The Extra's Indifference

I woke up with great pain in my head like elephants trampled my head over and over again.

I opened my eyes with great difficulty and looked around.

It was dark, but i could tell with one glance that this wasn't my room.

My heartbeat quickened for a moment but returned to normal, i calmed down quickly.

I found this odd. I am rather a calm person but that wasn't something to be calm about it.

I threw my questions to the back of my mind and walked window.

I looked outside the house, but i didn't see any clue about where i am. Hence i sighed and looked at the sky. There were 2 moons. One of them was crystal blue, while the other one was blood red

My mind went blank for a moment. After that, I made some assumptions about where i am.

•some crazy scientists kidnapped me and put me in some VR like machine

•i got drugged

• I got brain damage and i am seeing imaginary things.

• I somehow transported to another world

After some thought, i eliminated the first 2 options because why the fuck would some crazy scientist kidnap me.

Getting drugged first seemed plausible but there weren't any drugs that causes one to see imaginary things without hindering the mind and thought process.

The brain damage option was highly likely because my head hurts like hell.

The last option only happens in novels but a man can hope, right? Who wouldn't wants to use magic and a sword. I too wanted it, but for some reason, my desire just now disappeared as the pain in my head disappeared.

When the pain disappeared, i started to notice more irregular things.

I was shorter and my hands were smaller. My hair was longer than before, falling to my shoulder and my eyes were clearer. I touched my face, it was soft like that of a child.

'Hmm, i don't know why but i am in some child's body. VR option seems plausible right now but the isekai option too seems possible. I am in someone's body, so maybe i can access this body's memories?'

With that thought, i tried to reach this body's memories. After 5 minutes of concentration, i found some memories about this body.

This child's name is Kayle Ceurie, the adopted son of Count Ceurie.

Kayle had the greatest talent that Count Ceurie had seen so far. So he adopted him to make him a family asset.

But Count didn't know that Kayle wasn't like normal children. Kayle didn't have any emotions and this forced Kayle to make only rational decisions.

Kayle knew he was different from anyone and this could bring him trouble. So he acted like children of his age.

While recalling Kayle's memories i remembered a novel that i read. Though i didn't even remember the novel's title, i remembered the storyline vaguely.

In the novel, there were magical races, mana monsters, Gods, Devils and many more. There are many mana artifacts, mana technologies and teleportation circles in all cities, in other words, this world is heavily relied upon by mana because of the excessive use of mana. This world will experience a full-blown apocalypse.

Anyway, if i wanted to explain the novel with 3 words they would be:

[Tragedy, Dark, Apocalypse]

And for some reason, i was in this novel's world.

If i was some random mob i would be fucked, but i am the protagonist's overpowered but apathetic childhood friend from orphanage days.

In the novel, we saw this through the protagonist's perspective.

Hywel(protagonist) has special eyes. Eyes that see the soul of the person.

Souls are a person's true personality if you understand one's soul you can understand their basic principles and personality.

But When Hywel saw Kayle's soul first time he was shocked to the core. Kayle's soul was perfect with no mistakes and grey which means fully neutral. A perfect neutral soul was close to impossible but something was missing. Kayle's soul didn't have his uniqueness, and this interested Hywel and became friends.

Hywel figured out what was missing from Kayle after 1 month of observation. He concluded that Kayle can't feel emotions, desire and pain.

Hywel could tell that Kayle was acting like a normal child but didn't say anything.

After his conclusion, Hywel had been adopted by a duke family and didn't see Kayle until when he was in his 3rd year of the academy.

Hywel at first didn't remember Kayle, because Kayle was too different from his childhood phase. He was a cute child back then but now became a beautiful young man with a face that did not even show an ounce of emotions, like that of a doll.

Hywel figured out that this man was his childhood friend when he looked over this man's soul.

Although a little bit different, that was Kayle's soul. The different thing was Kayle's soul had cracks all over which translated to Hywel that Kayle was still the same but there was one desire that started to form. Kayle desires to die to relive his life of boredom.

Kayle would normally kill himself but there was his intuition telling him that if he waited for a little more it will be worth it.

So he waited and something happened in his 3rd year when his sister was attacked by a mana creature in a practical exam. It was [A] rank mana monster that shouldn't be in the exam location, even Kayle can't handle it by himself, but strangely Kayle's body reacted without thinking and shielded her body while casting spells to slow down the monster.

The rescue team was made up with 5th years and they weren't professional. Just a bunch of senior students and because of that, they were too late.

Hywel, who was in the rescue team saw a dead [A] rank mana monster and a girl crying over the dying Kayle. Hywel looked at his soul and figured out that Kayle will die no matter what, Kayle used up his soul essence, which was important for a soul to exist.

Hywel walked over to Kayle and asked.

"Why did you even use your soul essence?" Hywel was confused but mostly curious.

"I don't know why. I felt like i needed to use it, so i used it?" Kayle said with a satisfied smile.

Hywel one more time glanced at his soul and what Hywel saw shocked him to the core. Through the cracks of his soul, there was a blinding light.

"I don't know what i am feeling right now because that is new to me but i can tell that it is probably satisfaction. I want to speak with my sister, so can you leave us alone?" said Kayle with a kind smile while looking at Lucy

5 minutes after Hywel's leave, Lucy came with looks like that of Kayle. Lucy's black hair turned to full white, and purple eyes became crystal blue eyes.

Hywel was shocked and quickly looked at Lucy's soul and sighed with relief. Lucy didn't possess or get Kayle's curse, just his talent with magic and his near-perfect genetics.

***

After recalling Kayle's life from Hywel's eyes, i can tell that my and Kayle's souls merged because Kayle's soul made him apathetic not his body.

My emotions feel reduced by around 95%.

What i have to do was pretty simple actually.

I will be Kayle Ceurie and work hard to not be killed in the full-blown apocalypse.

Right now i am 10 years, Kayle was adopted by Count 2 years ago and i have [S] rank mana breathing technique that Count himself gave to Kayle. If i use this technique until the academy time, i can reach to 5th circle mage but i found this insufficient.

In this world, you can be extremely strong with just muscle training even without being a knight. Knights can further enhance their muscles with mana.

I am Kayle right now and my genetics are extremely good and i can become extremely strong if i train my body.

So if i don't learn any weapon, that would be a sin. Thus i will train my body and learn a dagger technique.

I sat down in the lotus position, and with a deep breath i tried to feel my mana circle.

After 15 minutes i found out that i am just 2nd circle mage. There was a sufficient amount of mana for the [Mana body] technique that i knew from the novel. Though i need to adapt to my new body so this technique will wait for a day.

With that, i threw my thoughts about my mysterious transmigration and future to the back of my mind and went to my bed.

When i lay down on the bed, i felt something under the blanket. I lifted the blanket and found a little girl around my age.

The little girl was my step-sister, Lucy Ceurie.

Why was Lucy sleeping in my bed, i didn't know and i didn't care either. So i did what loving brothers do. I hugged Lucy to my chest and closed my eyes to sleep.

***

I woke up suddenly because someone caressed my cheek.

I opened my eyes and saw Lucy staring at me with an embarrassed look.

I hugged her close to my chest, rub her head and said in a sleepy voice:

"Good morning my Lucy. Did you sleep well?"

"I slept well brother but why are you hugging me?" murmured Lucy with red face.

"If my precious sister doesn't want my hug i can release her." i said.

"No no no no." Lucy shook her head and said:

"Brother didn't hug me before, so i got embarrassed."

"Hahaha, i didn't know that my Lucy likes hugs. That's so cute that i want to spoil you more."

After i said that i kissed her forehead which made her red like a tomato.

"Although i want to spoil you more, we have to go dining room before 8 a.m or else father will be angry." i said and went to change my clothes.

While i changing my clothes, Lucy peeked at me.

I could tell with one glance that Lucy got a crush on me. Though i didn't know why she had a crush on me.

'Does she not know her feelings? That is possible she is just 10 years old, but that is good for me. In the novel even before Kayle's death, she was a great talent. I can use her.'

"Come on Lucy don't stand here." I said and went to the dining room.

After i walked through the door, i switched my walking style to that of a noble walking style and walked to Count Ceurie.

"Good morning Lord Father" i said with respect in my voice and bowed, which he just nodded at me.

I sat down and started to eat my food while thinking.

Count Ceurie is a tall man with black hair, purple eyes and an average but cold face. 7th circle mage and specializes in information magic. If he found my gestures different from the original Kayle and cast special information magic he can easily figure out that i am not the original Kayle.

So i worked harder to be like the original Kayle. Fortunately, Count didn't notice anything.

After breakfast, i went to the library for more information about this world. Although i read the novel, there wasn't any detailed information on magic and ranks.

After reading for hours i got the important information.

1st to 4th circle/crystal Apprentice Mage/Knight/Assasin etc.

5th to 7th circle/crystal Adept Mage/Knight/Assasin etc.

8th circle/crystal Master Mage/Knight/Assasin etc.

9th circle/crystal Archmage/Grandmaster Knight/Grandmaster Assasin etc.

Every circle/crystal is divided into; low, middle and high rank

Not everyone can become a mage. You must have at least one affinity. But everyone except mages can be a knight.

Mana is a neutral matter that everything has. When a mage gathers ambient(neutral) mana to make a mana circle, ambient mana would get characteristics of the mage. Every mage's mana is like their fingerprints, they are unique.

When other than ambient mana interact with someone's natural mana in their's body (even their mana), they would get mana poisoning which makes them feel torturous pain.

Mages makes circle with special techniques or gadgets because when the mana enters the body of the mage via the skin of the mage, the mana would interact with the body's natural mana and becomes poisonous.

Knights makes mana crystal with ambient mana into their body. Knights can manipulate neutral mana that they stored their crystals in their bodies to gain temporary strength.

Affinity grades go like: none, low, medium high, grand, superior, supreme

Affinities are extremely important. Every mage normally can cast spells from every element but it's extremely inefficient. When low-grade fire affinity user cast a fireball they would use 100 unit mana, but if the non-affinity user tries to cast the same fireball they would use a minimum of 5000 unit mana.

Affinities are blessing and curse. High affinity means a high aptitude for said element. But a mage's highest tier affinity will undoubtedly affect their personality, small or big.

After reading some general knowledge i understood that even with my dull pain receptors i can't withstand the pain from mana poisoning for a long time. This means i have to practice the [Mana body] technique for a minimum of 10 days. Though it's okay because the original practitioner of this technique did it for 1,5 years.

With my reading time is over, I went out to exercise.

I ran 3 laps around of mansion and did some push up, squats etc. I didn't know too many exercise moves so i did what i knew. After i am done, i went back to my room and took bath.

When i got out of the bathroom, i found Lucy laying on my bed reading a book.

"Will you sleep here, Lucy? " When i asked this, Lucy turned to me. When she saw me in a bathrobe blushed furiously.

"If brother allows it, yes..." Lucy said quietly.

"Hahahaha you can sleep here whenever you want, but my precious Lucy shouldn't tell anything about what she sees in this room, okay?" I said with a smile which she smiled and nodded several times.

With that, i can practice without worrying and pampering Lucy to be dependent on me.

If i remembered correctly Lucy's mother died when she was just a baby, so she didn't get any affection from her mother. Her father is a cold man, so he too didn't give her affection.

So if i pamper her and became more affectionate to her, she will loyal to me unconditionally.

After some thought about Lucy's past, i sat down on my bed in a lotus position.

I poured mana into my body with the intention of mana poisoning myself. My purpose for poisoning myself was to get resistance to my mana, in the long run, immunity.

Mana poisoning isn't deadly but painful enough to make people mad. Average mages can't stand for 2 minutes and usually kill themself to relieve pain.

Even though my pain receptors dulled about 95%, it hurt like hell. If i can endure mana poisoning for 4 hours my work will be done in 10 days. 'mana body' technique is the easiest technique but the practitioner must be immune to his mana and that requires lots of mental strength.

After 2 hours i decided to take a break. I opened my eyes and found Lucy sleeping on my thigh.

'Why is she sleeping on my thigh when there's a pillow right here? Did she say something when i was concentrating?' I thought and picked up Lucy and put her to bed properly, pulling a blanket over her.

After 15 minutes of rest, i started to poison myself again. After 2 hours of poisoning myself i decided that is enough for today. I got little resistance to my mana.

I relaxed my body and opened my eyes. It was midnight and i was sleepy. My body was that of a child, so i needed more sleep for this growing body.

I crawled to Lucy's side and got in the blanket.

I hugged Lucy to my chest, kissed her forehead and slept.