Smiling at the peach blossom fan, peach blossoms smile at the spring breeze

Since Bian Sai confided his heart and was ruthlessly rejected by Wu Meicun, he has been sad for a long time. I love someone for the first time in this life, and I really love someone, but I didn't expect the result of the first initiative to be wishful thinking.

If you don't fall asick in your life, you will be lovesick, and you will be lovesick.

The body is like a floating cloud, the heart is like a flying flocculent, and the air is like a gossamer.

In the past, Bian Sai had always rejected others, but now he finally knows what it means to be out of love, which is not the same as the legendary stories I have heard and seen before, the lovesickness and lovelorn love in the story are bitter and sweet, and the reality is more sad, desperate, bitter, painful, frightened, and even like a nightmare, looking forward to waking up as soon as possible.

Bian Sai felt hurt his self-esteem, ashamed and angry, my mother, I am as talented and beautiful as a flower, how dare you do this to me?!

Bian Sai's behavior is a bit unreasonable, Qinglou artists should not have any self-esteem, and they can survive without shame.

Why does Bian Sai have such a strong self-esteem? This comes from her deep inferiority, and her inferiority comes from her special experience. Unlike the vast majority of artists who have been poor since childhood, Bian Sai was born in an official eunuch, and the word "Qinglou Woman" is used to scold people in the education she received since she was a child, and she deeply understands the world's contempt for Qinglou women, and she can't let go of Qinglou women in the corners of her eyes, so after falling into the dust, she has low self-esteem for her Qinglou identity, which is her weakness, and she is not allowed to mention it, and forces herself to forget. She studied hard, desperately behaved like a big girl, and all her efforts were to get rid of the identity of a woman in the Qinglou.

Self-esteem is Bian Sai's biggest personality trait, and she will use her happiness to maintain this self-esteem and exchange her life for this self-esteem.

After spending time with Wu Meicun, she found that she had moved her true feelings with the gods, and she couldn't help but really like this person, and this feeling was incorrigibly deep, to the extent that it could not be suppressed.

Fortunately, she didn't need to suppress it too much, she found that Wu Meicun also liked her and was very infatuated with her. After reading countless people, she could see that Wu Meicun was also moved by her true feelings, which was why she dared to summon up the courage to confess to Wu Meicun.

However, when Bian Sai confessed, Wu Meicun's attitude was Jamai Butterfly. At this time, she realized that Wu Meicun disliked her very much, and Meicun felt that she was not worthy of him, no matter how good she was, in Wu Meicun's eyes, she was nothing more than a Qinglou woman.

In addition to sadness, Bian Sai is also angry. She once thought that the relationship between her and Wu Meicun could move the heavens and the heavens, and she could overcome all the obstacles of the world, and no one in the world could break up their true people. I didn't expect Wu Meicun to just play with her - although she also has a certain amount of feelings, but not much, at least not as much as she pays, Wu Meicun just wants to play - of course, not to play with her, but to play the tune called love.

She hated Wu Meicun's timidity, ruthlessness and lack of responsibility, and decided to ignore this negative person again, since he didn't know how to cherish it, let him spend the rest of his life in regret.

But is it really like this to bury this relationship and let it end without a problem? She is really unwilling, and she can't do it, if she loses Wu Meicun, she will be sad for the rest of her life, and if she misses it because she didn't work hard, she will regret it for the rest of her life.

Shouldn't Wu Meicun be given a chance to repent? Bian Sai decided to take the initiative again. Note that self-esteem is Bian Sai's first character, maintaining self-esteem is her basic principle, she doesn't want to give up her self-esteem for anyone or anything, but she is willing to give up her principle here in Wumei Village. In the end, feelings still prevailed over self-esteem, and she decided to take the initiative again and wrote a letter to Wu Meicun, which was a chance for Wu Meicun to regret and another chance for herself.

Not surprisingly, Wu Meicun refused again.

She cried, laughed again, and died. It's not that no one wants her - in fact, she has a lot of fans, and there are many rich people who want to marry her, she just wants to marry Wu Meicun, everyone in the world is grass and trees, and he is the only green mountain.

Since you can't get Wumei Village, let's be like this in this life, who to marry is not to marry, just find someone to marry.

People often discuss a topic: one is the one who loves you and the other is the one you love, which one should you choose?

The benevolent see the benevolent, and the wise see the wise. Some people support the former, thinking that it will be very comfortable and casual, and some support the latter, thinking that if you are not with your lover, even if you are not in love, it will be difficult to settle the case in the end. As for some people who think that children only do multiple-choice questions and ask for all choices, we can only congratulate them from the bottom of our hearts.

Dong Xiaowan supports the latter, she married the person she loves, she is willing to be a slave and a maid, coarse tea and light rice are bitter and sweet, and she is willing to die of fatigue, so she is tired to death, and she is tired to death.

Bian Sai initially supported all selection, thinking that the right answer was to choose all of them, and thought that she and Wu Meicun could take care of both at the same time, secretly laughing at the fact that there were too many crazy men and women in the world, and there was a good couple who couldn't be made.

After being slapped in the face by reality, Bian Sai began to support the latter, since he can't get what he likes, let's find someone who likes him. Two years later, Bian Sai married a local cadre who had been pestering her.

As soon as he got married, Bian Sai regretted it. When she was with local cadres, she always subconsciously compared local cadres with Wu Meicun.

This comparison went wrong, and she found that the local cadres were inferior to Wu Meicun in all aspects regardless of appearance, conversation, talent, and knowledge, and the two did not have any comparison.

She began to miss Wu Mei Village. In the past, when she was with Wu Meicun, she stroked a piano, and Wu Meicun knew the meaning of elegance when she heard the string song; she composed a poem, and Wu Meicun wrote a poem with her; she talked about the past of the sages, and Wu Meicun supplemented the anecdotes of the sages; she wrote a calligraphy, and Wu Meicun taught her various ways to write a golden seal and grass Kaixing, in short, Wu Meicun admired him everywhere, and always felt like a spring breeze.

Now with this man, she writes poems, this man laughs at her sour and fake vinegar, she talks about the past and the present, this man looks dazed and sleepy, and she plays the piano and does not understand how to play the piano, so she despises this man for being vulgar, thinking that this man is just a person in the biological sense, and most of the things he shows are animal characteristics, without any interest in life. Every now and then, she misses Wu Meicun in the distance even more, and feels that the man in front of her is hateful, and feels that life is boring, so her face is often not very good-looking.

Similarly, this man also looks down on her, thinking that she is the goods he bought back, she is a despicable artist, she should be honest and low, but she still has to play the trick of dividing flowers and snowmoons, which is really slut hypocrisy. Especially when Bian Sai was cold and violent to him, he always did not hesitate to talk about his domestic violence and help her clearly understand her position.

If a woman looks down on a man, the marriage will not last, and if a man starts to use violence against a woman, it means that he no longer sees the woman as a human being.

Bian Sai was disappointed in this man and regretted the marriage. The person who loves me has a name, and the person I love is miserable, Bian Yujing wonders when he has offended the god in charge of marriage or fate, and he will have to take time out to pay a good respect.

An unhappy marriage is not as good as living in a green building, and Bian Sai is not a person who is willing to make up. One day in 1945, Bian Sai parted ways with her man and returned to her old job.

In the same year, Nanjing fell, the Hongguang court was destroyed, and the land of China changed to a new owner.

After the Qing people entered Nanjing, they soon discovered that the Ming Dynasty was far ahead of the times in terms of culture and art, which was a way of life that was completely different from horseback riding and eagle shooting, but more addictive, which made people fascinated and admired.

In order to give full play to the great role of cultural people in the reunification of the motherland, economic revival and renaissance, the Qing government decided to restore the cultural industry as soon as possible, recruited singers from the sect, and required all those who were in the music to obey the unified management of the government and not ask for leave without reason.

The famous Bian Sai has indisputably become a representative of the cultural revival of the Qing people. Although she is low-key, withdrawn, high-minded, and arrogant, she is too good for any shortcomings to hide her brilliance, and she is radiant and attracts the attention of the government.

However, Bian Sai does not intend to be this representative, on the contrary, she prefers to become an anti-Qing representative in the literary and artistic circles. She is not a merchant girl who can only sing backyard flowers, but a patriotic young woman like "Sheep Fat Ball", ashamed of serving the alien race who slaughtered her compatriots.

Bian Sai's approach is unconscionable for the following reasons.

First, it is not in line with the general trend of development. After the Qing people entered the customs, artists ushered in the spring of their careers, and they could take advantage of the spring breeze of artistic revival to show their skills and make great achievements. Even if they are not hired by the imperial court, so many soldiers and brothers who have come from afar, so many Qing officials who have never seen the world, and so many Qing nouveau riche who have just made a fortune but have never seen the great Ming Dynasty are all huge customers, and their desire to improve their quality of life and quality of life is very urgent, and the best way is to invest in the Qinglou business and discuss artistic life with artists. In this case, Bian Sai can be like a fish in water in the new dynasty, even more so than in the Ming dynasty.

Second, it does not match personal feelings. Bian Sai didn't owe Da Ming anything, on the contrary, Da Ming owed her, and the evil Da Ming ruined her family, making her a beautiful, brave, upright, and kind woman fall into the dust, and her young sister did not escape the doom. If her father is a bad person and deserves to be punished by law, what did she and her sister, two young girls, do wrong? She is qualified to hate Da Ming, has a reason to welcome the new master of the new regime, and has another foot on Da Ming's corpse.

Third, it does not conform to the individual's career plan. She is just a Qinglou worker, the quality of Puliu, what she needs is pity and care, she should not be the main force against the Qing Dynasty, and she should not charge at the front line of the anti-Qing Dynasty. Those generals who should be in front of the charge surrendered, the important ministers surrendered, the celebrities surrendered, the gentry surrendered, the millions of troops untied the armor tree and lowered the flag, and the resistance of a female artist was nothing more than hitting the stone with an egg, blocking the car with a mantis arm, which would not play any role except to move herself.

However, Bian Sai still chose to be loyal to the Ming Dynasty. Da Ming abused me thousands of times, I treated Da Ming like my first love, there was no reason, just for the little grievance and unwillingness in my heart.

In contrast, those important ministers represented by Wu Sangui who were deeply favored by the country became traitors according to the principle of "if you can't beat it, you joined", and they were embarrassed to be called men, so what face did they have to live in the world.

Bian Yujing couldn't stop the torrent of history, and she didn't want to go with the flow, she would rather be an outsider than a Qing Dynasty citizen, so she decided to flee Nanjing.

It's terrible for a woman to flee in the midst of chaos, and any little wind and wave can kill her.

In order to avoid risks, Bian Yujing faced the sky, washed all the lead, linen skirt, mixed yuan scarf wrapped up three thousand troubles silk, Qingdao robe wrapped in graceful body, brought a small amount of money and a favorite guqin, fled Nanjing as a Taoist aunt, and gave himself a Taoist name: "Yujing Daoren" - this is also the origin of the name "Bian Yujing".

This idea is good, a person with normal aesthetics will only be interested in the warbler Yanyan in the red Feicui dancing brocade dress Luo skirt and neon dress and feather coat, few people will associate the red dust and mundane things from the monks, and only a few heavy tastes will think of the connotation after removing the cyan Taoist costume.

In this way, Bian Sai has two identities: a Taoist aunt and an artist. When the market environment is bad, put on a Taoist costume, seek peace and longevity under the protection of Taishang Laojun, and by the way, reverse the three customs; when the market environment improves, put on red makeup to do business and enjoy the prosperity of the world, there are backers in the world and underground, the gods and the court are backstage, and the dual identities are two-sided people, and they are also harmonious, and they are also monks and laymen, seamless streets, and they are converted into wishes.