Villain of my own novel

"This....! Haa..." I sighed, waved my hand and dismissed the notification pop up.

I looked up at the night sky as a cold breeze blew around me, perhaps because of the strong mana around me, the sky looked simply breath-taking, stars were visible, and the crescent moon complimented each other.....

"..... 'Strong' mana?" I mumbled and furrowed my brows at the night sky.

"What's....? Huh? Why is mana so strong around here?" Isha asked in a suspicious tone.

BOOOOOUUUUUUNNNNNNGGGGGHH

A strange sound erupted from nowhere, and ripples appeared in the night sky, pushing the clouds aside.

"Gaaa!!" I screamed in agony as sharp pangs ripped through my body and ripples formed on my skin.

Each ripple was a light blue wave that revealed my other form, my hands began to crystallize, and the air around me chilled, turning visibly white while causing ripples all around from my body. The light blue gradually began to turn pale pink and continued to do so until it became bright neon pink, causing the ripples to become stronger.

DING

[SYSTEM INFLUENCE INCREASED BY 10.]

[SYSTEM INFLUENCE IS: 55.]

[NEW!]

[MANA DENSITY INCREASED!]

[MONSTER'S [LEVEL] INCREASE BY 2.]

Then they abruptly stopped, and ripples moved back into my body in reverse, causing pain beyond my ability to express.

"Gaa, God.... Dammit... I was.... proud of... my pain tolerance... It hurts!" I screamed in pain amid groaning, panting and sweating.

I gritted my teeth and closed my eyes to deal with the pain, but it only got worse with each passing millisecond, and the pain suddenly doubled.

"Guh..." I screamed but no sound came out, I felt everything hurt, and I noticed I was covered in something golden, like gold flames, and the golden hue was mixed with something pitch black, but neither the golden hue nor the pitch black lost its colour.

The source of the golden hue gradually faded into the pitch black that was the last thing I saw before passing out.

***

Isha grabbed Eshwar's hand as soon as he screamed, noticed his body spasming more by the second, and slowly light blue ripples appeared on his body and showed other his form which she saw in her memory which she considered to be lost.

She became concerned and released her black mana to shield them from the gaze of the others, while tightly gripping his hand but his hands were wide open due to the pain he was feeling, which hurt her because she couldn't do anything but hope for the best. She also noticed that the ripples that were on his body before, began to form from his body.

Ripples, too, began to increase by the second, gradually turning from pale to bright neon pink, then abruptly stopped and seeped back into his body, suddenly lighting him in a neon pink flame that instantly turned golden.

'This!' Isha thought as her lost memories began to flash in her head like images, Isha's feelings and thoughts became imprinted in her mind and body. She recalled her love for the crystallised being and his cold yet warm emotions, her magical manipulation techniques, her hatred for humans, her magical strength, her flow of divinity, her revulsion for divine beings, and finally the agony of losing her only hope and love right in front of her.

"Aaa!!" she held her head and screamed, from all the emotions she suddenly remembered, those emotions broke her more than they helped, because her 'past' life hadn't been any different from this life, as everyone only wanted to use her for their own purposes, and all the lies of love the people around her showered her with, including her own parents.

Her hatred for humanity grew with each day she spent in her father's palace who was a 'Marquis,' and the lust in the eyes of the servants who served in her mansion, and the lust in the eyes of the King as her father tried to sell her to the crown in the name of making her the 'Empress.' All the truth her 'eyes' revealed were far worse than she could accept.

Her last day in the mansion and her pet who was also a maid, the maid had long white hair, bright blue eyes, and pale skin with soft curves, and the same woman who assisted her in fleeing the mansion and dying in the process. Her agony while dying, which she shared with Isha because of their bond. She remembered everything, and they only broke her more and more, to the point where her losses drove her insane.

After her losses, she ignored contact with humans and concentrated solely on her magical research, eventually becoming a God after meeting Eshwar, whom she loved and received love from the bottom of their hearts, and her hatred for divine beings who betrayed her after becoming the most powerful and true Gods, by killing her loved one.

All of her emotions, thoughts, and memories tore her apart, but they also made her stronger as she remembered her promise and the curse she inflicted on them.

"This is divinity?" She mumbled in the midst of her headache, which was turning into lightheaded, back and forth from one second to the next.

'Did his body retain divinity during the final movement after the descent of the six heavenly pillars?' 'She wondered as his divinity slowly began to cruise into her body.

"Huh?" She observed her body healing and storing divinity around her heart. She felt light after the divinity healed all of the stress she had accumulated in her life and all of the damage in her body that couldn't be healed.

WHOOSH

Suddenly, Eshwar's body released his pitch-black killing intent, clashing with the divinity in his body and slowly becoming the source of the divinity.

'.... His pain, anger and loathe is fuelling his divinity?' she stared at the phenomenon take place in awe and disbelief.

"..... Maybe just like the divinity, only his other form and soul remembers his anger at the divine beings." She mumbled.

"Guh...." Eshwar screamed for the last time before losing consciousness, but the killing intent his body released was increasing more by the passing second.

'Yes! Take me sector one, please!' she suddenly remembered his request which he made while he was in pain.

She remembered the moment they were about to kiss as well, but she knew that now was not the time to be flustered, so she lifted him like a princess and dashed towards sector two because she knew that if she didn't gain control of the divinity that rested around her heart by tomorrow, she would die, and the same was true for Eshwar, but his body had already taken control of the divinity in some way.

"I know it's not the right time, but I can't help but be flustered...." she mumbled with a flushed face while dashing towards the Switch academy to get his bike.