i'm not a bad man

Chapter 614: Write a book to answer you
The airport at night seems to be full of people who have returned. Lu Xi and I are the only exceptions. For us, Kunming is at best a temporary harbor. Therefore, we have no home here. It is precisely because we have no home that many things They are all looking for, such as a hotel to stay in, a place to eat...

After some things happen, they can really change a person's habits and personality. In the process of searching, I will always look at Lu Xi's belly intentionally or unintentionally. When she notices something strange, I will quickly move away. Eyes, but this kind of hypocritical behavior cannot reduce my concern for the child, nor can it reduce the guilt in my heart... I began to wonder, where is Lao Wai at this moment?If I try to find him, can I find him before he does it?
Or be bolder, give Zuo Xiaowei some information, and let her take Guan Yubo out of the public eye and go to a place where Lao Wai can't find her?

This is unrealistic. First of all, there is no way for me to 100% trust Zuo Xiaowei at this time. Furthermore, this kind of revelation is undoubtedly a signal. Guan Yubo will not be unaware of the fishiness in it. After he senses it, he will only It will make him want to kill me even more crazily, and the reason why I am crazy is precisely because I sense his malice.

"Han Chao..."

Lu Xi seemed to call me, and I came back to my senses and asked her, "What did you call me?"

"Brother Chao..."

"No, you called my name."

"Brother Chao, Brother Chao, Brother Chao..." Lu Xi shouted three times in a row, and then said to me: "Have you replied to the letter this time?"

The wind in Kunming at night is always stronger than that in other cities, so the strong wind blew Lu Xi's long hair and the hem of her skirt. I felt so pity for him, so I stood in the wind, He held her tightly in his arms and whispered, "I believe whatever you say."

"I just want to tell you that there is a restaurant over there that seems pretty good..."

I looked in the direction she pointed, and there was a restaurant, sitting alone in the hustle and bustle of the city. It had white walls, red tiles, and a garden, which proved that it was a stylish tea restaurant.

"What do you want to eat?"

"Braised pork rice, look at the sign over there, their main specialty is braised pork rice."

It seems that every stylish tea restaurant will regard braised pork rice as a must-make meal. Therefore, in these years on the road, what I have eaten the most is probably braised pork rice... but I haven't eaten enough yet. Because when you encounter a high-level tea restaurant, you can really make this braised pork rice very delicious, especially the minced pork, which simply melts in your mouth, fat but not greasy.

……

Lu Xi and I chose an open-air location, which is relatively remote, and we also set up a white camping tent, as if it was prepared for those who don't like to be disturbed...

Of course we not only ordered two portions of braised pork rice, but also crayfish, as well as a variety of snacks and grilled skewers. Only then did we realize that using a tea restaurant to define this place is a bit narrow; the boss’s ambition is very big, and this is not only It is a camping restaurant, a bar, a coffee shop, and a barbecue concentration camp, so all the forms of dining you can imagine are integrated here...

This seems a bit nondescript, but it does not affect its business at all, because the tranquility amidst the hustle and bustle is something that no other hotel can match...

Finally, I came to a conclusion: This boss must have someone in his family, otherwise, how could he get such a large piece of land to build his own catering hodgepodge in this city where land is so precious?
I ordered everything except wine. I didn’t want to be confused anymore. I just wanted to have a good meal with Lu Xi and then talk to her about the future that I most likely would not have the chance to participate in.

Speaking of which, I want to thank Qiao Jiao, thank her for giving me this opportunity, so that after the incident, looking back, it will not be full of pain and regret.

……

I was in a trance again, and I felt like: Lu Xi and I were not the only ones in this camping tent; in fact, there really was a child with a heartbeat, but he could not accompany us in a human-like way. But this does not prevent me from perceiving and imagining him...

"After ordering so many dishes, why don't you drink?" Lu Xi's question interrupted my thoughts. I replied half-jokingly, half-seriously: "Han Erjin is a thing of the past."

"Drink less and I won't talk about you."

After saying that, Lu Xi planned to call the waiter, but I stopped him. I suddenly became disgusted with wine at this moment; but this wine is really not useless. At least after drinking it, you will have the courage to say Some words that I originally thought were difficult to say... So, I fell into the dilemma of not knowing how to express my feelings.

I promised Qiao Jiao that if Lu Xi did not take the initiative to talk to me about the child, I would never talk to her about the child first, so the child must not be talked about; I also promised Qiao Jiao that even if Lu Xi took the initiative to talk about it, She couldn't talk to Lu Xi about her topics, so Qiao Jiao couldn't talk either...

Based on these two constraints, what else can I talk to Lu Xi about?
……

After thinking again and again, I finally spoke to Lu Xi and said, "I want to ask you very seriously, am I a man worthy of being loved?"

As soon as Lu Xi picked up the chopsticks, she put them down again. She looked at me... This time, I did not avoid her gaze, because I had already denied myself in my heart, so no matter what answer she gave me, I All are acceptable...

Sure enough, she looked a little bored and said to me, "I really don't like you asking that question."

I nodded, indicating that I accepted her annoyance, but she said to me with a smirk: "Since you asked, I will still answer you reluctantly... Brother Chao, look at me."

My lowered eyes returned to her again, and she said to me seriously: "Brother Chao... I love you... I will always love you... What I'm tired of is just not knowing why I love you so much... …But it doesn’t matter, I’ve been quite free recently, and after I figure it out, I may write a book to answer you…”

After a pause, Lu Xi added: "I know why I love you, but I don't know why I love you so much... Can you understand?"

I looked at her in astonishment, and for a long time I couldn't figure out whether I understood it or not.

I really should order some wine, so that my mind won't be too stagnant...

So, I thought hard again, and suddenly I felt like I understood... She was telling me that she had her own accommodation in this relationship, and this accommodation even exceeded her bottom line, so she was also confused. It was precisely because of my confusion that I wanted to explore the circumstances under which this abnormal love arose.

And I feel even more guilty...

I actually had sex with Qiao Jiao!
At that time, we all thought we were going to die, but as long as we didn't really die, this couldn't be a reason or excuse.

……

Lu Xi didn't seem to want to get anything. When I fell silent, she stopped talking. She picked up the chopsticks and spoon again and ate the braised pork rice she just ordered.

I feel increasingly sad: these two women, Qiao Jiao and Lu Xi, are things I can’t let go of even if they really come to the moment of death!

(End of this chapter)