Fantasy world

What happened to Zhang Xiaolian was like a stone weighing on my heart, so heavy that I could hardly breathe. But I can't show my emotions at will, and I have to pretend to be nonchalant on the surface. I have never felt so miserable as to be dead.

When I participated in the county performance, I seemed slow and inattentive. I actually forgot my lyrics a few times during the performance. Fortunately, Meifu performed normally and made up for the show wittily, which kept the program from going smoothly. In the end, the two programs we participated in on behalf of the commune received unanimous praise, won the best awards, and won honors for our commune.

It wasn't until the show was over and she saw the results that Huang Huimin talked to me alone again. Her conversation was also very brief. Even if she expressed her attitude to me and said that I was quite interesting, she would not break her promise. From the way he spoke, it didn't sound like he was joking. I quickly came to my senses. I was really flattered and couldn't believe it. According to her opinion, is she really going to get me to teach in school? Did this kind of good thing happen to me?

However, when I thought about it again, I felt guilty. This performance was mainly due to Mi Zhongliang and Mi Fu, and I took advantage of them. Especially Miffy, her parents have contributed a lot to the show, but in the end I got all the benefits. What do they think?

But Huang Huimin's attitude was very clear and resolute. She was counting on me for this performance and only promised to thank me. I am an educated youth, and I was assigned to teach in the brigade. I had the conditions and foundation, but she was unable to do anything else.

Huang Huimin’s words also make sense. Mi Zhongliang's family background is a stain, and letting him participate in the show is a risk. As for Mifu, she only has the talent of singing flower drum opera, and after the performance is over, there will be no use for her. For the time being, I can't think of anything that can take care of her.

Being able to go to school to teach was originally a great thing, but instead I became guilty of being a thief. I told Huang Huimin that if possible, I would simply let Meifu replace me and let her go to school to teach. Huang Huimin became furious when she heard this. School is not a vegetable garden. Anyone can go there if they want to? Are you kidding me?

The end of the county's mobilization also represents the end of this political mission. The propaganda team of the brigade was also announced to be disbanded, and everyone returned to their original positions and conditions, working from sunrise to sunset, day after day, week after week.

In fact, during the intense and busy days when we were rehearsing, preparing, participating in commune performances, and performing in the county, the New Year was approaching unknowingly. Originally, at the end of the Lunar New Year, the countryside should be full of atmosphere and full of New Year flavor. But over the years, this festive atmosphere seems to have diluted a lot due to changing customs. Grasp the revolution to promote production, fight against the heaven and earth, destroy the old and establish the new. The revolutionary situation in the countryside is still vigorous and climaxing one after another.

Of course, by participating in this performance, our reputation and status in the team have changed a lot. Especially Mi Zhongliang. He was similar to me before. He had just returned from the labor camp and was usually very quiet and low-key. No one even knows that he actually has so much artistic talent. This performance allowed him to steal the spotlight. After he returned to the team, everyone would not let him go again. Every time he had a break in work, the men and women around him would surround him and improvise a few paragraphs.

Mee Fu's Flower Drum Opera is also the most popular tune. However, the old tunes of Huagu Opera are mostly feudal dross, and you will make mistakes if you are not careful. Whenever she encounters people making noises, Mi Fu will use this to excuse her. On the contrary, Aunt Hua is older and more qualified, has more goods in her belly, and her singing has a richer charm. More often, people will pester Aunt Hua to sing a few verses.

After this performance, I became Aunt Hua’s true disciple, and I couldn’t deny it even if I wanted to. Aunt Hua declares this to the outside world, and everyone in the bay, old and young, recognizes it as such.

Master and disciple are like father and son, like mother and son. As a disciple, of course you have to be controlled and taught by others. So, besides work, I have to take some time to practice my vocal skills, right? In this way, Miff and I have more opportunities to rub each other's shoulders, which also invisibly adds a layer of love between brothers and sisters from the same school.

During this period, Zhang Xiaolian's wedding day also quietly arrived.

Since the last time Michelle and I visited Zhang Xiaolian, a wall seemed to have suddenly risen between her and me. The passion and madness that once existed seemed to be suddenly and ruthlessly cut off. Each other's hearts instantly turned into glass, and each other's thoughts seemed fragile and cautious.

She was about to get married, and I could only watch helplessly, unable to even express my sadness. Once upon a time, it was she who turned me from a boy into a man. Between us, we are so crazy about life and death. Even at the risk of being broken into pieces, we still maintain the awe-inspiring awe of death. Because, at least there is still an illusory idea in our hearts. We like each other and love each other. We are like a pair of opium addicts, always deceiving ourselves and others, using a beautiful pathos to cover up our shameless sins and sloppiness.

But now, suddenly I heard that she was getting married and leaving. There will never be such a romantic night between us again. When I think of this, I am filled with fear and fear. I was even afraid to see her again, afraid to have a tryst with her, afraid of such adventure and madness. What likes what love? What kind of eternal alliance will last forever? My mind is filled with those dirty images now. I am afraid that when I see her again, I will turn into such a dirty piece of trash, making her disgusted and despised forever.

No matter how painful and struggling I am in my heart, the fact that Zhang Xiaolian got married and the day of her wedding will not change in any way. It makes no sense for me to worry about myself and torture myself so much. Besides, no one in this world except Xueer knows that I am so entangled and painful. What are you doing! A man must be able to pick up and put down. No matter what, life must go on!

Thinking of this, I felt relieved, as if nothing had happened, just do whatever you have to do!