Back Then, I Adored You

Translator: Nyoi-Bo Studio  Editor: Nyoi-Bo Studio

Before she could respond to him, Gu Yusheng began talking as if he were telling a story about someone she didn’t know. He said casually, “I never wanted to get married before I met her, and I never wanted to marry anyone else after I met her.”

“I wanted to propose to her before she left me.

“Back then, I could think of only one future—the future with her.

“My only wish was to have a relationship with her. Since the day I met her, I wanted our love to never end.”

Qin Zhi’ai heard his beautiful voice in concert with the rain. He did not sound emotional or flirtatious, but what he had said was far sweeter than anything she had ever heard, which made her heart flutter.

“I felt so bad that I had missed her. I thought I would die when I tried to save those two drowning boys. I tried my best to hang in there when I thought she might have waited for me at Pudong Airport.

“I would give my life to my country, but I only live my life for her.”

Qin Zhi’ai had gone to the hospital with him. As he tried to save his life, the doctor had told her it was a miracle that he’d survived.

She had felt fortunate and thought Gu Yusheng was lucky. She had not known that he had been living his life for her until that moment when he had almost drowned.

Qin Zhi’ai could keenly feel her defenses slowly being crushed. She had been suppressing her love for him for so long and for so many reasons that she suddenly became emotionally impulsive.

“Even though I survived it, I still lost her.”

Up to now, Gu Yusheng had been calm telling her this story, but now he began to sound sad.

“After that, my future and dreams changed to waiting for her.

“Everyone told me that time is the best medicine for pain. Do you know I found time was not the cure, but the poison, as time passed by?

“I started to become scared. I was scared that I would never meet her again.

“Life seemed to be so long without her.”

Qin Zhi’ai’s lips started to tremble and tears slowly formed in her eyes.

If she didn’t bite her lips hard to hold in her emotions, she would have told Gu Yusheng that she was still in love with him. She was in love with him now and had always loved him. It never changed.

She clenched her fists so tightly that her nails dug into her palms, as if she were doing it intentionally. The pain in her palms reminded her to sustain her last bit of rationality.

Gu Yusheng had never talked so much in his life. The longer he talked, the calmer he became. At this point, he had fallen into a very somber mood. “Later, I would feel happy just to see her in my dreams.”

Qin Zhi’ai’s tears fell uncontrollably.

She pled in a low voice as her lips trembled, “Gu, Master Gu, please stop.”

Gu Yusheng was so deep in talking about his past that he hadn’t heard her. He continued, “I will wait until she comes back to me. I will wait for her my whole life until she comes back.”