i'm not a bad man

Chapter 544 Two choices
Ever since I got the phone left by Luan Yu, I couldn't seem to feel the passage of time, because there were so many memories in this phone that I wanted to find but could never get back.

In Luan Yu’s mobile phone, the memory of her and I started from the morning after we rented a house. On that morning before I woke up, she rode a shared bicycle through several streets and finally bought one. I like to smoke Camel brand cigarettes the most, but they are hard to buy in Yunnan. She bought a whole carton and put them in the basket of her bicycle...

I have to make up the rest of the scene in my head. I remember that that day she was wearing white sneakers, slightly loose jeans, a white T-shirt and a black knitted jacket...

That morning, the weather was very good. I remember that after I woke up, I sat on the bed with my upper body naked, staring at Yu Tangchun outside the window for a long time, and she just broke into my sight, wearing a ponytail and the wind blowing. Her black knitted jacket is flowing...

She also noticed me, put one foot on the ground, looked at me and smiled...

She took out the makeup mirror from her bag. The dazzling sunlight shone on the mirror and reflected on my face. I subconsciously raised my arms to cover it. She smiled even more. She did it on purpose...

It was this move that made me think she was a bit naughty and a bit cute woman.

Of course, what can’t be forgotten is that carton of cigarettes. When Zhao Yingrou and I were together in the past, I always bought her things; therefore, this was the first time I received a gift from a woman; let’s call it that. Give it a gift, because I really like it. I like the smell of Camel cigarettes, the dazzling morning sun, and the breath we exchange after a night of love.

She said that she must give me a pack of cigarettes because it was a sense of ritual. If the hotel could cook, she would also like to get up early and make me a breakfast like the one in the TV series.

I asked her, what kind of breakfast is breakfast in the TV series?

She lay in my arms, lit a cigarette for me, and said with a smile: "The heroine is wearing nothing, standing in the kitchen cooking for the hero. After the hero wakes up, he stares at the heroine's bumpy figure. With her back in a daze, the heroine turned around, holding bread and milk in her hands... The hero drooled... The heroine asked the hero, are you greedy for the bread and milk, or my body... The hero He said, bread and milk are nothing. Have you ever heard of the word "beautiful and delicious"?...Then the hero pounced on him like a hungry wolf..."

I couldn't help but laugh and sighed: "It's so ridiculous, you must be watching a pornographic film!"

After saying that, I put out the cigarette that I had only taken a puff of, and pressed her down again. She called me a gangster, scolded me for being jealous...

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I recalled these based on a pack of Camel cigarettes placed in the car basket. My hands were hanging in the air, trying to catch that period of time, but my hands were so empty and unable to hold on. , I raised my head in confusion, but the night was at my feet, leaving a large afterimage.

Luan Yu has passed away, and this is not the Kunming where we first met, but my desire to go back is so real; speaking of it, Kunming was just a starting point for the two of us. Later, we went there again More than 200 cities...

I thought I wouldn’t be nostalgic anymore, and even sold the RV, until I saw Luan Yu’s mobile phone photo album. The experiences, scenery, and love-hate in it really stimulated me, and I wanted to remember the past. Walking all the roads again is not enough, and there is XJ we have never been to. I want to stand on the Nalati grassland, facing the cattle and sheep, and sing for her...

With such a mood, I went through more than 3000 photos related to me in the album. These photos seemed to be a kind of call, which surpassed everyone's dissuasion and reminded me of the Korean wave who once wandered around. A wandering life...

I suddenly felt that after experiencing so much and facing the uncertainty of life and death, I could still be the Han Chao I once was, continue to wander, continue to wander, and continue to stay away from all kinds of right and wrong in the world.

I finally lit a cigarette for myself, then gently put down Luan Yu's cell phone, and looked up at this familiar yet unfamiliar small town, feeling tired.

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When I was about to finish smoking a cigarette, I suddenly remembered that in this express box, in addition to a mobile phone, there was also a book.

I stamped out the cigarette butt with my foot and then picked up the book... This was a book that surprised me enough. It actually described various ideologies, political pressures, and the international system during the period when the United States and the Soviet Union were competing for hegemony. Confrontation...

The person who gave me this book seemed to want to give me some kind of inspiration, and tried to guide me through the content presented in the book to break the thinking patterns formed in the long-term struggle.

I watched with all my concentration, not noticing the passage of time at all. It wasn't until the street lamp that had been shining on me suddenly went out that I raised my head. The small town had become deserted without me noticing at all, and only On the opposite street, there were three or five barbecue stalls operating, and the people at the barbecue stalls were almost exhausted.

I finally closed the book, lit a cigarette, and while smoking, I thought about the contents of the book. A behemoth like the Soviet Union, after decades of confrontation, was actually dragged down by an arms race and its economy was crushed.

Irrational competition can even bring down a superpower, let alone between me and Guan Yubo?

Now that this competition between us has been characterized as irrational, should I have more rational thinking and think about the essence behind this competition?

Zuo Xiaowei dared to promise to spend [-] million yuan to support residents in the scenic area to start their own businesses. This seems very good and can win people's hearts, but will this kind of bottom-line win-win people really not put pressure on herself? ?Secondly, if there is uneven distribution during the distribution process, or the cash cannot be paid in time, will she be able to deal with those villagers who dare to cause trouble whenever problems arise?

These villagers have a huge appetite, and human nature’s pursuit of interests is endless. Once this hole is opened, will a mere [-] million be enough?
When these details that I usually don't notice suddenly appeared in my mind, I suddenly felt that Zuo Xiaowei and Guan Yubo were not invulnerable.

Just give the scenic spot to them, let them take it away at a price that far exceeds the actual value, and then find a way to cut off their capital chain. When the time comes, I don’t need to find flaws, the flaws will naturally appear, and here Before, I had to be rational enough.

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When I started to pay attention to rationality, I really became rational. Maybe the above ideas do not correspond to reality, but as far as the current situation is concerned, what can get me out of the predicament is not necessarily strong funds, but reason.

Because after acquiring the scenic spot at a price that is several times higher than its actual value, I will also face a lot of business pressure. Then, I have to consider another possibility. Is it possible that Yang Yiming and Guan Yubo set up a trap to induce me? Do this...

Cold sweat began to break out on my body. This situation is not impossible. So, this competition tests rationality and the grasp of the critical point, because everyone has the possibility of slipping away.

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Based on this understanding, I subconsciously grabbed the book called "The Controversy in the Human Heart" in my hand. For me, this is simply a timely help!There is actually a person who understands the situation that has always made me feel at a loss. He wants to help me?

Whether it's Luan Yu's mobile phone or this book, they are all trying to take me out of the predicament at hand, but in different ways.

Of course, I can choose to be the Korean trend I was before, continue wandering, and continue to live a happy life; I can also choose to win this battle for people's hearts with an absolutely rational mentality; in short, no matter what I choose, I will get rid of the predicament in front of me.

This is great wisdom, which moisturizes things silently.

I even feel that we have a tacit understanding, because I can really understand it.

(End of this chapter)