i'm not a bad man

Chapter 12 This is really a secret

I checked specifically and found that this news broke at six o'clock in the afternoon. It is now 09:30 at night. In the past three hours, I have not received a call from Qin Minhong. This proves that Lu Xi She is indeed a woman who sticks to her word. Even though the bad news about her spread rapidly like a virus, she did not let me take responsibility.

I stood there and suddenly remembered the words "I didn't kill Boren, but Boren died because of me", and my heart gradually became uncomfortable... I really wanted to do something for her, but I remembered that she died yesterday When I left, I hesitated a little about what I said... She asked me not to appear in her sight in the future, and I agreed, which meant that we had an agreement.

Integrity is the most important thing when going out; therefore, I can only swallow this apology in my stomach and silently pray for her: I hope that my unintentional mistake will not become a disaster in her life.

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After driving the RV back to the previous location, I changed out of the dirty clothes that Zuo Xiaowei had splashed on me, and then cooked myself a bowl of instant noodles. This was the second time I had eaten this food today. Everyone said this. It's not healthy, so I have to get some living expenses as soon as possible. Not to mention continuing to travel, at least I have to have three meals a day as before, and the meals are not the same.

Before, Ren Ran came to me and asked me to help her with social matters. I didn't doubt my ability, let alone that she would treat me badly in terms of remuneration. However, the cycle of doing this was too long, and I didn't Before I make a complete decision to stay in Qingdao, I cannot regard this as my retreat.

Singing in bars is also a way, but in the past two years, the economy has been sluggish and consumption has been sluggish. Many bars that originally had singers have canceled singing performances in order to save money. Therefore, I can't find anyone who can make me sing temporarily. working bar.

Renovation work is the last thing I want to do. Although I earn a lot of money, it is too hard and the cycle is not short. I don’t want to get involved in this industry again unless I have to.

The rest is photography. Since I don’t have a company or a studio, I rely entirely on luck to make a living. Luck is so mysterious. If I pin my hope of having enough food on luck, then I’m really unreliable. .

So, what else can be done to meet the urgent needs at this moment?
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After feeling depressed for a while, I finally focused on the 14 vinyl records; Luan Yu gave them to me on my birthday the year before last. She knew that I liked Jay Chou's songs, so she spent a lot of money to buy them. I bought these 14 limited edition vinyl records. I paid special attention to them some time ago because they were too scarce. The market price of these 14 records has exceeded ten thousand, and those who are eager to buy them are even willing to spend far more than I can buy it with the market price... So, as long as I want to sell it, I don’t have to worry about getting a good price.

Luan Yu has been gone for a year and a half. In the first month after she left, I searched for her like crazy, but the result made me feel desperate. Not only did I not find her, I didn't even know where she was. I couldn't get any news; in the second month, I gradually came back to my senses. Maybe she just left me in Qingdao, and she might have gone to other cities long ago; in the third month, I gradually came back to my senses. I accepted the reality that she had left, but I still had a glimmer of hope. I felt that as long as I stayed where I was, she would definitely come back to me. After all, we had so many wonderful memories.

I suffered in pain for a year, but she never came back.

One year is enough time for one person to recognize another person. That is, after one year, I chose to give up completely. Since I have given up completely, why should I keep the things she gave me to miss someone who will never be forgotten? A woman who will come back again?

I'm not that infatuated.

Turning on the light, I took photos of these 14 records one by one, and then posted them on a website that specializes in trading second-hand items.Because I was eager to cash out, I chose intra-city trading. The next time I was waiting for the buyer to inquire about the price.

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I'm not afraid that these 14 vinyl records will rot in my hands and I won't be able to sell them, but there really aren't many people who know what they're selling. An hour later, I only received one inquiry message. I heard that I wanted [-], yes. Convenience did not respond to me again.

At 12 o'clock in the morning, I received another message, which was sent by a buyer whose online name was "Black Humor". His avatar was also a promotional photo from a certain Jay Chou album.I judge that this person is probably a die-hard fan of Jay Chou... and it is true that only die-hard fans will be interested in something that has only collection value and whose sound quality is not even as good as a CD.

"Do you really have these 14 vinyl records?"

"Didn't you see in the transaction information that it only supports intra-city transactions?"

"What happened to the same city?"

I judged again: This person was either a confused person or a bastard, but in order to sell the thing as soon as possible, I still patiently replied: "Being in the same city means we have to do offline transactions, and I have to hand over the record to You have it in your hand, and you pay me after you make sure that the goods are okay... If I don’t have these records, will I ask you out to drink the northwest wind?"

"That's right...don't mind. I've just been deceived before, so I asked a few more questions."

"I have never been in the habit of lying... If you really want it, I can give you a discount... I can see that you really like these vinyl records."

"I really like it...what about you?...If you didn't really like Jay Chou, you wouldn't buy these vinyl records at all...Since you've already bought them, why do you want to sell them?" "A gift from my ex-girlfriend... I’m short of money recently.”

This time, the other person did not reply to the message for a long time. Just when I questioned whether he wanted to buy it deliberately, he suddenly sent me another message. He said: "I have found these 14 vinyl records. For a long time, many people are unwilling to transfer it, or the price is ridiculously high, and there is no guarantee that it is genuine... If yours is genuine, and it is a complete set... then your ex-girlfriend must love you very much... Only those who really want to Only those who want these records know how difficult it is to buy them."

I don’t know why, this was obviously just a conversation between a buyer and a seller, but a certain sentence in it touched my heart... I also thought that Luan Yu loved me very much and was willing to live out our lives in the way I like. ; However, if there is such a thing as love between us, why does it go away so easily?It was so easy that there were no signs at all.

My mood suddenly became heavy. This heavy mood made me recall many details of my relationship with Luan Yu, and then I fell into the whirlpool of love and dislike, and it was difficult to extricate myself.

I don't like my emotions to be influenced by others, so when I replied again, I was a little more impatient: "So, you are trying to persuade me not to sell these records?"

"No, I really want these records... If it's convenient for you, we can trade now..."

"We haven't negotiated the price yet."

"Just sell it at your price... I'm afraid you will regret it after one night... I don't want to give you the chance to regret it."

"Haha... I have never regretted anything I have done... Just tell me a place and I will go there now."

"Then let's go to May Fourth Square."

"Okay, now that we're here, how can I recognize you?"

"When you get to the place, hold the record in your hands and I'll just recognize you."

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After the conversation ended, I looked at the records secretly for a while, and then made a decision to completely draw a line with Luan Yu. I planned to give the vinyl record player as a gift to the buyer... I just If this is fate, once all the traces left by Luan Yu have been cleaned up by me, I can go into battle lightly.

I put the record player and records into the largest box, and then drove the RV toward the city again...

At this time, it was already late at night, and there were few vehicles on this elevated highway connecting the city and the suburbs. So, I drove the car very fast, and in a blink of an eye, I left the lights visible to the naked eye behind me, and new lights appeared again. One after another, the road I was driving on took over the front and the distance... Until the red torch of May Fourth Square appeared in my sight, I stopped the car firmly, and the world became static again. appearance.

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I got out of the car holding the record player and 14 vinyl records, and then stood in the center of the square and looked around. I was already conspicuous enough. If the buyer had already arrived, he would definitely notice me immediately.

Cold wind blew over me, and when I finally turned around for the second time, I found a figure on the other side of the sea slowly approaching me. When he walked under the streetlight, I realized that she turned out to be a woman.

The street lamps stretched toward me in a queue. When she walked under the second street lamp, I discovered that she was a very young woman, because her clothes were the most fashionable at the moment.

Gradually, she walked under the third streetlight, which was also the one closest to me... I finally saw her clearly. The moment I saw her clearly, I was completely shocked...

It was none other than Lu Xi...and she seemed to have expected it. She stood quietly under the street light and looked at me with neither happiness nor anger.

I'm afraid she already knew that I was the one selling the records, and she actually hid her identity and found out that these records were given to me by my ex-girlfriend.

This is really a secret. Even if I am close to friends like Ren Ran and Zuo Xiaowei, I have never told it.

(End of this chapter)