i'm not a bad man

Chapter 191 Not the Right Person

I fell asleep at dusk, so in my dreams, no matter how the scene changed, the dim sunlight always stayed with me.The first scene is the seaside in Qingdao. The sunset hangs on the sea level. The sea surface is golden. The beach is warm but empty. I walked along the beach alone for a long time. Finally, I shook off the sand from my shoes and stood there. Sit down on the beach...

It seemed like I had been sitting there for a hundred years, and finally I heard the sound of footsteps stepping on the sand behind me. When I looked back, it was Qiao Jiao, holding a car key in her hand and walking towards me with a smile on her face...

"Hey, I'll give you back the keys to your RV."

I took it from her hand and then looked up into the distance. My RV was parked on the road by the coast, and the map of China posted on the car was faintly visible.

"Why did you suddenly return the RV to me?"

"Didn't you promise Lu Xi that you would help her find that skating boy in XJ? How long has it been? It's time to go, buddy!"

"You like Deer Creek so much, what good will it do you to get Skate Boy back?"

Qiao Jiao smiled slyly and said, "I won't tell you, just go find it anyway."

After pondering for a while, I finally replied: "Just look for it, I haven't been on the road for a long time."

"go Go……"

"What about you, do you want to see the scenery on the road together?"

"You are stupid, I am abroad, how can I set off with you?"

I didn't feel scared, but asked calmly: "Then who is this I saw?"

"It's my mind. All of this is controlled by my mind... Hahahaha."

In the dream, Qiao Jiao was as lively as a stray rabbit. I just wanted to verify the authenticity of the so-called thoughts, but like those successful fairies on TV, she turned into a ball of red light and disappeared with a whoosh.

I stared at the place where she disappeared for a long time, then jumped up, got into the RV, and drove away from the seaside.

Dreams are always bizarre. In dreams, time and space seem to be able to be compressed at will. So in the second scene, I have driven the RV to the Nalati Grassland. It is still dusk, the setting sun is still there, and the pendant is hanging on the grassland. The end...

I ran excitedly on the grassland and disturbed the herds of cattle and sheep. They fled all the way and ran to the foot of the mountain. The majestic appearance was actually very spectacular.

The grassland in front of me belonged to me alone. I pinched one of the most beautiful wild flowers and stuck it in my collar. Then I lay on the ground and leisurely watched the sunset sinking a little bit. I thought, now the night should be over. It has come, but dusk actually reincarnated in my dream again.

Only then did I feel scared, and then I woke up.

I touched my forehead, covered in cold sweat, and suddenly realized that from beginning to end, apart from the cows and sheep, I was the only one in the dream, and the only person who appeared in the dream was just a trace of Qiao Jiao.

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Light a cigarette and take a few puffs. After calming down, he looked up out the window. The stars outside the window were lonely, and he was sure that he had escaped from the dreamland of dusk.

I finally turned on my phone. After the phone received the signal again, it vibrated non-stop, all of which were text messages indicating missed calls.During the period when I was asleep, Zuo Xiaowei made a total of 101 phone calls to me, as well as 56 WeChat voice calls. The most recent call was at 01:30 in the middle of the night, which was a quarter of an hour ago.She seemed to be crazy, looking for me like crazy.

I didn't feel so good in my heart, and I felt a little guilty. I realized that my behavior was actually a kind of cold violence. I didn't tell Zuo Xiaowei what I was thinking, and refused to communicate with her. If she loved me It will definitely cause a lot of doubts and trauma in her heart... She has always been afraid that I would leave her and leave this small town.

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I wanted to wash my face with cold water. As soon as I put on my slippers, there was a hurried knock on the door. Even more urgent than the knock on the door was Zuo Xiaowei's shout. There are no less than a thousand hotels and inns in the small town. , she actually found this place!
The moment I opened the door, Zuo Xiaowei was still. I saw that she was still wearing the thin coat from yesterday. The only thick thing on her body was a knitted scarf, but this could not stop the cold air, so She was already pale from the cold...

Because I was restless, I subconsciously made a swallowing movement. At this moment, she took my hand, but she couldn't hold it tightly. Her hand was also numb from the cold, and she gave me a bone-eroding feeling. The coolness.

"I've been looking for you since dusk, going from hotel to hotel. I didn't expect you to stay in such a shabby hotel. I passed by here twice but didn't come in... I really can't find you. You came in and asked the boss, he said you were..."

I looked at her with extremely complicated emotions.

"Han Chao, don't ignore me, okay?..."

Zuo Xiaowei cried like a child, and then she threw herself into my arms. I was stunned for a long time, and then I opened my arms and hugged her.

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The hot air blown by the air conditioner was not enough to withstand the coldness of this severe winter, but it was much warmer than outside after all. Zuo Xiaowei took off her clothes before me, and on the sheets with holes, only two of the three light bulbs were on. In the room, we were entangled with each other like we had been a long time ago...

Zuo Xiaowei was even crazier than that time. She pinched me, bit me, lost consciousness, and muttered to herself until she was exhausted, until I was sweating profusely in this cold room...

I fell into the saint mode, sitting on the bedside, lighting a cigarette, with nothing in my mind. Zuo Xiaowei was lying next to me, staring blankly at the ceiling, saying nothing.

It seems that after the volcano erupted, there was only silence without any sign of life.

After smoking a cigarette, I stood up, then opened the curtains and opened the window a crack. The room was too turbid and dull and needed some fresh air.

I had ignored it before. In this room, I could actually see Zuo Xiaowei’s promotional photos for the town as a tourism promotion ambassador. At this moment, there were no street lights on the street, and the only light source was the billboard. All the light from the built-in spotlights was concentrated on the promotional photo, which showed that Zuo Xiaowei was the darling of this small town; but at this moment, she and I were lying in such a shabby and outdated room, and we were talking to each other. blend.

She did not become the darling of the small town for no reason. She once experienced a huge competition here and successfully won the championship. She was No. 1 and No. 2 never left the small town. She became the TV host of the small town. And she married the son of a wealthy local businessman, lived in a luxurious villa, and danced gracefully.This is not a rumor, this is what I saw with my own eyes...

On the other hand, Zuo Xiaowei seemed to have chosen the wrong life and the wrong man, which made her look a little miserable.

When these thoughts came to my mind, I didn't look back at Zuo Xiaowei who had been lying on the bed for a long time...

I didn't seem happy when I came to the small town, because before life even started, I had already suffered all kinds of setbacks and terrible words from people, and then I felt exhausted.

We are not the right people, and there seems to be no better explanation other than that.

(End of this chapter)