Knight of the Blue Lagoon (The Past of Tao v)

34. Day 3 (The Past of Tao i)

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On the morning of the third day, the sun shone through the gap in the curtains and hit the wall like a long scar. Tang Jiahui fell asleep very late last night and slept until now. When he woke up, Daozhi was no longer there. Tang Jiahui was lying lazily on the bed. Too many sudden things happened in the past few days and he was about to plan on detailing it. Thinking about it, the phone rang, it was my mother

"I'm at school, where are you?"

"School?"Tang Jiahui hasn't recovered yet.

"Yes, your university, on campus."Mother

"Why are you here?"It seems that my mother flew over early in the morning.

"Where are you?"Mother asked eagerly

"I'll be right over, Mom."

Tang Jiahui didn't even have time to clean up her face, so she ran out.

At noon, Tang Jiahui took her mother to a restaurant near the school for dinner. Neither of them had an appetite. Tang Jiahui was imagining the scene where her mother would see Daozhi. It was really unimaginably embarrassing. Her mother also She was thinking about what Michi would become, but she couldn't accept Michi's new role.

"Mother is here and wants to see you."Tang Jiahui sent a message

"See you at home!"Daozhi didn't treat his mother as an outsider, so he allowed her to come to the house.

"At home?"Tang Jiahui

"Is it possible to escape?"Dao Zhi.

The two of them had nothing to eat, and then Tang Jiahui took her mother to Dao's house. As soon as she entered the room, her mother began to look at it. It was empty and simple, without any decoration, no furniture, white walls and so on. None. Mother walked directly into the study. She still liked books. She looked at every corner carefully and flipped through his things, his books, his poems, and his novels.

"Mother, don't mess around with other people's things."Tang Jiahui

"other people?"The mother continued to look through his clothes, with a look of disappointment on her face.

When Daozhi came back in the afternoon, the room was especially quiet.

"Jiahui, go out for a walk."Mother

"No, why should I go out? This is my business and I have the right to participate."Tang Jiahui

"Then come to my study and sit for a while."Tao Zhi.

Tang Jiahui entered the study helplessly. When he closed the door, he deliberately left a gap. From a certain angle, they could be seen through the gap.

There was no sound outside. Tang Jiahui was restless and stared at them from the crack in the door. The two of them Sitting face to face, you can see Daozhi's back and mother's front. This is not like a meeting between a teacher and a parent, but like a tryst between a mother and her lover. Mother looks particularly old in front of Daozhi, and all the troubles in life are written On his face, Daozhi always maintains his appearance, and his ups and downs remain in his heart.

"How have you been these past few years?"Daozhi's simple greetings as an old friend.

"And you?"Mother

"Studying and working, I have been busy."Daozhi

"So quite fulfilling."Mother

"fine."Daozhi.

It was quiet again. No one was willing to bring up the matter of Tang Jiahui first. Finally, the mother couldn't help it anymore:

"Why Jiahui?"

Tang Jiahui noticed that although her mother's tone was excited, her eyes were affectionate.

Daozhi understood her mood, but it was no longer high school. Maybe some shadows lingered, but times had changed. Daozhi did not answer directly:

"It is not a unilateral decision for two people to be together. It can be decided unilaterally for two people to be apart. You should understand that."

"Do you still blame me?"Mother

"Don’t get me wrong, I’ve almost forgotten all the things that didn’t make sense in the past."Daozhi

"Forgot everything? Nothing worth remembering? worth treasuring? worth having? Does it really mean nothing to you?"My mother seemed a little gloomy.

"It's all over."Daozhi.

To block the past, the purpose of Daozhi letting his mother come to the house is to let her understand that there is no trace of the past in her life, from high school to college, no matter what the reason, the past has gone with the wind..My mother felt that he had changed. He was not as sharp as he was back then. On the contrary, he was completely restrained and knew how to hide it. However, he could express his meaning in any way. He was more mature and sophisticated. He only focused on doing things. He is happy with the things in front of him and even the things in the future. If he doesn’t want to look back, he may not have time to look back. He has done everything with his heart, so there is nothing to regret and nothing to be nostalgic about. Think about yourself, have you been in such a mess all these years? Struggling in pain in life, how about forgetting the pain caused by these lives, the most beautiful memories are actually the memories of high school, those are still beautiful poems written by Tao Zhi, but they have no meaning to him Everything became dust along the way, falling on the road he walked. As time passed, the longer the road he walked, the more poems he wrote, and the past became less important.

He did not want to live an ordinary life, He is not an ordinary person, but he has an ordinary heart, so ordinary that sometimes he makes others jealous or even hate him.

"I knew our meeting would be a little awkward, and I didn’t know why I came. I came to see you. When I saw your photo and learned of your whereabouts, I immediately booked the first flight."Mother

"No need for this."Daozhi

"Mother."Tang Jiahui came out and sat next to Daozhi.

"When you are with Tang Jiahui, you will meet sooner or later. You can object or obstruct it, but you cannot escape."Daozhi

"Do you know who her father is?"Mother

"Know."Daozhi

"Are you planning to marry Jiahui?"Mother

"Yes, if she is willing, of course you can't stop her."Dao Zhi turned around and glanced at Tang Jiahui. Tang Jiahui shook the ring on her hand in front of her mother.

Her mother's eyes suddenly became wet. She couldn't control her emotions and completely lost her composure. Maybe it was the regret that she was too rash and didn't cherish it. , maybe it was the sadness that she owed her daughter to repay, maybe it was the helplessness that she couldn't accept this unfair relationship, maybe it was the helplessness that she was unable to change everything in front of her, in short, she felt very uncomfortable, she couldn't bear it in her heart, and she collapsed. I can't stay here any longer

"You can't be together."After the mother finished speaking, she turned and left.

Deep in her heart, the mother still retained her original feelings for Daozhi and loved him. Daozhi was a good person, affectionate and righteous, and valued love and righteousness. But she felt that her daughter and Daozhi They are not the same kind of people. Her daughter is too young and will not get the sense of security she deserves. The mother knows that if she insists on objecting, Daozhi will not force her daughter to get married, but she has never been able to decide too many things.

Daozhi She didn't move, feeling that she had not had a good life in the past few years.

The role of parents is to let their children learn to choose the path, not to help them choose. After all, you need to walk your own path. Only you know the hardships and ups and downs, and only you know the results. Bear it.

For the mother, all this is no longer a choice. Many paths were wrong because of her ignorance at the time, and many were wrong because she did not persist. Everyone has limited abilities and limited wisdom. Limited abilities and wisdom are limited. The road under her feet sometimes even leads her to a point where she has no way to go. Now she admires Daozhi's grandfather more and more for having such wisdom.

"Mom, why?"Tang Jiahui chased him out

"He and your mother used to be together, but now he can't be with you."My mother's opposition was not as firm as it was at first. It seemed like a formal reason for opposition.

"You are so stubborn and the right person should not be lost."Tang Jiahui did not understand her mother's helplessness.

"I believe your grandparents would not agree, you are still young."In fact, this was the main reason for her mother's objection.

Tang Jiahui did not ask further. After all, she was her mother, and she had the right to object.

Not long after, grandma called, and she could clearly feel the anger on the other end of the phone:"Make us angry. Why is he dead? Why are you and your mother so bad? You can never be together unless I die."

My mother told my grandparents about this, knowing that I would have to face them sooner or later, and sooner than later might be better.