i'm not a bad man

Chapter 195 Invitation to Song

The sun is getting stronger and stronger as it approaches noon. It shines on the dry river, and after being refracted by the trickling stream, it appears so weak and weak, just like my mood at this moment, falling into a kind of anger and regret. being pulled to the limit.

I don’t know what mood I should use to think of Zuo Xiaowei anymore. I just want to find her quickly...

I finally asked Guan Yubo next to me: "If Xiaowei is still in the small town, where is she most likely to be?"

"I don't know, I'm looking for her too."

"You have many friends in the small town. Find someone to ask at the toll booth on the highway. She separated from me last night. If you want to leave, you can only drive by yourself..."

After Guan Yubo pondered for a while, he replied: "I will find someone to inquire, but this matter has nothing to do with you. Don't stay in the small town. Go where you want to go... From the beginning to the end, you There is no need to treat Xiaowei sincerely, all this is her own wishful thinking..." After a pause, he said to me in a colder voice: "This has been true from the first time I saw you. It’s determined… When you look at the promotional photos she took on the billboard, there is no emotional change at all, just like looking at a stranger.”

I couldn't say anything to refute him, he was right, that was my state of mind at the time.

Guan Yubo just left in my silence. Looking at his back, I could finally understand Zuo Xiaowei’s intention to guide us to become friends. Rumors belong to others, but the truth belongs to them, so in front of me , Zuo Xiaowei was less cautious, but she really overestimated me, and I finally fell under the terrible words of others, and Zuo Xiaowei seemed to have left my world, my Life.

I was abandoned again, abandoned in the small town that originally belonged to Zuo Xiaowei.

……

Throughout the whole day, I was looking for Zuo Xiaowei, and Chang Yuli was the only one who stayed with me. When it was almost dusk, Chang Yuli’s relationship finally sent me the exact news. At four o’clock last night, Zuo Xiaowei Xiaowei showed up at the toll station and drove towards Zhengzhou. As for where she went, they only had permission to follow her to the border of the small town, so they had no way of knowing.

……

Dusk came just like that. Chang Yuli and I sat by the river, looking at the sunset and the crowds of people hurriedly going home on the road...

"Brother Chao, now I really know what it means to be afraid of someone's words. I didn't expect that Snow's words would forcefully separate you and Xiaowei."

"It has nothing to do with Snow. The root cause lies within myself."

After saying that, I groped around on my body for a while and only pulled out an empty cigarette box. I had already finished smoking the box of cigarettes I bought in the morning. This was the day when I smoked the most since Luan Yu left. My heart and lungs felt very uncomfortable, but I couldn't escape from cigarettes to cope with the endless confusion in my heart.

Chang Yuli handed me a cigarette at the right time. After I took it from his hand, I smoked it greedily, and then took out my mobile phone from my pocket. Zuo Xiaowei called me 100 last night. Multiple call records are still there...

This feeling is like a dream. Yesterday she tried her best to find me. Now, I want to see her, but she has left this city that originally belonged to her.

I don’t know if this is something I brought upon myself. Originally, Zuo Xiaowei had already chosen a two-bedroom house and was about to start our cohabitation life. But now, I have no place to go, and I have been cut off from my return. I have even been left alone. Zuo Xiaowei did not know where the luggage thrown out by Uncle Xiaowei was. I only had a mobile phone in my hand that was about to reach zero battery.

In a daze, Chang Yuli next to me said to me again in a slightly sad tone: "Xiao Wei has left, will you stay in our small town?"

I looked at him blankly, and finally replied, "I'm not leaving. I'll wait here for her to come back."

"Will she come back?" I shook my head, indicating that I didn't know, but the feeling in my heart was exactly the same as the few days after Luan Yu left... I fell into an inextricable decadence... At that time, I was trapped by Luan Yu Yu was abandoned in Qingdao, and even met later Ren Ran, Zuo Xiaowei, Tu Lin Saozhu and others; now, I was abandoned by Zuo Xiaowei in a small town, who else could I meet?
This place is different from Qingdao. For Luan Yu and I, Qingdao is a strange city. I still have the motivation to start from scratch, but in a small town, I can only live in Zuo Xiaowei’s circle of friends, who see us every day. The overwhelming publicity photos of her on billboards, this feeling will only be harder than when she was in Qingdao...

However, everything in front of me seemed to tell me that she would never come back, and I had already paid a heavy price for my insincerity. I lost a woman who truly loved me, just like an arrogant woman. The young man lost his turbulent and passionate youth, and in the end he was left with endless regrets and bad deeds, which he had to endure and chew on all by himself.

……

The dusk ended in my daze, and Chang Yuli and I were still sitting by the river. I said little, and Chang Yuli used his mobile phone to pass the time that seemed boring to him.

I tried to contact Zuo Xiaowei again, but all the contacts were like stones sinking into the river. I never got a response from Zuo Xiaowei.

Chang Yuli looked up at the small town that had been completely shrouded in night, and finally said to me: "Brother Chao, you don't have anywhere to go for the time being, so come to my place first and be my companion."

"Well, come with me to the supermarket and I'll buy some daily necessities."

With that said, I stood up from the steps. At this moment, the mobile phone in my pocket finally made a vibrating sound. I was refreshed and hurriedly took out the mobile phone, but it was not Zuo Xiaowei's reply. It was Qin Minhong who was far away in BJ.

Out of politeness, I answered her call, but because my mind was wandering, I couldn't help but be a little perfunctory: "Is something okay, Sister Minhong?"

"Can't I give you a call if nothing happens?"

"No, I'm just getting ready to eat..."

"Hey, that didn't bother you, did it?"

"Kind of. If there's nothing serious, I'll hang up first."

"Look at how arrogant you are!"

I fell into silence. I wasn't being arrogant, I just wasn't in the mood to gossip with others. At this moment, I had fallen into a torrent of self-blame and couldn't extricate myself...

When I was silent, Qin Minhong on the other end of the phone said again: "Don't be too busy hanging up the phone, I really have something serious to do with you... I would like to ask you to write two songs for Lu Xi... Since Lu Xi's debut, I have set a principle for myself that I will never participate in variety shows. If I just do movies and TV shows, it will be difficult to continue the current popularity. I just want her to try the music industry... She also has such a wish, and wants to be in the spotlight Before the end of this year, she will release an album of her own... They say you have talent, and I also want to see how you fulfill this talent... I won't let you work in vain, I will give you 15 for one song. The copyright fee for two songs is 30, which means that we in Luxi have a high position, and other people looking for you, a newcomer, to write songs can’t give you such a high price."

I have made up my mind to help Zuo Xiaowei resolve the dispute between her and Chen Linqi, so I must repay the 20 that I owe Chang Yuli. Now I suddenly have such an opportunity to repay, and I am still good at it. Of course, I had no reason to refuse, so after thinking for a while, I said to Qin Minhong on the other end of the phone: "I am willing to take this job."

"Okay, then when will you come for a BJ and let's talk about creation."

"I can not go."

"I can't come! What's the matter, do you still expect me and Lu Xi to go to your little place that doesn't even have an airport to find you?"

(End of this chapter)