i'm not a bad man

Chapter 634 Fulfilling a Promise

I usually feel guilty about promises that I cannot keep, but this time, I felt serious psychological discomfort. I was actually being used, and now, this woman who used me is talking to me. Talk a lot, talk about happiness, talk about reunion, talk about perfection...

My life has long been torn into pieces and cannot be repaired, and human nature has made me exhausted, so I have an urge to self-destruct...

I hung up the phone call from Zou Chang, feeling completely shattered. It wasn't until a gust of hot wind blew over from the other side that I came back to my senses. It was at this time that a colorful boat came from my left hand side. There seems to be a party on the boat...

The cruise ship gradually got closer, and I finally saw the banner hanging on the bow clearly. It turned out to be a child's tenth birthday party. He seemed to have many good friends, so he was surrounded by the crowd in the center. From the perspective of this group of people, Judging from their attire, they should all be elite celebrities in this city. It is precisely because this group of celebrities gathered together that they had the confidence to hold such a unique birthday party in such a prosperous place...

The colorful hull accompanied by the release of lights was really hallucinogenic. I seemed to see myself again when I was young, and I had such a beautiful time on my birthday...

But, can I still go back?

I couldn't give myself an exact answer. It wasn't until the bubble machine on the cruise ship produced a large number of dense bubbles that I woke up from a dream...

Why insist on going back to the past?Just like these bubbles, once they were brilliant and wonderful, they no longer regret it, but at the end of life, they must burst, sooner or later.

I finally took out my phone from my pocket, hung up the call from Zou Chang again, bought a high-speed train ticket from Shanghai to Qingdao in an hour, and turned off my phone completely.

I have a promise to keep.

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Late at night, I came to the city of Qingdao again. Everything was so peaceful and calm. Wandering in this tranquility and calmness, my mood became much calmer. I stood at the door of the hospital and smoked a cigarette, and then Just walk inside.

Zuo Xiaowei was not asleep yet. She was leaning on the backrest of the hospital bed, playing a piece of pure music on her mobile phone. It was a song I wrote, and it was also the only song that was not included in her album.

I listened with her through the door of the ward, then opened the door and walked in, and she also found me in a daze, and our eyes touched each other like positive and negative magnetic fields; I didn't I knew whether I should meet her like this as a matter of course, but I really saw a hint of surprise in her eyes...

"Xiaowei..."

She opened her mouth with difficulty, but no sound came out.

At this moment, we were all extremely sad, but in the end, I forced myself to smile at her and said: "I came here specially from Shanghai... In your heart, no, in the hearts of many people, I am a favorite People who make promises but are unwilling to fulfill them... But this time, I want to change myself and fulfill a promise... You must still remember the Pingtan Island I told you..."

Speaking of Pingtan Island, it seems to be the biggest expectation in my heart, so I spread my hands, looked like I was working hard, and said: "It's that small island with many windmills built on the sea... Once we arrive, When the wind blows, it’s all the sound of windmills turning... It’s so rhythmic that even if you have severe insomnia, you can still fall asleep listening to these sounds..."

Zuo Xiaowei nodded.

I walked towards her again, feeling a little nervous, so much so that the corner of my mouth trembled, and then I asked again: "Are you willing to go with me? Let's rent a RV and set off tomorrow..."

Zuo Xiaowei picked up the mobile phone placed by the bedside, and then typed the word "willing" on the screen of the mobile phone...

It seemed that she was used to communicating with others in this way.

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Although the treatment in the hospital was not completely over, Zuo Xiaowei still followed me without hesitation. We drove the RV and set off from Qingdao, just to pursue the small island with windmills dotted on the sea. It was also a promise that I had to fulfill.

Fortunately, we arrived in Pingtan just in time for the evening, and it was a good weather. The blue sky and the sea reflected each other, making the windmills sandwiched between the two become a unique scenery... Station On the beach, looking around calmly, it feels like you are in a dream world, with no disputes or calculations, just the smoke from the kitchen, and you can live and work in peace and contentment.

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After buying two bottles of coconut water, Zuo Xiaowei and I sat side by side on the beach. The sea breeze blew over us, which made us relax, so we flattened our legs and leaned back slightly, facing the wind and the afterglow of the setting sun. , facing the endless sea level...

Zuo Xiaowei closed her eyes slightly. I have never seen her smile so sweetly, and I also gained an unprecedented sense of satisfaction from her pleasure. This sense of satisfaction makes me believe that every time she is fulfilled, Our commitments are valuable and deserve to be remembered.

I finally took Zuo Xiaowei's hand and said softly to her: "If we had chosen Pingtan instead of the small city, wouldn't we be very happy now?"

Zuo Xiaowei nodded.

I still couldn't adapt to this way of communication, so I looked at Zuo Xiaowei a little sadly. Deep in my heart, I felt an irreparable guilt for her; I didn't know if she knew that I was the one behind the car accident. Black Hand, will it still be like this...

Zuo Xiaowei touched my cheek lightly with both hands, and then pointed to the place where the sunset was about to set, signaling me not to miss it...

I finally looked up and saw that it was getting late, and that ray of light was the only light between heaven and earth. It seemed that it was beyond my power, but it seemed to illuminate the sea...

As a result, the entire island and the entire sea became more and more heartbreakingly beautiful, and I did not speak until that ray of light gradually disappeared from our sight...

It was at this time that Zuo Xiaowei leaned gently on my shoulder, as if to tell me that she wanted to sit like this with me all the time, feeling her breath and softness. I suddenly felt that the so-called eternal life, the endless sea and the decay of the stone, also It's not a ridiculous statement, because there are always some people in this world who expect this...

But I no longer have such qualifications, so, after pondering for a while, I finally said to Zuo Xiaowei: "I'm sorry, Xiaowei!"

Zuo Xiaowei looked at me...

I became more and more panicked, and I wanted to tell her that I was the mastermind behind that car accident.

Zuo Xiaowei smiled and shook her head, and then wrote on the beach with her fingers: "I don't hate you..."

The so-called "don't hate me" just means that I don't hate me for letting her down. Therefore, I feel even more flustered and don't know how to confess...

Zuo Xiaowei did not stop, but the light became darker and darker. I got closer and saw clearly that she wrote another line: "I don't hate you no matter what."

My eyes blurred for a moment. It was the night that swallowed up the world and me. Because of this, I lowered my head and asked in a deep voice: "You really don't think I am a bad man?"

Zuo Xiaowei wrote on the beach again... But I couldn't see clearly at all and needed the light of my mobile phone.

She said: "Don't be obsessed with form. As long as there is a light in your heart that will never go out, you are not a bad man."

Only then did I exhale heavily, and after a long silence, I said with a smile: "I want to go to a place. It may take several years to come back, or... it may never come back."

Zuo Xiaowei looked at me, looked again and again, and then hugged me tightly. She seemed to be writing something on my back. I used the greatest concentration in my life to feel it: But in the end I couldn't feel it... I just felt that after a few strokes, she hugged me tighter!Follow my Weixin public account: *** to view the biggest ending!

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