i'm not a bad man

Chapter 590
My heart is like a mirror, but at this moment, I no longer trust anyone, even if the other person is a policeman, as long as he is rooted in a small town, I don't trust him...

Guan Yubo must have hired a murderer to kill the man. Zou Chang's whereabouts are unknown and he has nothing to do with it. His purpose of doing this was to escape the guilt of killing Zou Chang's father and completely cover up his crime.

It’s so terrifying and so infuriating!

I am angry because I feel that Zou Chang is already in danger. A country without the means to enforce the law and monitor it is the best breeding ground for crime. Therefore, Guan Yubo has no reason to show mercy to Zou Chang.

He will not be merciful. He is the most cruel person since I came into contact with this world. His hands are already covered with blood, but I don't know how to deal with him.

Because of this, I fell into extreme self-doubt. No, I not only doubted myself, but also the world. Standing in this turbid world, I could no longer see a trace of light. There was only black terror around me, and Death threats.

……

During my silence, the police officer seemed to have received new information. He said to me on the phone again: "Our colleagues have checked their entry and exit information. The two of them did take the same train." The flight went to Malaysia...So, I think your friend’s situation may not be optimistic, so you’d better be mentally prepared.”

I still don't speak.

He asked again: "What is your relationship with her?"

I tried my best to calm down my emotions, and then whispered back: "A better relationship than ordinary friends."

The policeman smiled: "I heard from my colleague that the police station below once handled a prostitution case, and you and she were both parties."

"Yes, we are just clients and prostitutes... So what's going on? Will it affect your investigation of the case?"

"Don't get excited. This is no longer a simple missing person case. We will definitely open a case for investigation as soon as possible. Since we have opened a case for investigation, we will definitely check her social relations..."

"I'm not excited... Then you should investigate carefully. It doesn't matter if you can't find out the results. I just want to know whether she is alive or dead. If there is any news, please contact me as soon as possible."

"Whether she is alive or dead, you are not our first contact... We will contact her family first."

"Contact me, you must contact me first... I beg you... Her mother is the only one left in her family. A few years ago, her father passed away in a car accident, and her mother is already mentally abnormal. If Zou Chang has another If there is any accident, her mother will definitely collapse...don't be so cruel to her!"

"This is not in accordance with the procedures, especially when we handle cases, we must not bypass the procedures." After a pause, he said: "Why didn't you think that she might still be alive?...Have you already given this case in your mind? It’s determined that this is a homicide, and both Zou Chang and Ma Guan (the truck driver’s son) were killed?”

"It is your duty to characterize the case. If you ask me to characterize it, is it not in compliance with the procedure?"

"You can't tell, you're quite prickly!"

I was silent again, silent because I didn't like him, let alone trust him, but he didn't give up and said again: "I think you must know something..."

"I don't know anything... If you think I know, you can go through the procedure and apply for a subpoena."

"We haven't reached that stage yet, and the case has not yet been determined. It is possible that they encountered an accident, such as falling into the water, or the perpetrator was a local, so it is not under our control... But if necessary, we will definitely You were summoned.”

"Okay, then I'll wait for you to characterize the case."

After saying that, I hung up the phone, and then looked at Zou Chang's mother who was still waiting for me in another place. Her face was still full of worry, and she kept looking at me, hoping to get something out of my mouth. I heard news that there is still a chance to survive.

I still can't give her anything, I don't even have the courage to let her accept the reality; there is only resentment and helplessness in my heart. I have sworn that I will never let her repeat the tragedy of Luan Yu's mother, but I can only I can watch her repeat this tragedy.

It drives me crazy!

And the remaining reason gave me the final warning. I must take Zou Chang's mother out of the small town immediately; we will wait until we get to Zhengzhou.

So, I told a lie, claiming that the phone call just now was good news, that Zou Chang had been contacted, and that she would return to Zhengzhou with the flight tomorrow; in this lie, Zou Chang not only lost the phone, but also lost it and returned to China. documents, so the return to the country can only be postponed until tomorrow.

Zou Chang's mother didn't have that much knowledge, so she didn't find a flaw in this lie. Just because she didn't find a flaw, she kept patting her chest and said, "That's good, that's good"...

She attributed all her good luck to God's blessing. If God had truly blessed her, Luan Yu would not have died, and neither would Zou Chang.

Rather than relying on heaven, it is better to rely on yourself.

Because of this lie, I finally bought myself a day to breathe.

……

Before dusk came, I finally left the small town with Zou Chang's mother and arrived in the provincial capital Zhengzhou. I booked two rooms in the hotel, one for myself and one for Zou Chang's mother.

It wasn't until the moment I closed the hotel room door that I truly calmed down and no longer had any expectations that Zou Chang would be alive.

I lit a cigarette and leaned back on the sofa. When I was about to finish smoking the cigarette, I made a decision; first, I confirmed that I was calm, and then, I confirmed that I had completely despaired of this world. ...I want to kill Guan Yubo and kill him with the same means to defend my inner dignity and fairness.

I no longer care about the outcome, good or bad.

I just want to kill him...

At the same time, my heart was filled with great sadness. I didn’t know how I transformed step by step from a homeless young man into a bad guy with murderous tendencies.

At first, I just wanted to make a career in a small town, have a happy love, a harmonious family, and a social status that could be respected by others.

But in the end, I didn't get anything. I just repeated the previous pain, which was even more painful and unspeakable.

……

I put out the cigarette in my hand, took a deep breath, and finally took out my cell phone and dialed Ren Ran's number.

After I made this decision, it was necessary for me to have a phone call with Ren Ran. I had something I wanted to tell her, and something I was worried about that I wanted to explain to her. She and Wu Luoge were among the few who were worthy of my trust. people.

After a while, Ren Ran answered the phone; this time, I asked her first: "Sister Ran, have you arrived in Thailand?"

"We're here. Your parents like it here very much. Your brother is already hanging out with them on the nearby beach. Chao Chao is also holding a coconut and refuses to let go."

I smiled.

Ren Ran asked again: "What about you, have you left the town?"

"I have arrived in Zhengzhou."

"I remember going to XJ, not passing through Zhengzhou, right?"

"I still have some other things to take care of, so I won't delay going to XJ."

"I know that XJ is an obsession in your heart. You can't let go of this obsession without going there... However, I still want you to come to Phuket to reunite with us as soon as possible. Without you, I always feel like something is missing."

"Am I really that important?"

"There's no need to doubt yourself."

I lit another cigarette, walked to the window, and then opened the curtains a crack, peeking at the city at dusk. Probably because I was in the old city, all the buildings were full of a sense of age. , so that it has a very Syrian style, just like the building opposite me, the windows have no glass, but are blocked by bricks, and most of the outer wall has peeled off, revealing the dense red bricks... …

I felt so depressed that I took a deep breath and then said to Ren Ran on the other end of the phone: "I may really be a person who likes self-doubt... So, until now, I haven't figured it out yet." Are you a good person or a bad person..."

"Good guys, bad guys?... In this profit-oriented world, who else would make such a distinction? Everything is only about stance and interests."

"You still have to make a distinction...Sister Ran, deep down, I want to be a good person, a good person who can make everyone happy."

"It's not important. What's important is that you can live happily."

"For me, it's very important... Forget it, sometimes even you can't really empathize... Let's change the topic and talk."

"What topic do you want to talk about?"

After pondering for a while, I finally said: "Sister Ran, please marry my brother... I mean, if you think the time is right, then marry my brother..."

Ren Ran, who was on the other end of the phone, was silent for a long time and asked, "Why are you suddenly telling me this?"

"When I think of you marrying my brother, I feel at ease and reassured... because you can take good care of this family. When I say care, I mean not only the trivial matters in life, but also spiritual comfort. , my brother needs you very much...my parents...they also need you."

"You should be more practical... This family needs you to find a woman to embellish it... You should resolve the love triangle between you, Lu Xi and Qiao Jiao as soon as possible and return to normal life. .”

After all, Ren Ran still didn't understand my feelings or my motives, so we couldn't find any resonance in this conversation.

I still feel bad because I can't explain my feelings and motivations...

They won't let me have such murderous thoughts, but I can no longer comfort myself and Zou Chang.

Until this morning, her mother and I had only dreamed of going to Gejiu to open a bar that symbolized happiness and reunion.

(End of this chapter)