My Youth Began With Him

Translator: Noodletown Translations Editor: Noodletown Translations

Rick remained silent but seemed to have acknowledged the fact…

"I think you're very similar to our Qin Chu… He'd rather accept everything as his own fate while wanting the best for the ones he loves… Rick, think about it. Do you think Xixi has been truly happy over the past three years without you? Do you think what's best for her in your opinion is really the best to her? Don't forget, we are not Xixi. We do not have the right to decide her life for her…"

Rick remained silent.

He understood what Huo Mian meant.

"I just have something I want to say to you as a friend…"

"Please." Rick looked up at Huo Mian, his eyes carrying a hint of sadness.

"Although love is not the most important thing in your life, it is something that will leave you with regret… When you're old and think about your friends and family, you'd know that you did the best for them. However, you would also think about how you gave up on love and know you won't have another chance at it…"

"I know but it's just that my situation right now…" Rick seemed tired and hopeless.

"I understand the position you are in now… Before, when Qin Chu and I were separated, I felt that love didn't really matter. When I was in university and was dating Ning Zhiyuan, I felt that I could spend my life with whoever… In reality, though, there's a huge difference depending on your choices. If you chose an angel, you'd be living in heaven, but if you chose a devil, you'd be living in hell. If you choose to be with a stranger you don't love, then you will have to be prepared to spend your life with a stranger…"

Rick still remained silent.

"I've said all I wanted to say. I'm saying this because, Rick, I see you and Xixi as my friends…"

"I know."

"I won't force you to make a decision… I know you have your own problems but I think you two really love each other. I think we are similar people and while some people may live blindly in this merciless world, we need love…"

Rick looked down onto the floor…

"Okay, I've really said enough… I'm going up to rest now. I'll leave you alone with your thoughts."

"Good night, my friend."

Rick was really thankful for Huo Mian. Truth be told, right now, Rick didn't have people like her in his life who were capable of telling him stuff like this.

After Huo Mian left, Rick was left in a bad mood…

He poured himself a full glass of whiskey at the bar and walked over to the sofa to drink by himself.

"Godfather… What should we do with the traitors from Auckland?" a subordinate came in and whispered into his ear.

"Kill them all."

Rick gulped the whole glass of whiskey down his throat.

The burning alcohol flowed through his throat and into his stomach, burning the areas it passed through.

Rick however, did not feel the pain as nothing was as painful to him as losing Xixi.

Three years… It had been three years and he had not heard from her. He did not even have the guts to ask his subordinates to gather information on her.

He was so scared that he wouldn't be able to control himself and go find her if he knew her whereabouts.

He was also scared that he might not be able to take it if she was already married and had a child.

He felt relieved when Huo Mian told him that Xixi had returned to China but was not yet married.

Rick didn't know what he was supposed to do if she had really gotten married.

He took out his phone and unlocked it. He opened WeChat and lightly pressed on his favourites tab, revealing countless photos of Xixi…