to be crazy. He took out his bubble gun again and fired wildly under the neon lights...

This was probably jealousy, but I didn't feel complacent at all. I looked up at the bubbles that were gradually becoming crowded in the sky, and fell into silence again.

After a long time, I changed the topic and said to Chang Yuli: "By the way, you and Xiaowei are also classmates, right?"

"Well, we are in the same class, and I was her deskmate for one semester...Brother, why are you asking?"

"Did one of your chemistry teachers die in a car accident?"

Chang Yuli was surprised at first, and then replied: "How did you know about this?"

"Don't ask me how I know, just tell me about it first."

Chang Yuli sighed and replied: "He was in a car accident the year before last. He drank a lot that night and then rode an electric car home. He ran a red light on the road and was hit and killed by our garbage truck. Because of this incident, the government ordered rectification of the project our family contracted that year, and then forced it to stop for half a year."

"Did you get hit by a garbage truck?!"

Chang Yuli nodded, confirmed again, and then said: "In the past few years, most of the infrastructure projects in the small town were built by our family, so as long as there is an accident with the garbage truck, most of it is our family's fault... There is no way, my dad's business is big, this kind of thing happens almost every year, and he has to lose money every year to rectify... But I didn't expect that our family's garbage truck hit and killed my chemistry teacher. Because of this incident, I still I was slapped by the daughter of our chemistry teacher... Later, my dad didn't want this kind of thing to happen again, so he sold all the garbage trucks at home. If he had any projects, he would directly find a team in Zhengzhou to cooperate with him. He said, I would rather make less money than do such sinful things anymore..."

I nodded, mentally agreeing with the saying that evil will be punished; however, this involved Zuo Xiaowei's deepest secret, so I didn't talk to Chang Yuli on a deeper level.

……

I moved into Chang Yuli's home with the daily necessities I just bought. Lying on the bed, I could see the No. 2 who was defeated by Zuo Xiaowei but is now living a good life. She forgot to pull it again. The curtains were closed, and she took off her high heels, sitting by the window, making coffee. It seemed that her man hadn't come back yet.

I thought of Zuo Xiaowei again because of this woman, and I didn’t know where she was now or what kind of mood she was in.

For me, although she is gone, the relationship between us is not over yet, so I must stay in the small town and wait for her to come back. I want to forget the unpleasant things before and live a good life with her.

Based on this idea, I called her again, but still couldn't get a response from her.

I was a little discouraged, so I threw the phone on the bed, and then looked out the window for a while.

I still don’t seem to like life in a small town. It seems that as long as I don’t drink, the night will become a prison, leaving people with nowhere to go... I regret it. If I had just let it go and went to BJ to develop together, maybe we could It won't end like this.

But BJ has Luxi, so we can go to Shanghai or Shenzhen. Why does Zuo Xiaowei have to go back to the small town?

Probably because she didn't want me to be too wandering and wanted to give me a home in her hometown. After all, her friends were all doing well and wouldn't be left alone when something happened.

Just when I was thinking wildly, my phone vibrated again. I picked it up and looked at it. It was a message from Qin Minhong. She told me that she and Lu Xi had bought train tickets from BJ to Luoyang and asked me about Luoyang. How far is it to the small town? How can it be more convenient for them to come?
(End of this chapter)