Smiling at the peach blossom fan, peach blossoms smile at the spring breeze

I have to say that Wu Meicun is quite difficult to kill. The killing here is not a physical killing, but a psychological killing, and she is completely liberated from completely eliminating the imprint of Wu Meicun in her heart.

Bian Yujing once suspected that his cultivation of immortals was in the opposite direction, the more he cultivated his inner demons, the heavier he became, and he had not made any progress in cultivating for all these years, and he couldn't help but be confused about the future.

But it doesn't matter much, you have to try to kill it, you have to kill it if you want to become a great road, the ancients said that when the tears dry and hurt in the end, the heart will become ashes, and if you kill more, you may die. Idleness is idleness, in case it is really cultivated!

Bian Yujing is very free, very casual, work when he wants to work, resign when the work is boring; start a family when he wants to start a family, and divorce without thinking about divorce when he wants to become a monk; he will become a monk if he wants to, and it is boring to become a monk and be vulgar; even if he sacrifices Buddhist classics to Laojun, Laojun also pinched his nose and recognized it, women, can't be provoked, if you want to be willful, you can be willful, if you want to be stubborn, you can be stubborn, and it is really so inflated. Lao Jun doesn't expect to be able to temper her, this woman's heart is too demonic, the roots of evil are deep, the obsession is too deep, and it is better to be far away from the less provoked, and if she is provoked, she will cry, make trouble, and hang herself three times, but the sin will be great.

And Wu Meicun has no freedom, he has too many constraints. If he can let go of the ideological fetters of loyalty, he will at least be a ministerial-level cadre according to his talents; if he can let go of the fetters of love, he will now have a group of wives and concubines; if he can let go of all moral fetters, he can do many things that he did not dare to do before, and live happily without virtue.

But he couldn't let it go, he was conservative, holding on to the defects, the road was getting narrower and narrower, and the days were getting worse and worse.

The devil is born from the heart, and the phase is made by the heart, these fetters are qualitative and formless, but they make Wu Meicun draw the ground as a prison, unable to break through, and can only sink in the boundless sea of suffering. What is even more tragic is that Chengmei Village cannot break through these fetters and has no intention of breaking through, continuing to be a remnant of the current dynasty, continuing to be a good citizen, a good husband, a good son, and a good father, and playing every role in accordance with the requirements of traditional ethics and morality.

In order to avoid the invitation of the imperial court, Wu Meicun hid in the countryside.

The whole world is not the king's land, entering the village is not a safe landing, and the court has always forgotten Wumei Village.

Soon, some officials found Wu Meicun's house one after another, and each time they became more and more serious, and each time they became more and more impatient: "Old Wu, people like you don't want to be officials, it is the people who suffer, and the court will definitely be the master of the people, I hope you don't give you shame." If you refuse to go to the court and cause public outrage, if a mob comes to burn your house at night, I am afraid that we will not be able to stop it. By the way, do you remember your friend so-and-so, who, like you, was reluctant to go out of the meeting, and died a miserable death the other day."

In order to further put pressure on Wumei Village, the Qing government changed its thinking and increased its efforts, starting with the "people around you" in Wumei Village. When Wu's wife goes out, she is often accosted by strange hooligans: "Beauty, you have such a great figure, can you make a friend?" Wu Zi often ran into an uncle with a foreign accent when he went out, and asked: "The child is so cute, can you go home with your uncle?" The sugar in the uncle's house is much older, and you can exchange a kidney for a big bag." In particular, after learning the information that "Wu Mei Village's mother is filial piety," the Qing government immediately shifted the focus of its work, adjusted its work methods, and often stayed at home with Wu Mei's mother, sometimes praising her for giving birth to a good son, who will surely be immortal through the ages; sometimes complaining to the old lady that Wu Mei Village was affected by "parents are not far away" Sometimes she will care about the old lady's funeral, asking her whether the cemetery has been chosen, whether the coffin has been repaired, whether the will has been written, whether the shroud has been bought, and the old lady is advised to prepare in advance, so as not to panic temporarily.

Not all mothers are as fearless as Xu Shu's mother, and Mrs. Wu was frightened and told Wu Meicun about it crying.

The

Qing government's approach is very inferior, but it is very powerful, this is a point, it is to catch the crutch and kick it violently, where is the pain to poke, don't scold me for being a hooligan, just ask you if you are afraid.

Wu Meicun was scared, really scared. A person who sacrifices his life for righteousness is a hero, but the premise is to sacrifice his own life, and the elders who call on "brothers to give me up" and the old men who encourage the selfless dedication of the common people are sacrificing the lives of others to take their own righteousness, which is a bit strange and shameless.

Wu Meicun is willing to sacrifice for the country and sacrifice his life for righteousness, but he is not willing to recommend Xuanyuan with the blood of his family. On the other hand, if Wu Meicun is not willing to sacrifice himself for the sake of his family, how can people believe that he is willing to sacrifice for other reasons?

In 1953, the year Bian Yujing got married, Wu Meicun couldn't stand it, agreed to the court's request, and was conscripted to Beijing to take office.

I am out of moderation when I get married, and you are out of festival when you are an official, and no one can laugh at anyone.

As for what kind of official he went to Beijing, Wu Meicun didn't care, because he wasn't happy or cared about anything.

Of course, the imperial court doesn't care what official positions are given to Wu Meicun. Wu Meicun is a mascot, and compared with his work ability and work attitude, the imperial court values him more than himself. Out of the office is to put gold on the face of the Qing court, to set a benchmark and set an example for recalcitrant elements such as the Fu Society, high-ranking officials, literati, celebrities, etc., Wu Meicun does not need to make any work performance, or even eliminate and slack off, and the office itself is to work for the imperial court.

In order to expand the influence of this matter, appeal and public opinion guidance, the Qing court organized a farewell party and invited local celebrities to participate.

After learning of this, many local well-wishers also consciously participated, and the scale of the meeting quickly became larger, and it was known as the "Thousand People Group".

At the meeting, an unknown reader sent Wu Meicun a letter, and there was only one small poem in the letter—not a love poem, but a narrative poem:

Thousands of people sit on the stone, half of the Qing Dynasty and half of the Ming Dynasty.

Sending a message to Lou Dongwu, a son of heaven and two courtiers.

The Thousand People Stone refers to a large stone next to the Sword Pond of Tiger Hill Mountain, where the Fushe held two general congresses, both of which were in the Ming Dynasty. Now it's the same pomp, but the people who held the meeting have changed, and the dynasty has changed.

This poem has no literary brilliance, it is not done well, and the use of numbers is not clever, so it can be said to be a limerick. The poetry is very direct: the Ming Dynasty is dead, half of the people in the Restoration Society betrayed the revolution, and now even Wu Meicun, a guy with thick eyebrows and big eyes, is going to betray.

Twenty-eight words, words are like knives, killing people and punishing the heart. Looking at these twenty-eight words, Wu Meicun was enthusiastic and embarrassed.

Why did Wu Meicun react so much? Is it because this is a slanderous slander? Of course not, because this is the truth, and the truth is often the most hateful.

There is no word that hurts people the most than the truth, as Shen Teng said to Lu Yu: "When someone says that you are ugly, you will not necessarily be angry, because you know that the other party is jealous of you, but some people say that you must be angry when you are old, because it is a fact." "

Is that right? Yes, it's true, it's exactly the truth.

Should traitors be crusaded? Yes, everybody hates traitors.

Should Wu Meicun be scolded? Yes, because he betrayed.

We can be indignant against traitors, we can criticize traitors from the moral high ground, and we can exalt ourselves by singing high-profile oppression of traitors. But when attacking others, we should put ourselves in their shoes and ask ourselves how we would choose to do the same situation. If we can do it ourselves, we can crusade against others in a dignified manner, and if we can't do it ourselves, just stand and talk without backache, and try to have a good mouth, we will be scolded as a double-standard dog and a moral, please be merciful and kind.

Don't go through the suffering of others, don't persuade others to be kind.

Wu Meicun was very ashamed, she didn't explain, didn't talk back, and didn't get angry, because the other party was right, and she didn't let people scold her for doing everything

However, Wu Meicun did not intend to correct it, because this was the final decision he made after thousands of inner struggles and thousands of repeated considerations, and if he was given another chance, he would make the same choice.

Wu Meicun arrived in Beijing and was waiting to be hired.

In this winter, seeing that the Chinese New Year was approaching, Hou Fangyu, who was 9 years younger and 37 years younger than Wu Meicun, died and died young.

Empty and talented, he has never opened his arms in his life.

Wu Mei Village went to Henan to mourn. After eating two bowls of braised noodles, drinking two bowls of spicy soup, putting on two pillars of incense, and kowtowing three times, Wu Meicun looked at the smoky portrait of Hou Fangyu and fell into deep thought.

Wu Hou and his position are quite different, and they didn't have much intersection when they were young, until they gradually had some contacts after they became famous, but they didn't meet a few times, and they were more text communication.

There is no entanglement of interests between the two, pure friendship of will, pen pal, friend and colleague, there is a little bit of confidant.

The white head is as new, the cover is as old as ever, the height of proximity, similar encounters, and common emotions, in addition to sympathy for each other, the two have more sympathy for each other, and soon they have nothing to talk about and complain to each other.

Standing in front of Hou Fangyu's spirit, the two bottles of Du Kang wine that he had just drunk were a little upset, recalling the bits and pieces of his interaction with Hou Fangyu, Wu Meicun remembered Hou Fangyu's earnest admonition to himself, and he replied with confidence at that time, "I will live up to my good friend." This is the only request Hou Fangyu made to him in this life, but he broke his promise, "Life and death are always waiting for the promise, and I want to drip pepper syrup and tears."

It

is one thing to know mistakes, and it is another thing to repent, Wu Meicun continues to walk on the road of violating his heart and promises, and he has gone too far.

The following year, Wu Meicun was appointed by the government to the post of chamberlain of the Secretariat, equivalent to the head of the General Office of the State Council, and was later promoted to the position of Minister of Education and President of the National People's Congress and the Party School.

Life is so weird. During the Chongzhen period, Wu Meicun wanted to be an official, but he was always afraid of losing his official, because being an official was the meaning of his life. Now he doesn't want to be an official, because not being an official is the meaning of his life. But he had to be an official, perform his duties in shame and shame, and be a role model.

Two years later, Wu Meicun's mother died, and Wu Meicun returned to his hometown on the grounds of Ding worrying about filial piety, skipping work and eating empty wages.

has experienced too many changes, and without being entangled in official business, Wu Meicun has more time to reflect. In this life, he has always been strict with the standards of a good child, the first 20 years of his life desperately studied for the title of the gold list, and the last 20 years of hard work to achieve his ideals, and he has not dared to slack off for 40 years, running for the goal of Hongwei, insisting on ideals and beliefs, and not hesitating to give up a comfortable life, the smoke and moon of the five lakes, and the people he loves are even willing to give up his life.

Now that half of my body is buried in the soil, I look back and see what I have gained? I don't want to be an official but I become an official, I want to be a loyal minister but I become a traitor, I love a woman deeply but betrays her, I want to be a filial son but I am afraid of my mother, I want to be a moral model but I have become a negative example, and I even want to die but I have not succeeded, and I am still alive and kicking up and down.

On the other hand, what about those who are not as good as themselves? Erchen, Feng Quan, and other morally corrupt people have a bright future, and those who are not as talented as him are in the arms of those who are not as talented as him, Chen Zhenhui, Wu Yingji, and others whose education is not as good as him have won the admiration of the world, Fang Mizhi and Bian Yujing have obtained monkhood certificates, and as for Qian Qianyi, who is not ashamed, he is a big winner in life with a double harvest in love and career.

And what about Wumei Village? Daming is gone, the organization is gone, the job is gone, the career is gone, the reputation is gone, the beloved woman is gone, some are just the infamy of "two dynasties and a courtier", the fame of the world is still yesterday, the prosperity of the world is like a dream of Huangliang, half a life of prudence is as good as ice water, in exchange for just being a joke, the final result of decades of perseverance is nothing, nothing, all you have is a few faded little red flowers that you got in childhood!

I lost everything I shouldn't have lost, I didn't get anything I deserved, and my life was so boring and a failure.

Wu Meicun suddenly didn't want to be a good child, and the price of being a good child was too great. Murder and arson of the gold belt, repair the bridge and repair the road without corpses, Wu Meicun regrets being a good child, and can't wait to smash the archway of a good child right away, what reason, what ethics, what reputation, what Ming, all die aside! Lao Tzu doesn't want anything, what he wants is to live up to this life, not to go in vain in the world.

With sufficient precepts, wisdom is set to enter the Brahmanic realm, let go of greed, hatred, and ignorance and begin to see it. Wu Meicun, who was about to let go of the fetters and break free from the shackles, suddenly sobered up, the world was in a hurry, it was better to hurry up and be chic, no longer indulgent and not capricious, and in a few years I would not be able to toss if I wanted toss! Live in the moment, ride a horse and enjoy youth, indulge once degenerate, as long as you cry and get drunk, Lao Tzu is going to fall into the devil!

Bian Yujing thinks about ascetic cultivation and enlightenment, and Wu Meicun thinks about indulging in demons, but the two are opposite, but they are also similar: they are both painful people, lonely people, who have lost their goals in life, walking corpses, and corpses.

The

feeling of serving the country in spare time;

Whoever is sad and lost? are all guests from other lands.