i'm not a bad man

Chapter 464

After leaving Zou Chang's residence, I didn't go anywhere. I went back to the hotel where I stayed, and then I was bored in the room; I had been waiting for Chang Tianming, and I felt that under this situation, he would definitely ask me to meet him. But until now, I still haven't been able to wait for his call. This may not be a good thing for me. I'm afraid that he will also be suspicious of me, because he is the only one who knows other than Jia Guoying. The person who incited the villagers to cause trouble was not him...

He must also be wondering, who did this?At the same time, he will also judge whether after such an incident happens, whether the benefits outweigh the disadvantages or the disadvantages outweigh the benefits. Now, he may not have a clear answer yet, so he did not make this call to me rashly.

……

I am a little tired. When I want to control everything in my own hands, I am more tired than ever before, because I also know that there is no wall in this world that is airtight, so I can only be extremely cautious. , and by covering all aspects, it is possible to protect this wall to the greatest extent.

I originally thought that I would never be lonely again, but at this moment, smoking a cigarette and overlooking the neon lights and street scenes of the city, I still felt an uncontrollable feeling of loneliness. Loneliness is because I put everyone in own opposite.

Qiao Jiao began to feel disgusted with me, and Lu Xi must also be disappointed. There is no one around me who can let me express my emotions unscrupulously.

……

After being in a daze for a while, my phone finally made a vibrating sound. I took it out and looked at it. This was a message sent to me by Zuo Xiaowei. She asked: "Are you still in the small town?"

"exist."

"You didn't promise me to leave. Why didn't you leave? Why did you do something that made others laugh?"

"That's who I am, and no one in the world knows me better than you."

"Yes... As long as you are frustrated in love... you will not be able to control yourself... That's what you did in the bar when Luan Yu left... But you can't grow up all your life, right? What on earth are you doing? How many times do you have to make mistakes and how many times do you hurt yourself before you can truly live well?"

"I don't know, it's the only way I can deal with my pain."

"Then you are really disappointing!"

I didn’t reply to Zuo Xiaowei’s message. I just looked at the world outside the window absentmindedly. Then I thought about the word disappointment again and again. As I thought about it, I became confused. I was so confused that I didn’t know what the word meant. What was the meaning of the word? Under what circumstances can it be used reasonably?

I think I've become numb because so many people have said this word to me over the years.

……

I don’t know how long I stood like this, but my phone vibrated again. I thought it was Zuo Xiaowei who wanted to scold me again, but this time, it was Ren Ran who was far away in Phuket.

I suppressed my emotions for a long time before calling out "Sister Ran" in an understatement.

"have you eaten?"

"What time is it? I've already eaten. How about you?"

"Get ready to eat. It's just getting dark here in Phuket, but it's already completely dark over there."

"Ah."

I responded, but inexplicably felt a lot more relaxed because of such small talk... This day, my brain has been in a whirlpool of brainstorming without stopping for a moment.

"When are you going to take Luxi to Phuket?"

Only then did I remember that we had talked about this topic the last time we talked on the phone; Lu Xi was still by my side that day.

"We've separated."

My answer surprised Ren Ran on the other end of the phone. He was silent for a moment before he said to me, "Have you finally figured it out?"

I didn't respond, but Ren Ran was happy about it, and she said, "That's right, this is what a man should really be like!"

"Maybe..." After a short pause, I whispered again: "Sister Ran, I miss you very much...I miss the days when we drank together...What about you, will you miss that kind of life?" Me?... To be honest, since I came to Phuket, I don’t seem to miss it that much... because I seem to have opened the door to a new world. I am really happy living here and have no worries... I meet different people every day, and most of the people here are happy, unlike when we were in the bar before. They seemed to have nothing to worry about, but they were actually just drinking to drown their sorrows."

"So, it seems like you won't come back."

"I won't come back." Ren Ran replied firmly enough, but after a pause, he smiled with a little room for thought: "If I miss you very much in the future, I might go back to see you... Speaking of which, We haven’t seen each other for a really long time...The last time we called was more than ten days ago...What have you been busy with these past ten days?"

"I have been in detention and have just been released."

"Oh my god, what have you done?"

"I took the bartender to book a hotel room and was caught."

"You...you are so stubborn!...You were like this when we were in the bar together...Why do you have to do this kind of thing when you are frustrated?"

"Depravity sometimes brings pleasure... You were the same way, too. At that time, you spent all your time in bars getting drunk. It's just that we degenerate in different ways."

"But I still don't want to see you go back to the starting point after making such a big circle."

I smiled and said, "Yeah, thinking about all the hard work and looking at my current mentality and state, I really feel it's a pity. It seems like all my previous efforts have been in vain."

"That's not true... From now on, you must control yourself."

"I know Sister Zhiran, I just drank too much that night... I was a little over the top and a little reckless in what I did."

"After all, the root of all evil is alcohol... You should quit drinking as soon as possible."

"If I borrow the wine, how can we still drink when we go to Phuket?"

Ren Ran on the other end of the phone was silent at first, and then said to me in a very serious tone: "No more, why don't you come to Phuket to find me now... I'm thinking about opening a bar recently, and you're here From now on, help me take care of the bar... I think you will like it as much as I do after you put aside the grievances in the small town... It's really nice here, with songs, wine, and the sea, but no worries!"

I laughed "haha" twice and replied: "Forget it, the fortune teller said that I am destined to be too old this year... Anyone who is with me will also suffer together... I'd better not go over there to harm you... After this age, if I can still be alive and kicking...I will definitely go to Phuket to find you...I promise!"

"Why are you saying this!?"

"just kidding."

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"I know, I know... That's it, Sister Ran... I'm a little sleepy. I haven't slept well during the ten days in the detention center. I have to catch up on my sleep."

"Okay, then go to bed early."

After saying this, Ren Ran and I ended the call, but I didn't go to sleep. I was still standing by the window; I saw my own face carved on the glass, a little cold, a little tired, and also A little strange...

I suddenly turned around and returned to the bed, and then rummaged through the suitcase. I found the pair of earrings that Qiao Jiao had given me a long time ago.

I put this pair of earrings next to my ears and gestured...

If she wore this pair of earrings, would she really look like Qiao Jiao?

I don’t know, anyway, I felt that I was even more unfamiliar, so I just held this pair of earrings in my hands and looked out the window and lost my mind again.

……

During this process, Chang Tianming finally called me and asked me to meet. Right now, it’s still the most famous noodle shop in the small town and the one where we broke up on bad terms.

(End of this chapter)