Will of chaos

I just felt alone, for I don't know how long, I couldn't feel anything, I couldn't see anything, I couldn't think about anything and I couldn't even recognize my own existence.

All there was a feeling of incompleteness like something was missing, this feeling was getting stronger and stronger until it overshadowed the other feelings completely.

As all that existed for me was this feeling for an unknown period of time, I was able to recognize its origin and thereby understand what I am, gradually returning my other emotions, senses, and my mind.

When my senses returned, I was in a room where only a large bed exists, along with a painting of a man on his back, in front of the man countless creatures struggling in the shadows trying to reach him, the painting was lived as if it were coming to life anytime.

Apart from the painting and the bed, there was also a veranda on the side with a large arched door revealing the image of Suns and Plants from an unknown universe.

"You regained consciousness faster than I expected, my child." (Goddess Selene)

"..." (I)

I turn to the bed I was on before and notice the most beautiful woman I've ever seen lying in bed, but unlike other occasions where she was always glorious and powerful, this time she was weak and exhausted.

"... ... ..." (I)

"..." (I)

"?????!?" (I)

"Don't try to speak, the sync has just started, it will take a while before you regain all your functions and power." (Goddess Selene)

"(But I can still think, I'm sure a Goddess like you can see inside my mind.)" (I)

"Yes I can, I also understand your feeling of concern to see my condition but don't worry, I'll be fine in no time." (Goddess Selene)

As she spoke I noticed a formless energy accumulating in this room, I instinctively felt that this energy came from countless mixed presences and the Goddess Selene was absorbing this energy.

This energy coming from these countless presences had an inconceivable number of emotions and intensity, it felt pure beyond anything I had ever felt before.

"This is the power of Faith, this sustains the power, Authority, and existence of a God." (Goddess Selene)

"I'm surprised you're able to see that, maybe it's because of my lineage." (Goddess Selene)

"(But this energy comes...)" (I)

"This energy comes from many sources, it comes from those who worship me, it comes from those who fear me, it comes from those who have strong feelings for their respective bloodlines who are within the realm of my Authority, and so on." (Goddess Selene)

"Faith has many origins and forms, every conscious being has Faith in something, a child has Faith in his parents." (Goddess Selene)

"A Merchant has Faith in money." (Goddess Selene)

"A Warrior has Faith in his strength, a Priest has Faith in his God, A Soldier has Faith in his General during a war." (Goddess Selene)

"The people of any Kingdom have Faith in their King, there are even people who have Faith in dreams that may never come true." (Goddess Selene)

"Even fear can be considered Faith that something bad will happen, the same can be had of all good and bad feelings." (Goddess Selene)

"Faith is always the spark created by one person's will to something, even if you have Faith in those following you and they have Faith in you." (Goddess Selene)

"A God uses his Divinity, the symbol of his Authority, to absorb the power contained in that Faith which is bound to ourselves or our Authority." (Goddess Selene)

If what the Goddess Selene says is true, then her Authority is her blood, all beings with a lineage regardless of whether they are devoted to her or not, are giving power to her.

I look at her noticing that the weariness and weakness that were apparent before are becoming less apparent as they disappear.

"(Why did you bring me here if you're so weak?)" (I)

"For you will finally awaken all the power in your lineage with your body and Soul synchronizing." (Goddess Selene)

"(When I reached Trinity with Nature, did I think I already did that?)" (I)

"What you achieved in that moment was the harmony of your body, mind, and soul, something can be in harmony with something else even apart." (Goddess Selene)

"You are still an Outsider because your memories and feelings from your previous life make it difficult for your Soul to synchronize with a different body, the greater this difference, the worse it will be." (Goddess Selene)

"(I've heard about it, that's why Outsiders are usually feared when they are born as monsters.)" (I)

"Yes, take you as an example, when you were born as a Leech, you didn't even have humanoid form, you had to learn to move, fight, and many other things that your mind couldn't understand at first." (Goddess Selene)

"His Human mind was fighting everything his monster instincts told him, that contradiction can drive a mind insane." (Goddess Selene)

"(As in my case, I know I'm not the same as when I was born, I killed, devoured others, tortured people, and stole.)" (I)

"(I even used Souls of bad people I killed to create monsters, I accepted my madness a long time ago.)" (I)

"But not everyone has an open mind, some try to deny who they have become, which makes their situations worse by preventing a synchrony between the Soul and the body during their evolutions." (Goddess Selene)

"In your case, it was a little different, my interference was one of the factors that prevented you so far from fully synchronizing your body and Soul, but the other reason was the various damages your Soul suffered from the reckless things you did." (Goddess Selene)

"What you felt earlier was these two pieces trying to connect for real, this should have taken longer, but you were faster than I expected in subconsciously finding how to do this." (Goddess Selene)

So that state was my Soul and body synchronizing.

As we speak the Goddess Selene recovers more and more until she looks the same gorgeous as when I first met her, then she rises to stand in front of me.

"With the sync taking place, I will use your unique ability to transform all of your bloodlines into 1 single bloodline while your body is being rebuilt by evolution." (Goddess Selene)

"!!!!!" (I)

The Goddess reaches out her hand and I feel like something is sucked out of me, a screaming pain courses through everything I am and some things start to come out.

First came out various types of red glows that took the form of a Dragon, the form of the Goddess Selene, and my form.

Soon I feel something else being pulled out, then a yellow light comes out from inside and becomes a kind of transparent bubble where red lights with different shapes enter.

A whirlwind of energies swirling inside the bubble before a single red energy rushes out and enters me followed by the bubble reverting back to its yellow light form, then the pain stops as I feel tiredness steal my awareness again.

"Be well my child, for times have become hard." (Goddess Selene)

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