Smiling at the peach blossom fan, peach blossoms smile at the spring breeze

The combination of Bian Yujing and the second generation of officials is obviously not a matter of course, but a simple mutual need: Bian Yujing needs a harbor to anchor, and the second generation of officials needs a beautiful woman to warm the bed, and the two parties can get what they want from each other, so a sacred marriage is hastily reached.

Compared with the second generation of officials, Wu Meicun and Bian Yujing are fateful. Back then, Bian Yujing longed for an ordinary married life, but Wu Meicun was thinking about making meritorious contributions and making vigorous achievements; later, it was all the tragic events of the country's ruin and family ruin, and the relationship between the two was blocked by the smoke of war; when the two met again, they met Bian Yujing who was just about to get married; and when Wu Meicun decided to let go of the glitz and reveal his true temperament, Bian Yujing had already escaped into the empty door to praise the classics. The two met the right person in this life, but it was not the right time, they were always half a beat, and they couldn't resonate at the same frequency, they were doomed to have no chance in this life, and they made people miserable.

Shortly after Wu Meicun became a leader, 2 years after the last breakup with Wu Meicun Hengtang, Bian Yujing finally got married.

This marriage is serious, she is ready to maintain this marriage, whether the other party is unbearable, incomprehensible, or even a certain degree of domestic violence is acceptable, she doesn't pursue these, she no longer longs for any love, she just wants a man in name, a home to live in.

However, there is always a gap between the ideal and the reality, and after marriage, Bian Yujing soon found that his ideas were too naïve: he has been performing at the gates of the capital and major cities all these years, and he has been in contact with all the dignitaries and nobles, and it is difficult to think about it, so it is really beyond the scope of tolerance to look at the second generation of officials who are too shallow, vulgar, and self-righteous.

Similarly, the second generation of officials thought at first that they had picked up a treasure and went home, but then they quickly became aesthetically fatigued, thinking that what bullshit was the first beauty in the country, and it was a pile of tofu scum when the makeup was removed, and it was too disappointing for the star to remove the halo, and the goddess fell into the mortal dust like that, it was better to go out casually and find a young and beautiful one who was more knowledgeable and interesting.

Bian Yujing's marriage is becoming more and more unstable, and there are signs of breakdown.

There are only two kinds of things: once and many times, and Bian Yujing, who has been divorced once, will soon get divorced again.

What is marriage? Marriage is sleeping together today and sleeping together tomorrow.

The opposite of marriage is love. What is love? Love is sleeping together today and wanting to sleep together tomorrow.

A marriage with love is a tool to protect rights, and a marriage without love is a shackle. This shackle will limit some of the freedom of both partners and accelerate the dislike of each other.

Finally one day, Bian Yujing and the second generation of the official looked at each other disgustingly, and they were unwilling to endure it anymore, and the two parties discussed ending the marriage, on the condition that Bian Yujing gave his maid to the second generation of the official. In this way, Bian Yujing was freed, the second generation of officials got a young beauty, and the maid got a home, all of them were happy, and the three parties won and won the game.

This marriage comes and goes quickly, and it is very happy, I want to get married when I get married, I don't want to break up when I get married, there is no difficulty in parting, there is no heart-wrenching pain, the knot is bland, and it is divided at will.

As a traditional Chinese, especially a traditional Chinese woman, no matter how desperately you want to divorce, divorce will always hurt her. On the surface, Bian Yujing was freed, but in fact, she was cut again.

Some people think that life without marriage is flawed. In fact, a failed marriage is the bigger drawback. I have never been married, at least I retain my longing and longing for marriage, and I know that these good wishes can only be longing and longing after I have been married.

After experiencing this marriage, the young Bian Yujing has a complete but imperfect life, has experienced love without marriage and marriage without love, has loved and hated, cried and laughed, experienced car dust and bright lights, experienced hunger and desperation, experienced the prosperity of the world and the warmth of human affection, experienced thousands of miles of escape and precariousness, once had fans full of friends like clouds, and now she is invisible, everything has left her.

She suddenly found that life is actually very boring, and began to reflect on why she lives and what is the meaning of life.

What do we live for? This is not a philosophical question, but a very earthy practical question. Except for some noble people who are for the liberation of mankind and the progress of society, most people cannot answer.

But we can all answer another question: why don't we die? There are too many reasons: I don't want to make my relatives sad, I don't want my spouse and house to be cheaper, I don't want my children to be abused by later generations, I want to listen to my lover's love words, I want to eat dumplings, ice cream and corn on the cob, I want to see Turkey riding on the wall, The revolutionary Paris and the black people can't breathe Miami, I want to see the spring breeze and autumn moon and the vast river, I want to see the four-legged horse and the sea full of water, I want to see the west wind in the north and the apricot blossoms in the south of the Yangtze River and the girl under the oil-paper umbrella, in short, I feel that there are too many beautiful things that I have not experienced or experienced enough, but I refuse to look back if I can sink in the sea of desire for one more day.

Desire is the driving force of human progress, some people are addicted to the feeling of desire satisfaction, have been fighting for desire, and live very passionately; some people have no desire, can not be interested in doing anything, do nothing, lie flat and rot into a boring walking corpse.

Bian Yujing belongs to the latter, and all he has gained from thirty years of hard work is age and unbearable experience. What is the use of this beauty if I want it? What if I want this affection?

Xiao Feng Mo smiled at the girl of the East Village, and the head was still full of yarn by the white stream. Perhaps those vulgar, ugly, and stubborn village women can always get the person they love, and then they will marry and have children, and all the things they are proud of cannot be exchanged for the person they love. Bian Yujing found Hongchen too ridiculous, and infatuation was the most boring. That being the case, death is not something difficult to accept. She finally swung the sword and cut off the love thread.

The only most nostalgic thing in the world has been cut off, the world has become boring, and it is time to consider leaving this world.

Before preparing to die, Bian Yujing thought about what he didn't do in this life, what people he was sorry for, and what unfulfilled wishes he had.

Looking at the drunken robe, Bian Yujing suddenly realized that in addition to being sorry for himself in this life, he may be too old a gentleman. Over the years, he has been wearing Taoist robes, doing things under the banner of Taishang Laojun, begging Laojun for blessing and blessing, but he has not done anything to Laojun, and he doesn't even have Laojun in his heart, so that Laojun waits for livestock and cigarettes year after year. Fortunately, Lao Jun is generous and does not hold grudges, otherwise he would have thundered her 10,000 times.

Even if Lao Jun is lenient, we can't be too unkind, in case we really provoke Lao Jun, no one can save him, Lao Jun has a way to interrupt her reincarnation, pull her soul out of hell to sacrifice and suffer, and ensure that she will not rest in peace.

It's time to compensate Lao Jun, and I sincerely thank Lao Jun for his silent dedication and strong support over the years. In order to thank Laojun for his love, Bian Yujing became a monk, became a professional Taoist priest, changed indulgence to abstinence, changed to eat meat to vegetarianism, strictly abided by the precepts and rules, and read the scriptures with anger.

What should I do with my feelings for Wu Meicun? I don't need it, and I can't ask for it anymore, because Wu Meicun is the source of pain. If you want to be liberated, you must first forget Wu Mei Village. It is painful to give up the relationship for so many years, but it is even more painful not to give up.

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first sword on the shore, first cut the person you like, Wu Meicun beheaded her for her own way, she naturally wanted to kill Wu Meicun, hurt each other.

The prodigal girl looked back and saw that Bian Yujing had never been willing to be subordinate, and when she was engaged in Qinglou workers, she was among the top ten, and after becoming a Taoist priest, she was naturally extraordinary. For the next three years, she insisted on pricking the tip of her tongue with needles, taking blood into ink, and copying nearly 70,000 words of the Lotus Sutra dedicated to her faith.

Purple Pole Spirit Palace, it is difficult to get without a little kindness;

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the Immortal Law Realm, there is some sincerity to come.

Bian Yujing's sincerity and spirit are commendable. However, her piety gives people a stronger feeling that she is creepy, and she the tip of her tongue with a needle, and she stabs her tongue for three years, is this still what a normal person does? It doesn't matter if you give yourself blood to put out the fire and lower blood pressure, it is too much to make a blood sacrifice in the name of worshiping the gods, and you do evil things for the sake of Shen Cheng Daxin, I am afraid that the gods will also feel uncomfortable. Is this still Taoism, it feels more like a cult, a demon cult, and a blood cult!

Bian Yujing doesn't care about this, she just wants to strongly express an attitude: Xiuxian, I'm serious!

Performance is for the leader to see, if the leader can't see it, it will be in vain. Can Lao Jun, who is far away in the Nine Heavens, feel Bian Yujing's sincerity?

Of course, Lao Jun has clairvoyance and ears, heavenly ears like thunder, and gods can see everything in the world like electricity, and there are gods who are appointed to be over, three Taidou gods, three corpse gods, and stove gods are specially responsible for supervision. The same is true of Buddhism, the Buddha has three clear and four fears, six passes, ten forces and eighteen non-common laws, and supervises the world full-time, not to mention what actions the sentient beings have, but all the thoughts will be perceived by the Buddha.

On the other hand, this also confirms that Buddhism and Taoism are connected, white coupling, red flowers and green lotus leaves, and the three religions were originally one family.

Bian Yujing's role as Lao Jun has long been noticed, because she has long been silently included in Lao Jun's focus scope. What's more, her behavior in the past few years has not only been eye-catching, to be precise, eye-catching, or even spicy eyes.

Lao Jun, who was far above the thirty-three days, had mixed feelings in his heart at this time, feeling that he had been pitted by this humble and stupid charcoal-based creature. Taishang Laojun is the shadow clone of Hongjun Ancestor, the result of Hongjun's gasification and Sanqing, and to a certain extent, Hongjun Ancestor himself. Hongjun Ancestor is the first immortal, the disciple Pangu opened the sky at the beginning, Taishang Laojun has refined the void and the Tao when the earth is not divided, the three flowers gather at the top, and the five qi are the Yuan, but the cause and effect are immortal. However, from the moment he received Bian Yujing's blood book, Lao Jun felt that the Dao Ji was unstable and the Dao heart was lost, and he almost fell off the green bull.

Lao Junyuan opened his eyes and stared blankly at the stupid human beings in the mortal world thousands of miles away who were squeezing blood with sewing needles and tongues, and thought to himself, Are these human beings really made by Nuwa Niangniang herself? Why do they have such strange brain circuits? Are female fans so crazy now? This fan can't be sick? Offering a blood book as a sacrifice is not worship, this is disgusting him.

The palm in the palm of Taishang Laojun's hand gathered and scattered, scattered and gathered, wanting to bombard this beautiful female believer with a beautiful appearance but poor IQ into scum, and I was afraid that it would hurt the worship of other devout believers, but if he accepted this sacrifice that kept dropping blood scabs and scum into the ground, as well as a smell of blood and spit, would he be misunderstood that he liked this tune? Will it ruin his kind, peaceful, harmless and indisputable Taoist ancestor, and make people feel that he is a bloodthirsty and evil cult demon? What's more, this kind of sacrifice is also disturbing wherever it is placed, the more I think about it, the more angry it becomes, it seems too brutal to kill her, and I am sorry for myself if I don't destroy her.

What's even more speechless is that as a female Taoist priest, if you copy the Taoist masterpieces and recognize them, the problem Bian Yujing is wearing Taoist clothes and is trying to copy a book of Buddhist masterpieces seriously, obviously putting the two gods together to worship, this is clearly kicking the field, giving Lao Jun an ugly look, what do you make Lao Jun think in his heart? Could it be that he wants to persuade Lao Jun to abandon Taoism and believe in Buddhism?

Lao Jun will not believe in Buddhism if he is killed. You must know that Buddha is the Tao, and Lao Tzu's other shadow clone - Lao Tzu went out of the Han Valley in the west and turned Hu into a Buddha, which is why there is Western Buddhism. If Lao Jun believed in the Buddha, wouldn't he live again.

The information between the world and the heavens is completely unequal, and the whispers in the world are like thunder, but the heart of heaven is unpredictable against the will of heaven. Bian Yujing, who was far away in the mortal world, didn't know that Lao Jun was gritting his teeth and trying to kill her, but he was strict with his own strong qualities in the image of the outside tree, completely detached from the chaos of the world from the form and psychology, away from the hustle and bustle of the red dust, in the peaceful morning bell and twilight drum, religiously, patiently and continuously repeating the tongue piercing, squeezing blood, writing scriptures, and continuing to aspire to Taishang Laojun to output harm, challenging Lao Jun's Dao heart over and over again.

Of course, compared with the torture that Lao Jun was subjected to, the most painful was Bian Yujing himself. Every day the tongue is pierced and squeezed out of the blood, and it gives people goosebumps when they think about it. Scientific studies suggest that women experience twice as many pain nerves as men, which means that women feel twice as much pain as men.

What is it that makes Bian Yujing, a weak woman, so unafraid of pain and hysterical? It may be devotion to God, it may be the pursuit of spiritual freedom, it may be the strong desire to achieve enlightenment, but more likely it is the pain of the heart, the extreme, the pain that cannot be discharged. This pain made her no longer afraid of physical pain, but used physical pain to relieve inner pain.

Of course, suffering and enduring suffering are all spiritual practice, which is the legendary penance, sharpening the will through suffering, letting go of laziness, staying alert, not being confused by the red dust, and finally achieving the goal of "centrifuging into dead ashes, remembering and wearing".

However, penance does not lead to immortality and Buddhahood, and the Buddha has learned this here. If you have worries and can't let go, it's in vain to repair again, not to mention piercing the tip of your tongue, even if you pierce yourself into a sieve.

The origin and extinction of the fate are over, and the flowers bloom and fall to the dust.

Half good, half evil and half freewheeling, difficult to understand and difficult to return to the truth.