Loser's redo: Transmigration in a novel

Zick held his chest with a serious look.

'I still feel a little empty inside.'

Zick had everything that a person could want.

Position, money, strength and admiration of many people....

Zick's expression turned stiff thinkin this: 'They admire me? They merely admire my fortune, authority and strength.'

Thinking this, his expression turned cold, a sharp light flashed in his eyes.

His gaze was so serious that it almost felt like it was on fire.

Afterwards, Zick started shaking his head as he sighed: "Everything that happened till now....…merely amounted to this."

Zick felt that the things he had been doing till now were all empty and meaningless. The empty feeling just kept growing.

Zick had been an extremely normal person before he was declared as a criminal.

Even after his personality was broken, Zick still held some moral and bottom lines, but it slowly vanished as he started living in this world. The values of the earth and this world were very different. He himself also wanted to change.

He started to lose his bottom line, he became unscrupulous. Thus, he started to be branded as a dangerous person by the people who investigated his past.

Living a life without much ambition or aspiration started feeling pitiable to Zick. Complex emotions started rising within him.

After a few minutes, all the emotions on Zick's face suddenly vanished.

His lips curled up as he showed a mocking smile. Next, he started to laugh lightly, he sighed deeply as his body relaxed entirely.

' I am actually laughing at myself....' Zick's  had an extremely calm gaze, it swept around the room as his eyes drooped down: "Love and friendship, hesitation and regret, killing and slaughtering, isn't all this very boring?"

Zick spoke in a calm tone to himself. He felt everything turning dull at this point.

With still a calm face, Zick considered what he actually wanted to do in his life.

The most important thing in the world for Zick was oneself. He was very much self centred from the very beginning so this was very normal.

Knowing himself was the first step in finding what he wanted to do. But he knew one thing that he was sure of.

He refused to be ordinary!

Discontented with being ordinary, this was a normal human trait. Zick was the same. Everyone yearned to be extraordinary in any way possible.

'In this aspect, I and the other people are the same type of person.' Zick thought to himself plainly.

Zick thought of the gods who were transcended beings, who's strength he couldn't even begin to imagine. He wanted to attain it....

No, Zick wanted to surpass them. He wanted to pursue eternal life, something that cannot be destroyed and will exist forever.

Eternal life, only this majestic and unattainable target, could make the journey of his life become more interesting.

Whether eternal life existed or not, there was no evidence to prove it. But Zick felt that the process of pursuing eternal life would be a lot more interesting compare how he lived currently.

If he wanted, Zick could live a peaceful life after defeating the demon lord, but that wasn't how he wanted to live his life.

A life like that felt empty to Zick.

Even the dragon lord wasn't able to become an immortal and attain eternal life, it died just like any other being. It just showed how hard it was to achieve it or it might just be impossible.

Dying was a normal process for every living being.

But this just made it all the more interesting.

The empty feeling within Zick vanished and was filled with firm resolution and immense ambition. A smile appeared on his face naturally.

The superficial things such as society and emotions became very clear to him now that he had this goal in his mind. His perception of thing had changed tremendously.

Society was a system created by humans and other species. There are many rules keeping people at check at all times.

People growing in this environment will clearly have a mindset of wanting to protect it. Most of the commoners are educated by their parents to lead a safe life within the protection of the society.

But there are still many people who don't care about the society at all, these kinds of people are rare. Zick still cared about the rules unconsciously because of how the Earth society worked, but now it all became clear. He had escaped from the chains of the society permanently in the psychological level.

The kingdoms and the empires maintain there rule upon the territory so that they could exert their influence to more people. The other nobles are also trying to keep their territory in control at all time for the same reason.

They all try to increase their strength and influence in any way possible.

Now Zick had stopped caring about society, the rules didn't held power in his eyes any more.

People weren't supposed to be ruled by the laws created by the others, instead it was the other way around!

Zick would use the power of the society system if it helped him in attaining eternal life.

Emotions had almost stopped affecting his decision making now, he was very calm and rational right at this instant. He got to know that he was being controlled by his emotions without noticing it before.

Zick could have just acted to be a kind person in front of Varine, this way he could have won her trust over sooner but he didn't do it. By removing her slave seal he might have made her indebted to him.

But Zick didn't do it because he couldn't trust her. This wasn't a matter of trusting her, instead it was how much confidence he had in himself in controlling Varine.

If Varine betrayed him and he lost his influence in the underworld of the eastern continent, so what?

Varine's value in Zick's eyes had risen more than the underworld's now. She could be useful to him in many way even more than the underworld.

Zick couldn't deny that he wanted to take over the underworld because he felt a little greedy for the resources he might find their. But now, Varine interested him more, she would have grandmaster level strength in the future after all! there are only few people who can reach such level!

Zick couldn't let such a valuable person go away. He originally was going to just use her to control the underworlds and nothing else not trusting her, but now he wanted to use her for many more things.

'I have to nurture her first....' Zick was willing to use a little of his time and effort in this.

The value of everything in Zick's eyes started falling tremendously too after he got a goal. He was aware that the current him couldn't do everything perfectly, so he wanted to continue growing and learn more.

If Zick had acted in a sociable way then the ruling forces wouldn't have been threatened like now.

Zick's understanding of the human heart wasn't high, but he could still predict a few things about the people he knew about.

Though now it was a waste of Zick's times and it might even backfire if he tried removing the slave seal from Varine. She already knew that the two slave never left the basement. So she might have already figured out their end.

Varine had adjusted to living in Zick's mansion a little now. Butler Von had also started training her in becoming an assassin. She also read all the books that Zick ordered.

The way Zick currently lived dissatisfied him.

It was not possible for Zick to ask to be extraordinary while leading a comfortable life after all.

Zick started training in his aura now feeling calm. He was now almost fully aware of the type of person he was.

Zick pursued something that other people might disdain over or even label it as impossible. But he didn't care about it.

Even if I can't attain eternal life in the end, so what?

Even if my whole life is a total failure and meaningless, so what?

Regardless!

That is how I can find meaning in my life!

'If I lack even this bit of ambition, what's the point of living? Even if I don't achieve my ambitious and die leaving nothing behind, it doesn't matter. I still want to pursue it!'

The smile on Zick's face was the most brilliant smile he had ever made in his whole life, both on earth and in this world.

Zick lost all interest in roaming the academic city or anything else. He only concentrated on his training.

After a hour, suddenly his instinct started reacting weirdly. He had been trying to learn more about his instinct that came from the dragon heart from a while, so he knew that his instinct wasn't warning him of danger. It was something else.

At that instant, A majestic pillar of light fell from the sky at an unprecedental speed and engulfed the whole central district and areas near it. Zick's mansion was included in it.

Slowly everything vanished in the white light.

'No way, this.....' Zick was shocked at this phenomenon, he couldn't resist the white light at all and was engulfed in it too, slowly vanishing.