I became auspicious

"Imperial Doctor Chen has arrived!" Hongmei's announcement interrupted my musings.

Imperial Physician Chen walked in slowly, bowed down, humble and polite. I glanced at Zhao Jihuan, and the corners of his mouth raised slightly: "From now on, Imperial Doctor Chen will popularize some fertility knowledge for you every day." Rest assured!".

I responded with a light smile, and the doubts in my heart seemed to dissipate a little.

The snowflakes quietly stopped falling, and the air in the palace seemed to be still. Imperial Doctor Chen stepped back, and Zhao Jihuan took my hand and led me into the peaceful courtyard. We walked along the snowflake-covered stone paths, leaving a deep mark with every step. Everything around us seems so delicate and full of life, as if a flowing picture scroll slowly unfolds before our eyes.

A strong thought welled up in my heart, and I couldn't help but ask, "Huanlang, if you are faced with the choice of protecting the big and the small, what will you do?"

Zhao Jihuan's answer was gentle and firm, he looked at me, his deep eyes were full of sincerity: "I will choose you, I will definitely choose you." He stood still, his tone serious: "I know you have many concerns in your heart, but please believe that I will always protect you." You can trust me completely, entrust me. "

I

looked him in the eye and replied earnestly, "I'm sorry, I can't do it completely." Because now I seem to be completely dependent on you, which makes me feel an inexplicable panic. Now your presence has completely permeated my life, and it seems as if I have lost a piece of the free sky. But I don't want to be a silk flower that can only cling to you, I want to be a bird that flies freely. I paused slightly, took a deep breath, and continued, "So, after I have given birth, I have to leave. Can you understand and accept it?".

Zhao Jihuan's eyes revealed a hint of understanding. His deep eyes seemed to reflect my inner world and insight into my true thoughts. The corners of his mouth twitched slightly, and his words were full of understanding and respect: "I understand." If you insist, then I will respect your choice. "

Three years later, on a bright afternoon, I gently hugged the one-year-old Zhao Yunzhen in my arms, his little hands grasping the placket of my clothes, as if it was the softest warmth in my heart. My eyes involuntarily fell on the three-year-old boy on the ground - Zhao Jingxuan. One of his little faces, full of maturity beyond his years, was running towards me on his short legs.

He ran up to me, looked up at me with those clear eyes, and asked in a milky voice, "Mother, what's wrong with you?"

I lowered my head, stroked his hair gently, smiled and said, "Mother is fine, just a little tired." "

He seemed to hear the perfunctory words in my words, frowned slightly, grabbed the corner of my clothes tightly with his little hands, and said seriously: "Mother, don't go!

My heart tightened, I didn't expect him to say such a thing. I closed my eyes, took a deep breath, tried to calm the emotions in my heart, then nodded lightly and said, "Okay, mother promised you that when you grow up, mother will leave." "

He listened to me, as if assured of something, put a big smile on his face, and ran away happily. I stood where I was, looking at his back running away, but my heart was full of helplessness and bitterness.

I knew that he couldn't have come up with these words on his own, someone must have taught him behind his back. Maybe it was Emperor Zhao Chengyang, maybe it was Empress Duan Xuefu, they must have been dissatisfied with me staying outside the palace for so long, so they used this to beat me.