i'm not a bad man

Chapter 18 Han Erjin

I tilted my body and took a look. After confirming that the message had been sent, I put the phone back in my pocket, and there was only a bottle of liquor left in front of me.If this is an extreme challenge, I'm already halfway there at this moment.

Taking a deep breath, I opened the second bottle of wine, but Ren Ran said nothing and wouldn't let me drink it. She firmly held my hand that I wanted to raise, and then shouted to Zuo Xiao, who was watching the show on the stage. Wei said: "I understand that you kids like to play, but you have to have a certain temper when joking... If he really drinks these two bottles of wine and something happens, who of you will be responsible?... Or, Is there any regret medicine for you?"

At this time, Zuo Xiaowei walked down from the concert stage. Under the gaze of everyone, she came to Ren Ran and said: "Sister Ran, this is a game played by one man and another man. Men, You should just be motivated and leave them alone... Moreover, I have never seen anyone who cherishes himself more than Han Chao. He said that if he can drink two kilograms, there must be no problem."

After saying that, Zuo Xiaowei turned to me and said, "I heard that you want this set of records to give to someone else. Who is this person? Is it worth your efforts?"

"It's not a gift, it's a debt."

After saying that, I took away Ren Ran's hand, smiled and said to her: "If I stop now, the bottle of wine I just drank will be in vain... Don't worry, Sister Ran, I'll be fine. "

"It's just a set of records. We can think of other ways. You can't just take advantage of your youth and make fun of your body."

"I'm not kidding, I just think this is worth doing, so don't try to persuade me."

I really don’t like my thoughts to be influenced by others, so after saying this, I drank half of the last bottle of white wine. I gasped for air and waited for my condition to recover a little, then drank it again in one gulp. Half a bottle of white wine.

Ren Ran quickly brought me a bottle of mineral water and motioned for me to drink some water first to neutralize the alcohol in my body; I refused Ren Ran again. It wasn't that I didn't want to drink it, but I was afraid that if I drank this bottle of water, I would feel uncomfortable in my heart. The aura of me will also be relieved, and what can support me to drink the remaining half bottle of wine at this time is the energy in my heart.

I admit that this kind of energy is what Zuo Xiaowei calls acting on impulse. Everyone knows that acting on emotion is wrong, but I think it’s worth it, because the other side of acting on emotion is youth and frivolity; I’m still young, why can’t I do it for what I want to do? Give it a try?
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After a short breath, I picked up the bottle again and drank the last half of the bottle in one gulp.The whole place was silent at first, and then exploded; everyone was shouting awesome, yyds, and they seemed to have reached a spiritual climax from my shocking behavior.

I am still somewhat sober, and I know this is not real cheering. Most of them regard me as a fool. This kind of "applause" that spares no effort is just to prevent fools from thinking of themselves as fools, so that they can continue in the future. Playing around, and that's the real reason why I don't want to talk to them.

I automatically ignored the noise, and finally asked Lin Xiangyu, who looked shocked: "I've finished the wine, can I take this record away?"

"But...you can."

I nodded. At this point, the deal was completed, and the momentum in my heart was also relieved at this time. The physical discomfort immediately surged through my body like a tide, and I was about to lose control. ; So, I quickly picked up the box containing the complete set of records and rushed outside the bar in full view of everyone.

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I found a deserted corner, and without enough time to hold on to the corner, I vomited. There was no food, only pungent alcohol, spurting out from my mouth and nose, and then my whole body trembled...

I knew that this was a serious warning from my body, but I didn’t know why, but the depression and pain in my heart was released like never before. I looked down at the puddle of wine on the ground, shook my head hard, and smiled happily. , it would be great if I could always indulge in this psychedelic state. I don’t want to wake up. I seem to have seen another version of myself, free and elegant, transcending all restrictions caused by genes.

I even forgot why I drank so much until I vomited again and sobered up a bit.

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I wandered to the side of the road, knowing that taxi drivers were generally unwilling to take a drunkard like me, so I simply took out a few hundred yuan from my pocket and waved it in the wind. I didn't open my eyes until I felt a car stop. After opening my eyes and checking that it was a taxi, I opened the door and got in.

The car was speeding on the viaduct, and I leaned my head against the glass and looked at the world outside the window. Sometimes it was blurry, and sometimes it was clear. This blending state was like two men and women tightly entangled together. , addicted and sober.Suddenly, women turned into fairies in the world, and men turned into devout believers. Sex is both a sin and a belief.

Zuo Xiaowei is right. I can't bear to leave this kind of world, so I cherish myself more than anyone else. But today is really an exception. I feel so uncomfortable that I want to stay awake just to hold it in my hands. The recorded record was handed over to Lu Xi.

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I can’t remember exactly how much time it took, but I arrived at the May Fourth Square anyway; unlike last time, it was not yet late at night, so there were people walking by on the square, as well as tourists who stopped to admire the night view.

I avoided these people, found a quiet corner, sat on a bench, and began to wait patiently... The wind on the beach was strong and cold, but my heart was burning hot. I don't know if it was because of it. It was because he drank too much, or because he had a vague fondness for Lu Xi.

The feeling between people is really strange. Whenever I think of her, the word "wandering" will appear in my mind, but I don't feel lonely or scared. Although I am wandering, there are also sunsets along the way. Small towns, stretches of highway, mountains hidden in the clouds, white windmills swaying in the wind...

My co-pilot position has not been occupied by anyone for a long time. I don’t expect anyone to completely replace Luan Yu, but I also want to find someone to share the ups and downs of this journey. The person I share with must also be someone who understands me. Her understanding of me was like God secretly giving me a piece of candy, making me so complacent that I couldn't help myself.

That's why I have to stay awake.

No, I'm not awake. My subconscious has already equated the real-life Luxi with the Luxi in the commercial. She has become a symbol of freedom in my heart... But the commercial is just a presentation of artistic effects, just like a A woman will never be as beautiful as herself in a photo; so, all I see is what I want her to be, free and never-ending.

Suddenly, I felt a little lost, then I raised my head again and squinted my eyes...

I don't know when there was no one in the square, except for a middle-aged woman setting up a stall. Even she was packing up her goods and preparing to leave.

I have no concept of time, but I can still feel that I have been waiting for her here for a long time. Will she really see the message I sent her?If she comes, how will she stand in front of me?

At this moment, I especially hoped that a woman wearing a mask and a hat would appear in this huge square, because she was dressed like this last time we met.

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I am increasingly unable to resist the surge of drunkenness. I subconsciously want to find something to lean on. At the same time, I hold the box in my hand tighter. I am afraid that when I wake up here tomorrow, the box has been lost. This is baby!

"Han Erjin."

In my daze, someone shouted like this. I opened my eyes hard, and there was already a person standing under the street light. I shook my head hard, but I still couldn't see clearly who she was. I could only vaguely tell that she was a woman from her figure. .

"Who are you and why... call me Han Erjin?"

The other party took a few more steps towards me, then leaned over to look at me. I looked up again, and saw a pair of bright and moving eyes first, and then confirmed that she was the Lu Xi I was waiting for. I quickly sat up straight and said with a smile: "You're finally here!... I got the record for you, here it is."

"Are you a fool?"

"Why... why do you call me a fool?"

Lu Xi sighed, then put his mobile phone in front of me and motioned for me to look at it.

I took a closer look and saw that the picture on my phone was very shaky, and I was standing in the shaky picture, holding a wine bottle in my hand, saying something, and then I raised my head and drank half the bottle of liquor; the crowd erupted. There was a burst of cheers, among which the sentence "Han Erjin is awesome" was the clearest.

It turns out that this is where she said Han Erjin, but I didn’t hear the cry at the scene at the time. The video was probably taken by the person who called me Han Erjin, so this sentence is the clearest in the video. ; He posted this video on Douyin.

At this time, Lu Xi said to me again: "When you told me before, I really didn't believe it, but now I believe it. You are really the one among a group of friends who is always being teased by others... This The video has become popular, you know?”

I smiled vaguely: "When I knew... they... they regarded me as a fool... they were the real... fools... I'm not stupid at all... No, I got the record Already..."

I gave the record to Lu Xi, then took out the money she had left for me from my pocket, handed it to her hand and said, "I'll give you the money too... Old Han is happy today... ... This set of records... This set of records, just think of it as a gift from me... Don't call me Han Erjin from now on... It's too unpleasant, just call me Lao Han."

After saying that, there was another strong feeling of vomiting in my stomach. This feeling of vomiting came so suddenly that I didn’t even have time to avoid Lu Xi. I just subconsciously pushed her away and bent down to vomit. But this time it felt... It was completely different. I clearly felt a strong fishy smell in my throat. Looking again, I saw a puddle of bitter water on the ground, mixed with scarlet blood.

I don't know whether it was because of fear or because I couldn't bear the drunkenness. The next moment, I completely lost consciousness.

(End of this chapter)