Knight of the Blue Lagoon (The Past of Tao v)

11. The truth (The Past of Tao i)

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Many people are hiding something. Low-key means concealment, and lies are even more concealment. The reasons are various and the methods are various. Some are covering up other things with some things, and some are artificial cover-ups due to some reasons that they do not want to disclose. The truth is the truth, no matter how deep it is hidden or how long it lasts, it will never disappear. I don’t know when or where it will still come out. Reality in this era is sometimes a burden. In order to live, one usually chooses to abandon it. The farther away it is and the longer it takes, the more accustomed it becomes. At this time, the world changes more and becomes more illusory. In fact, the truth has also abandoned me, I have changed, I no longer live for myself, the sad thing is that I don't know it. It is best not to cover up the first time. If there is a first time, there will be a second time, and a third time... As time goes by, it will be like being possessed. On the one hand, there is a certain desire, but on the other hand, there is no way to escape the final consequences. It is much more difficult for a person to change from a bad character to a good person than from a good character to a bad person.

The truth will not disappear. It is hidden for a while. Even if you want to hide it forever, no one can do it. This is something that you cannot change. When you are discovered accidentally, you will know how cruel the truth is.

"Study committee member, that shameless, despicable guy, disgusting person, also wants to pursue you?"Tang Jiahui said with disdain.

The mother looked into Tang Jiahui's eyes and heard the disgust and even hatred in her words. The mother felt guilty, self-blame, regretful, and more importantly, distressed.

The mother knew that she had let her daughter down in the past few years. Being able to give your daughter a warm home may even hurt your daughter. Although some facts are difficult to reveal to your daughter, now that she has grown up, she cannot hide it any longer. Her daughter will have her own love and her own feelings. In life, as a mother, she may not have much capital to give her any good advice. She can only truly tell her daughter about her painful emotional experiences, hoping that she will have a sincere relationship in the future. The mother poured another glass of wine and drank it in one gulp. , mustered up the courage and decided to face her daughter honestly. This was a rare and honest night.

"This study committee member, the study committee member is your father."The mother paid attention to the change in her daughter's expression and carefully told a cruel fact.

"What? how come? How could it be him?"Tang Jiahui was shocked, disillusioned, lost, and helpless. Her initial curiosity and interest had completely changed. She changed from an outsider to an insider. This was no longer just her mother's story, but her life experience. Disgust, hatred... The most uncomfortable thing is that those things and people she hates can no longer stay away from it. Tang Jiahui never thought that such a person would have an inseparable relationship with herself, and the same blood was still flowing in her body. Suddenly, there was a sinking feeling. The feeling of falling into the abyss.

Like the Buddhist words of suffering, hatred and resentment, love and separation, it is a perfect way to describe herself and her mother.

Tang Jiahui stood up, walked to the window, opened the curtains, and stared at the dark night. The sky of the city was enveloped in the middle of the night. In the darkness, her eyes gradually became lower and darker, and the dots of light on the ground in the distance looked particularly tired and helpless, struggling for their last breath. She thought of the squad leader, and was gradually swallowed up by the endless darkness. She was disheartened. , another picture suddenly flashed up. There was a person standing under the street lamp. She looked carefully but could not see clearly. She thought of the teacher again. She remembered that the teacher said that when something involves herself, her own criteria for judging these things are It will change quietly. Emotion is a wonderful thing. It can change the understanding of reality, but it cannot be mistaken.

Seeing her daughter's reaction, the mother was heartbroken. She walked to the window and put a coat on her daughter. Her daughter's body twitched. For a moment

"How could you marry him?"Tang Jiahui said desperately, without looking back, staring out the window intently.

"After the monitor left, your father became the protagonist in the class. He began to chase me fiercely. He would wait for me at the door after class every day and have dinner together. Other students would consciously walk away when they saw me with him. He would go out of his way to study quietly in the evening. He sat next to me and patiently explained to me questions I didn’t understand. He also gave me things every now and then. He gave so many things that I don’t even remember them. Do you remember that Sony CD player from that time? It was a birthday gift your father gave me in my senior year of high school. It was a very fashionable thing at the time. His father asked someone to buy it in Hong Kong. It was amazing to be able to use this thing at that time, although it has been eliminated by the times now. , even if it’s from Hong Kong, it’s nothing. During the college entrance examination, he gave me a Motorola mobile phone. He also had one. You may have never heard of this brand now, but it was the best at that time. Not many people in the class had mobile phones at that time. Later, the mobile phone was lost, Motorola also disappeared, the CD player was broken when you were young, and Sony disappeared. Your father was very angry, but I didn’t care and didn’t repair it."

"But why do you just accept him? Forgot the monitor so quickly?"Tang Jiahui still can't accept this fact.

"I refused at first. I could never forget the squad leader and asked him not to give it away. He worked hard to get it. As time went by, my heart gradually softened. Besides, the squad leader has always been by my side, and I’m not used to it now that I suddenly don’t have a boyfriend. Although he’s not as good as the squad leader in every aspect, but the squad leader left, and his performance in the class was relatively the best. Later, your father caught up with me. It gets crazier and crazier, and slowly it becomes unstoppable, and they are together."Mother

"Don’t you know that study committee members are like this?"

"He was very nice to me at the time and I couldn't see clearly. I only found out about those dirty tricks when I was about to leave college. By the time I found out, it was already too late."Mother

"Why is it too late?"Tang Jiahui was very puzzled.

"After the college entrance examination, our tense nerves suddenly relaxed. At that time, we only found out the results after filling in the school application. The results had not yet come down, and waiting was another kind of suffering. He suggested that we go on a trip and drive a Toyota car owned by his family. At that time, it was rare for students to drive and it was very attractive to girls. Not long after returning from the trip, I found out that I was pregnant. Your grandpa and grandma were very angry. After all, I haven’t gone to college yet. I wanted to abort it, but the study committee member disagreed. His parents, your grandparents, were very happy and came to see you at home. Grandpa and grandma, after all, his father is a big business boss, generous and eloquent. After chatting with your grandpa and grandma for a while, your grandpa and grandma said nothing more. It’s just that I was under 20 years old at the time, and your father was under 21 years old and could not register. After discussion, we decided to hold the wedding first and wait until the age of marriage to apply for a new marriage certificate. Your grandpa and grandma received generous betrothal gifts and held a grand wedding based on your grandparents' connections before going to college. Your grandpa and grandma were very satisfied with the wedding. After all, their family's conditions were much better and they were well-known in the local area. people."Mother

"What about your university?"Tang Jiahui

"Finally, the college entrance examination results came in. I was not admitted to my first choice, and my second choice was a very ordinary school. My grandparents accompanied me to the school to register. I attended school for a few months, but when I became pregnant, I took a leave of absence on the grounds of illness. I will go to college after giving birth to you. Your father is older in the class, he focuses on stability, and got into his first choice school, but it wasn't a very good school either. During the time when you were about to be born, your grandfather and grandmother came to our house almost every week and brought all kinds of supplements. Your father also came back once a month. Soon after you were born, the attitude of your grandparents gradually became cold, and you have been staying with your grandparents."Mother

"I wasn’t your planned child?"Tang Jiahui

"Not in my plan, but your father's plan."Mother

"The year after you were born, I was a sophomore and your father was a junior. I was 21 years old at the time, and your father was over 22 and could apply for a marriage certificate. But your father started to shirk it, saying that he would wait until he finished college to apply for a marriage certificate. The reason is that getting married in the university will affect the work of the student union. He became the leader of the student union. Your father's family respected being an official. Now he finally became such a big official. I didn't force him. After graduating from college, your father found various excuses. We would start arguing for no reason when we met and couldn't even say a few words. You were three years old at that time. You needed a household registration book to go to kindergarten and a marriage certificate to settle down. Later, your grandparents It was my responsibility that you went to a private kindergarten, and then they transferred your household registration to our family through connections."