I want to translate your voice

Chapter 8 008 The end of youth

Shen Qinnian tossed and turned all night, thinking about that warm and soft touch.I didn't go to bed until dawn, and when I woke up it was already afternoon.

He looked at the ceiling and suddenly remembered that today was a holiday and there was no reason to meet, and he suddenly felt unhappy.I forced myself to devote myself to studying, and after reading a few articles I found that some of them I couldn’t read.

Dial Bian Yi's phone: "What are you doing?"

Bian Yi yawned lazily: "I just woke up after staying up all night."

Shen Qinnian hesitated and said, "What about that? I plan to confess to Song Yunmu."

Bian Yi woke up from the bed and immediately became energetic: "Okay, buddy, you are finally getting better!"

Shen Qinnian was surprised: "You know I like her?"

Bian Yi rolled his eyes without hesitation and said silently: "Only a blind person can't tell that you like Song Yunmu. Do you know how high the popularity of your and her posts has been? After so long, the popularity of the post has not diminished at all. "

Shen Qinnian paused, and suddenly thought of something, his ears turned red: "Then do you think Song Yunmu will know?"

"Well," Bian Yi said, "it's really hard to say. After all, the brain circuits of you academic masters are really incomprehensible to ordinary people. Plus, I feel that she seems to be focused on studying and is relatively slow in this aspect. Otherwise, given her condition, , so many people are chasing me, but I’m still single.”

"I think so. You have to pierce this layer of paper to know what the other person is thinking."

"Well, so I plan to confess my love, but I don't know how to do it." Shen Qinnian was a little troubled.

Bian Yi was helpless: "Didn't I say that your good brain is just for show? Why did your IQ plummet as soon as you met Song Yunmu? Find a time, make an appointment, and confess your love when the atmosphere is warm. What’s so difficult?”

"Then you can help me see if there are any suitable movies to watch tomorrow. I'll do it myself. You are unreliable."

Bian Yi: "." Chilling.

Shen Qinnian shared all his ideas with Bian Yi, even discussing what to wear tomorrow and which car to drive.In the end, Bian Yi let him go because he was going on a date.

The movie was scheduled for the next day, and it took a while before sending a message to Song Yunmu.

Shen Qinnian: [I have a movie ticket. Do you want to go out and watch a movie together? 】

Shen Qinnian walked downstairs to the dormitory, sat on a chair and waited for a while, but still no news came.He knew that Song Yunmu would habitually mute his cell phone when doing things.

So I didn't feel anything was wrong, thinking it wouldn't be too late to wait until she finished her work and saw the news.

But he waited and waited. The movie was announced to be about to start. During this period, he sent many messages to Song Yunmu and still there was no response.I don't know how many people passed by in front of me, but Song Yunmu and others were never seen.When it got dark, Lin Yaqi went downstairs to look for food and saw Shen Qinnian sitting there waiting for Shen Qinnian to walk over with some confusion.

Lin Yaqi and Shen Qinnian had met several times, and since they were somewhat familiar with each other, they asked, "Nian, why are you downstairs in the girls' dormitory?"

Shen Qinnian recognized her roommate Shen Song Yunmu and said, "Is Song Yunmu here? I asked her but she didn't respond."

Lin Yaqi frowned and was confused: "Huh? Didn't Yun Mu tell you that the exchange student she applied for left this morning."

Shen Qinnian stood up, his eyes widened, and his heart seemed to have been drained of blood instantly and became empty.

It was the first time that my brain was so slow, and I stopped in place to understand this sentence.

Lin Yaqi couldn't understand Shen Qinnian's gaffe. Her boyfriend was urging her on the phone, so she had to leave quickly.

The phone rang, and when the call was answered, Bian Yi's gasping voice came: "Shen Qinnian, where are you? Do you know about Song Yunmu going to be an exchange student?"

Shen Qinnian squeezed the phone tightly and tried to control his emotions rationally: "I just found out."

Bian Yi heard something was wrong with Shen Qinnian, so he spoke again: "Where are you? I just ran to your apartment and couldn't find you."

"I'm downstairs in the girls' dormitory."

Bian Yi was silent for a few seconds and sighed: "Just wait, I'll find you."

When Bian Yi found Shen Qinnian, he was sitting alone on a bench under the lamp, his head lowered, and the air pressure around him was very low.

Bian Yi had never seen Shen Qinnian like this since he was a child. He always looked like a high-spirited and proud man.He couldn't stand it any longer, so he pulled Shen Qinnian out and said, "Let's go, brother, I'll drink with you."

Shen Qinnian hadn't eaten anything since the afternoon. He drank a lot of wine and his stomach ached, but he frowned and continued to pour a glass.

"Bian Yi, what do you mean by her?" Shen Qinnian raised his head and took another sip of wine, "Why did you leave without saying a word?"

Bian Yi sighed and drank a drink with Shen Qinnian. Shen Qinnian had already drank a lot and was a little dizzy: "Why is she suddenly going to be an exchange student? Then what did she mean by kissing me that day? Don't we like each other? ?Why did you just leave without saying goodbye?"

Even though Bian Yi was experienced in emotions, he couldn't find a reason to explain, so he could only drink with him as a friend.Bian Yi's drinking capacity was not as good as Shen Qinnian's, and he soon fell down and lay down on the sofa of Shen Qinnian's house, muttering: "Brother, don't be sad."

Shen Qinnian opened another bottle of wine in silence, his reason having been completely lost in the alcohol.Taking advantage of his drunkenness, he took out his mobile phone and dialed Song Yunmu's number.

What was heard was a cold female voice.

"The number you dialed is unavailable——"

Shen Qinnian turned his cell phone upside down on the table and poured wine directly into his mouth.

What defeated him was not Song Yunmu's farewell without saying goodbye, but this cold notice.

She logged off the phone and completely disconnected herself.

In the end, Shen Qinnian was so drunk that he lay down on the sofa, with a drop of tears running down his cheek.

His first love seemed to be over before it even started.

All that was left was that imaginative kiss.

He didn't even have time to ask what the kiss meant.

Does she like him after all?

There was no time to expose the secret love.

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After that day, the students at HKUST discovered that Shen Qinnian had returned to the same state as his freshman year, rarely appearing in school unless necessary. In the fall of his junior year, he graduated with the first grade [English Essay Appreciation].

Some people also discovered that Song Yunmu went to be an exchange student, and some speculated that they might have broken up.

But in fact, I don’t know, the two of them didn’t start at all.

As the president of the student union, he knew the school where Song Yunmu was an exchange student.

But what could he do? He couldn't do anything. He clicked on the tickets to fly to her city many times. Finally, he was brought back to reality by reason and stopped.

You can only bury your love deep in your heart, not pay attention to it or care about it.

It's just that the novel Song Yunmu borrowed from him has been read countless times, and the pages are a little old from being rubbed by his fingertips.

There are also annotations written by Song Yunmu while reading.

From time to time, Shen Qinnian would lean on the sofa and read the text in the book.

*'I fear oblivion, I fear it like the proverbial blind man who's afraid of the dark.'
'I was thinking about the word handle, and all the helplessness things that get handled.'
Shen Qin was stroking the words on the page, wondering what Song Yunmu's mood was at that time when he left special comments on these words.But he felt deeply helpless from it.

In fact, this novel briefly tells the love story of two young cancer patients. They tried to express their love to each other in their own way until their death. However, the reality is not a fable. There are not so many miracles. In the end, it stays at ' The word "death".

It's so helpless and cruel.

Day after day, year after year, Shen Qin will read this novel every once in a while, and his mentality has changed significantly from the beginning.Time easily dilutes a person's traces, and Song Yunmu's traces gradually faded around him.

During the summer vacation of his senior year, Shen Qinnian graduated from HKUST as an outstanding graduate.

Summer is hot, and youth comes to an end in this hot season.

"Shen Qinnian! What are you doing? Come and take graduation photos!"

Shen Qinnian withdrew his gaze and hid the hope and disappointment in his eyes.

He turned around and walked towards Bian Yi and the others, showing a lazy smile: "Here we come, stop screaming."

Graduated, but Song Yunmu still didn't come back.

It seems that everyone has a bloody episode in their youth that is as bloody as a novel.

It just brings different feelings to everyone, some are dull but have a profound impact, and some are unforgettable and unforgettable.

It seems that only with these regrets can we be considered youthful.

(End of this chapter)