Qingfeng Xu Xu

Facing the shocking change in front of him, Xu Qingjiu just stood there at a loss, his wide eyes red and full of tears. Xu Qingjiu felt that her steps were heavy and she walked cautiously towards Xu Mulin, but the surroundings suddenly became dark. When Xu Qingjiu walked to the threshold based on her feeling, she found that there was no one around. Xu Qingjiu knelt down and groped around. Not only was there no one around, there was no sound at all. Xu Qingjiu wanted to call Xu Mulin, but no sound came out after he opened his mouth. Suddenly, the surroundings became bright again, but the scene was no longer the kitchen of Ziqingtang, but the private room of a restaurant and inn at the foot of Tianzong Mountain.

Xu Qingjiu, who was kneeling by the door at this moment, turned around and saw a person standing by the window against the light. Xu Qingjiu could not see the person's face clearly. The person had already smiled bitterly and said:"Why are you lying there? It's not you? You are so cowardly and incompetent. What are you doing while you are still alive? You can't make him wake up. No matter how much you do, you can't make up for everything you have done, so why don't you die?"

"what are you saying?"Xu Qingjiu couldn't help but speak, and finally made a sound this time.

Xu Qingjiu wanted to stand up and walk over to see who that person was and why he said such words, but the moment he stood up, his legs After falling to his knees again, Xu Qingjiu had to crawl forward using both hands and feet. Just after climbing two steps, the things around him suddenly fell into the cracks in the ground, and Xu Qingjiu also fell down. Suddenly, Xu Qingjiu A man in black clothes appeared in Jiu's sight, and he tried hard to reach out to him. As the distance between the two became closer and closer, Xu Qingjiu finally saw Xu Mulin's face clearly.

Xu Qingjiu also hurriedly stretched out his hand, She wanted to hold Xu Mulin, but when she was just a hair away, Xu Mulin disappeared out of thin air again. Xu Qingjiu struggled hard, but still fell straight into the abyss.

Xu Qingjiu shouted to Xu Mulin with all her strength, But the sound was completely swallowed up by the surrounding darkness.

On the bed in Shan Zongtang's bedroom, Xu Qingjiu suddenly opened his eyes. His back was soaked with sweat, and the pillow was also wet. When Xu Qingjiu opened his eyes, tears were still there The tears kept falling from the corners of his eyes to the pillow. Xu Qingjiu raised his hands to cover his eyes, but the tears still kept falling from the corners of his eyes. Between his fingers, Xu Qingjiu looked at the roof of the room and murmured:"Senior brother , senior brother..."

Xu Qingjiu felt as if the tip of his heart was pierced by a sharp sword. A violent pain spread from his heart to his whole body. The severe pain stimulated Xu Qingjiu to spit out a mouthful of blood. Tears, sweat, and blood fell to the ground in drops. Tears accumulated in her eyes, and her vision was blurred. However, the pain was not blurry at all. Xu Qingjiu's shoulders were shaking, and the hands supporting her body tightly held the bedside. , but still couldn't stop shaking. Under such pain, Xu Qingjiu just slowly leaned on the bed, the expression on his face was completely incompatible with the pain he was suffering at the moment.

In the room, Xu Qingjiu was leaning on the bed and shedding tears uncontrollably. Blood condensed on her lips and chin. Xu Qingjiu still kept mumbling like babble,"Senior brother, senior brother...."

The pain that invaded his whole body became more and more intense, but Xu Qingjiu just bit the corner of his lip to endure it. Even if he bit his lip and the blood flowed down the condensed blood, Xu Qingjiu still endured the pain without making a sound, but the pain in his heart The pain became more and more intense, and Xu Qingjiu suddenly coughed out another mouthful of blood, as if he was only aware of the pain at this moment, and finally began to sob softly.

Xu Qingjiu wiped his face haphazardly, not knowing whether he was wiping away tears or blood. Looking at the tears and snot mixed with blood on his palms, he suddenly laughed out loud again, smiling and laughing, but more tears fell, until The tears sliding down from the chin gradually faded from blood to the color of tears.

"Senior brother, it’s been a long, long time. I miss you so much. I miss you so much."Xu Qingjiu said as he was minding his own business, he sat up from the bed with his hands on his hands, took a few deep breaths, and then slowly stood up. The moment he stood up, he seemed to have spent a lot of effort and vomited again. The blood came, and the smell of blood in his mouth became a little stronger. Xu Qingjiu had to walk to the table, pick up the kettle and drink some water, and swallowed the blood foam and water in his mouth into his stomach.

Xu Mulin was seriously injured and fell into a coma. It has been thirteen years since I woke up. It is said that I was seriously injured and in a coma. However, if I didn’t check Xu Mulin’s breathing carefully and just looked at Xu Mulin lying there quietly, I would probably feel that he was no different from death. Therefore, countless times Yes, Xu Qingjiu also wanted to give herself a break, but Xu Qingjiu couldn't do it, not because he cherished his life, but because Xu Qingjiu felt that he had not experienced all the suffering, and it was not enough to repay Xu Mulin for all the suffering he had suffered because of him..

Today is Xu Qingjiu’s birthday, but since Xu Mulin was seriously injured, Xu Qingjiu has not celebrated any festival. Although Xu Qingjiu is now the head of Tianzong, no one in Tianzong dares to propose to Xu Qingjiu held a birthday banquet. Not to mention the banquet, even the Shan Sect hall set up by the Tian Sect for its leader, and even the entire Tian Sect, were much quieter than usual today. Starting from last night, the disciples in the sect began to avoid the Shan Sect. As he walked out of the hall, he was afraid that he would accidentally make some noise. Although Xu Qingjiu was not a vicious person, the special nature of this day was just like the sect's rules, and everyone knew them by heart. In fact, every day is It was life as usual like that, but I don’t know when Xu Qingjiu started to feel that the passage of time that he didn’t want to pay too much attention to always became extremely obvious on this day, always reminding Xu Qingjiu in the most violent way One year has passed, and Xu Mulin has been in a coma for another year, but Xu Qingjiu still has not found a way to wake Xu Mulin up and has no clue about it.

Three years ago, after Xu Qingjiu took Xu Mulin away from Guxia Manor , originally thinking of going back to Tianzong to rest for a while before continuing to go out to find a way to wake up Xu Qingjiu. At first, Xu Qingjiu told Li Jichu that there were still unexplored places outside the Great Wall, but Xu Qingjiu stayed outside the Great Wall for half a year. He kept searching day and night, asking day and night, and had already searched all the places he could find. But Xu Qingjiu could only hope that there were wider places to search outside the Great Wall.

But once he returned to Tianzong, As time goes by, Xu Qingjiu loses the courage to step out of Tianzong. Like that, after all the hard work, he hurried to a place when he learned that there was a method, but after arriving, it was all in vain. Xu Qingjiu has already I have experienced it countless times. Are you tired? Perhaps for Xu Qingjiu, he no longer feels what tiredness is, but he is not numb either. Instead, he is too sober, sober that he can feel every disappointment and every hope. Failed, and then could only continue to regain hope, but Xu Qingjiu had even forgotten what hope was, and was just repeating the same thing, repeating pretense, repeating hope, repeating disappointment, repeating self-blame, repeating I hate myself all the time, but it seems that this is the only way I can do it. Xu Huaisen has been standing outside Xu Qingjiu’s door for two hours, listening to the movements in the house. Of course Xu Huaisen knows that this day is special, but Xu Huaisen can also feel it. Xu Qing's condition was getting worse and worse, and he was afraid that something would happen to Xu Qingjiu if he wasn't careful, so Xu Huaisen had no choice but to sneak up quietly and wait outside the door. Since being assigned other responsibilities by Xu Qingjiu, Xu Huaisen left Shan Zongtang and lived elsewhere. Xu Qingjiu said that this would make it easier for Xu Huaisen to handle affairs, but Xu Huaisen knew that Xu Qingjiu just wanted to be more clean. Although he was concerned about Xu Qingjiu, Xu Huaisen never wanted to refute Xu Qingjiu's intentions, so he always ran in both directions from time to time. Of course, most of the time, he would sneak over to see Xu Qingjiu's condition.

The room was very quiet at first. Through the crack in the window, Xu Huaisen could see Xu Qingjiu lying on the bed and resting. Although he felt that he might be overthinking, Xu Huaisen still stood outside the door for a while, during which time he secretly looked through the crack in the window. Several times, I only saw Xu Qingjiu resting quietly. Xu Huaisen finally felt relieved and was about to leave when he suddenly heard Xu Qingjiu crying from inside the house. Xu Huaisen almost pushed the door open and went in, but suddenly he reacted and was worried that he would see some inappropriate scene if he went in hastily, which would make Xu Qingjiu embarrassed. Xu Huaisen had no choice but to lean over and take a look through the window slit, only to see Xu Qingjiu still lying on the bed with her eyes closed, her expression a little painful, as if she was trapped in a nightmare. Xu Huaisen had accidentally seen Xu Mulin awakened by nightmares several times before. After that, he went to Shennong Hall to buy some soothing things for Xu Qingjiu, but Xu Qingjiu ignored them. Later, Xu Huaisen had no choice but to take some medicine and make it into a medicated diet, and then he tricked Xu Qingjiu into taking it several times.

Xu Huaisen was the first and only disciple Xu Qingjiu accepted, but over the years, Xu Huaisen became more like a master, with endless worries. Later, Xu Qingjiu even appointed Xu Huaisen as a head teacher. His identity allowed Xu Huaisen to handle the clan’s internal affairs on his behalf., in addition to receiving and entertaining other sects, and Xu Qingjiu became a hand-off sect by himself, but Xu Huaisen still asked Xu Qingjiu’s opinion after making decisions on big and small matters, but Xu Qingjiu also changed the formal take a look.

Xu Huaisen looked at Xu Qingjiu's painful appearance in the nightmare, and thought about finding some way to get Xu Qingjiu to take some soothing medicine. After a while, Xu Huaisen heard movement in the house and the sound of tabletops rattling, so he hurried forward and knocked on the door, but received no response. Xu Huaisen could only peek through the window slit again and saw that Xu Qingjiu had gotten up from the bed and was standing bent over with her back to the door. Xu Huaisen returned to the door and knocked on the door again,"Master, I am Huaisen."

Hearing Xu Huaisen's voice, Xu Qingjiu wiped the sweat on his forehead, took a coat and put it on himself, and then put on the inner coat Wiping the blood stains left at the corner of his mouth, he held it in his hand - his inner clothes were soaked with sweat, but Xu Qingjiu was too lazy to change. After making sure that he didn't look very embarrassed, Xu Qingjiu sat down at the table, picked up the tea cup and poured water for himself, as if it was no different from usual.

"Come in."

Xu Huaisen entered the house and saw Xu Qingjiu trying to pretend that nothing happened. Xu Huaisen felt at a loss and didn't know what to say for a moment.

"What do you want from me?"

"Huisen pays homage to his master."Xu Huaisen leaned over and saluted.

"Um."Xu Qingjiu replied in a deep voice and continued to drink tea unhurriedly.

"I haven’t seen Master come out of the ancestral hall all day today. I thought that Master might not have eaten anything all day long, so I thought...I wanted to ask you if you would like something to eat. Huisen went to cook it for Master."

If Xu Huaisen was really just worried about this, he would have made food and delivered it directly, instead of coming here to ask questions first. In the past, Xu Qingjiu would have basically stayed at Shan Zongtang on this day. One day, not eating or drinking has been the norm recently. How could Xu Huaisen not know that he must have some other worries before coming to him? Xu Qingjiu raised his head and glanced at Xu Huaisen, but did not reveal it.

"I'm not hungry, you go down."

When he first came in, Xu Huaisen saw that Xu Qingjiu's face was very pale. Now when Xu Qingjiu raised his head, Xu Huaisen could see more clearly. There was no blood on Xu Qingjiu's face, but his lips were very bright red, and the corners of his lips were There were also very obvious blood stains. Looking at Xu Qingjiu's appearance, Xu Huaisen felt a little more worried, but he still didn't know how to speak. He just stood in a daze and did not answer Xu Qingjiu's words.

"Anything else?"

"......"

"Wyson?"

"Master, what did you say?"Xu Huaisen was anxious. Looking at Xu Qingjiu's condition, he felt that it couldn't get any worse. But after he came in so recklessly, he couldn't even think of words to persuade Xu Qingjiu. For a moment, he became more and more panicked. He only waited for Xu Qingjiu's call. It's like waking up

"I said I'm not hungry, what else do you want?"

"master...you...Are you ok?"As soon as he finished speaking, Xu Huaisen felt that these words were very inappropriate,"Master, forgive me, I just saw that Master's face was not very good, so I was a little worried about Master."

"I'm fine. I just slept for a while and had a few nightmares. If you have nothing to do, just go down."

"...Yes, then Huaisen will retire first." After Xu Huaisen bent down to salute, he did not go out. He only secretly raised his eyes to look at Xu Qingjiu. After thinking about it, Xu Huaisen breathed out lightly and continued,"It's windy today. master...If you go to the back mountain, please remember to add some clothes and be careful not to catch cold."

Xu Qingjiu looked at Xu Huaisen's cautious opening and didn't care at all, but she still couldn't help but feel a little sulky. She gave Xu Huaisen a cold look and said in a deep voice:"Get out."

Although Xu Huaisen said it implicitly, everyone in Tianzong knows that there is a cold pool in the back of Zongshan Hall, and there is a person lying in the cold pool. That person is the head brother, Xu Mulin. This is the capital of the entire Tianzong. No one dared to mention it, including Xu Huaisen, but not out of fear, but out of respect for Xu Qingjiu and the uncle who had only met him a few times. But today, seeing Xu Qingjiu's appearance , Xu Huaisen's worry about Xu Qingjiu has reached its peak. He feels that if he doesn't do something or say something, something might really happen to Xu Qingjiu. And Xu Qingjiu's anger was also expected by Xu Huaisen, so Xu Huaisen Then he bit the bullet and continued:"What Huisen said today had no intention of offending Master and Uncle. However, Master has been sincerely waiting for Master for many years, and Master will definitely wake up. Master, please take good care of yourself." , If my uncle wakes up and sees his master in pain, he will definitely be very sad."Xu Huaisen finished speaking in one breath, still bowing his head in salute, closing his eyes and waiting for Xu Qingjiu to scold. Xu Qingjiu was used to being patient, Xu Huaisen thought, maybe this would allow Xu Qingjiu to vent a little of the pent-up frustration in his heart. She could feel more at ease.

Xu Qingjiu listened silently to Xu Huaisen's words. Xu Qingjiu wanted to interrupt Xu Huaisen as soon as he opened his mouth, but in the end he held it back.

Of course Xu Qingjiu understood Xu Huaisen's worries. Listening to these words from this apprentice who was actually not good at words, Xu Qingjiu felt even more sad.

Xu Huaisen may indeed understand the pain in Xu Qingjiu's heart, but what can he do? Xu Qingjiu has been feeling sad all these years. It was like a person who was isolated in this world, silently suffering all kinds of painful emotions in this world, but Xu Qingjiu didn't want to be understood, didn't want to be sympathized with, and didn't want to be shared in the pain.

Xu Qingjiu closed his eyes and calmed down. After calming down, tears suddenly fell down again when he opened his eyes. Xu Qingjiu lowered his head and sighed and said:"I understand, you can go down."

Seeing Xu Qingjiu lowering his head, his face buried in the shadow, Xu Huaisen suddenly felt that he had been too reckless just now. Xu Huaisen sighed, leaned over and saluted:"Master, forgive me....The disciple resigned."

After Xu Huaisen left Shan Zongtang, he went to the kitchen to make some food for Xu Qingjiu. When Xu Huaisen was halfway carrying the food box, he suddenly thought of something, and went back to his residence to dig out a jug of wine. This wine is Xu Qingjiu likes to drink it. When Xu Huaisen went out to do errands, he went to Jiangning Mansion to buy it. It turned out to be placed in the Shanzong Hall for Xu Qingjiu. However, when Li Jihua and the others came to Tianzong later, they specially warned Xu Huaisen. , don't let Xu Qingjiu drink too much. Later, Xu Huaisen secretly transferred some while Xu Qingjiu was going to Hantan. When Xu Qingjiu asked, Xu Huaisen forcefully denied that he did not do it. But later, these The wine fell into Xu Qingjiu's mouth in twos and threes.

Xu Huaisen knocked on the door. Before Xu Qingjiu could speak, Xu Huaisen had already spoken first and said:"Master, I made some food for you and left it at the door for you. Master, please eat as much as possible. It is important to take care of yourself....The disciple resigned."After saying that, Xu Huaisen put down the food box and wine jar and left.