i'm not a bad man

Chapter 43 A deer is safe

When I returned to my RV, it was just after 09:30, a time that was neither early nor late. I simply moved the folding tables and chairs outside the RV, and then made a pot of hot tea to relieve my loneliness.

For me, loneliness is a very intuitive feeling, especially after experiencing such a memorable night.

I like the feeling of getting along with Lu Xi. Although we haven't developed much in common, I don't have to talk about the boring temptations of fame and fortune. I say it's boring because it has been talked about too much by the world, but I haven't gotten one yet. The clear result is that people who are indifferent are still indifferent, and people who are greedy for profit are still greedy for profit.

I admit that I am an indifferent type of person. I don’t have a house, a car, or a career, so I hate it when others talk to me about this. Only Lu Xi will not talk to me about this, even if it is Ran Ran, It also reminds me from time to time that it’s time to stabilize and get a house in Qingdao.

Speaking of Qingdao, I don’t seem to be as free and easy as I used to be. I have responsibilities, and I have more nostalgia and concern.

……

As the pot of tea was about to boil, I received a call from a drinking buddy.This person is known as Tu Lin. He is 32 years old and works as a programmer at a local Internet company. He found a girlfriend half a year ago. It is probably because his girlfriend is tight. It has been more than four months since he last appeared in a bar. Before; just when we were mourning the loss of a drinking buddy, he loudly shouted in our WeChat group: saying that he had found love, that he was the happiest man in the world, and issued the most severe warning to us. , saying that anyone who dares to question his choice is the enemy he must kill...

After saying that, he quit our drinking buddy group. Our drinking buddy group has been established for almost two years. He was the first to quit and the only one to quit because of love.

The reason why Tu Lin is called Tu Lin is because he became bald at a young age, but he never cared about it. He said that in their industry, he could persist in staying bald until he was 30 years old, which was blessed by his ancestors. This sentence We have been making fun of us for a long time, because I don’t know when, even the matter of baldness started to become a competition.

This is Tu Lin, so simple that with just a few strokes, everything about him has been introduced.

……

"Brother Lin, why are you free to call me today?"

Tu Lin's tone was a little sad: "The wedding is approaching, and I suddenly want to talk to you."

"Stop it, I'm not your ex-girlfriend... There's nothing worth remembering between us."

"Isn't it just because I don't have an ex-girlfriend that I want to talk to you...Where are you? I'll go find you."

I had no fixed address and didn't know where I was for a moment, so I looked up. It wasn't until I saw the huge beer bottle-shaped logo of "Tsingtao Brewery" that I told him my approximate location.

……

Tu Lin was extremely quick and found him in less than 10 minutes. He told me that his home was right across from the beer bottle. I couldn't help but sigh that Qingdao was not that big after all.

I looked at Tu Lin and saw that he was not as bald as before, so I asked with some curiosity: "What magic medicine have you taken recently? Your hair has grown a lot!"

"Do you know about hair transplant surgery? It is to transplant the hair on the back of your head to where it is needed."

After saying that, Tu Lin brought his head over. I touched it and sighed: "Hey! These are all non-renewable resources. You have to cherish them."

"That's not true. Use one less one."

After saying that, Tu Lin took out a bottle of spray from his pocket and sprayed it on his head, probably to maintain his hair.

After doing this, he sat down opposite me, and then asked: "Is there any beer? Let's have some."

"I can't drink. I got injured from drinking a few days ago and was hospitalized for a few days... Let's drink tea. My tea is not bad."

"There is someone who can drink you till you are hospitalized. How awesome is this person!"

I poured a cup of tea for Tu Lin, and then took the initiative to change the subject and said: "Put my affairs aside for now and talk about you. What's going on with you? You come to see me with a frown on such a happy event like your wedding." What’s wrong with me, do I feel aggrieved?”

"Isn't it just that I feel aggrieved..."

Tu Lin lit a cigarette, lowered his head and was silent for a while, then he spoke again: "Among the friends we are drinking together, you are the most capable. Please help me think of a solution... My girlfriend's I made a request, saying that it would be an engagement gift of 38 yuan, and she would be given another 68 yuan after the marriage; there were also requirements for the car, which could not be less than 40 yuan, and her name would be written in it... After the marriage, she did not want to live with my parents, so The house also needs to be bought new, and the down payment must be at least 150 million. She is afraid that it will be too difficult to repay the loan in the future. By the way, the house must also have her name..."

I was speechless: "Let me do the math. If you do this, it will cost you 300 million!"

"Less than 300 million, 296 million...Han Chao, what do you think I should do now?"

"It's easy. You can ask her if she wants a grave and have her name engraved on it." Tu Lin looked at me with a blank expression on his face. After a while, he replied: "Stop making trouble, I want to say this, this marriage is still good." Can we get married?"

"If you don't say so, this marriage won't happen... Let me ask you, if you sell both of your kidneys, can you get the 300 million?"

"It's 296."

I don't know why Tu Lin is always obsessed with this difference of 4 yuan; in my eyes, the 4 yuan is not the point at all, the point is the woman's attitude towards marriage.

"Okay, 296 million, yes 296 million. I promise not to make a mistake again... Your fiancée, doesn't she know anything about your situation? You are just an ordinary working-class person. Even if you are a programmer, your salary is The situation is slightly better than that of ordinary people, so you can't handle the 296 million, right?...Don't say you are just a working person, just talk about the bosses of small companies. In this economic situation, who can take out the company's accounts? The one who just casually took out 296 million in cash?...This woman really just opens her fucking mouth."

Tu Lin cried sadly, and after a while he replied: "There is something I dare not tell anyone. In fact... I lost my job last month, and I haven't found a new job yet."

I completely lost my ability to express myself, and I just felt a sense of despair!
"There is no way. Programmers are like this. Generally, after the age of 30... they will be automatically classified by the company into a position that may be eliminated at any time. I am 32 now. I want to find a job as a programmer. It is really special. It’s difficult... It’s hard to find a job, but it’s even harder to find a wife... Therefore, I dare not refuse to agree to any of her requests... Han Chao, can you understand my difficulties and difficulties? "

Tu Lin's look of reaching a dead end suddenly made me think of a word called "midlife crisis". Suddenly I felt that it was not a big mistake for me to be single for so many years and not look for a job...

"I can understand your difficulties and difficulties, but I can't help you get the 296 million... Is getting married now such an exaggeration?"

"You've been away from mainstream society for too long, so you can't see the suffering in the world."

"But you kept telling us at that time that you had fallen in love... and the end result of your love was this 296 million?"

Tu Lin put out the cigarette in his hand, then lit another one, and sighed: "The main reason is that I am older, and the woman has higher demands on me, which is also a kind of psychological compensation. I can understand her. "

"Come on, you understand her, can she understand you?... Ask her if she can give you a 150% discount on marriage... Even if it is a [-]% discount, it still costs [-] million. Can you bear it? ?"

"148% off is [-] million."

"I rely on!"

I fell into silence, and Tu Lin was also silent, so the night became more and more unsolvable. Suddenly, I had an idea in my mind. If one day I no longer adhere to the principle of non-marriage, then I will marry Luan. How much does a woman like Yu need to spend, and how much does Zuo Xiaowei need?
These are all women who have actually had a relationship with me. Although talking about money is too vulgar, as long as you want to get married, you must face it.

At this moment, I was not only silent, but also filled with confusion in my heart. When I decided to return to Tianjin to face my parents, it meant that I had to give up my freedom and the non-marriage principle that I once pursued. If I did not have such a consciousness, There is no need to go back at all, because the previous conflicts still exist, and are even worse. Therefore, I must be prepared to compromise before I can face them.

I started to be afraid of going home again. It wasn't that I wasn't willing to compromise, but I was afraid of meeting a woman who wanted everything, but like Tu Lin, I couldn't give her anything.

Based on such worries, I finally spoke to Tu Lin and said, "You might as well not get married...just wait...you will always meet a woman who is willing to share the burden with you instead of just asking for it."

"Can we really meet him?"

The world is so big and there are hundreds of millions of women. I am not that confident, but in the end I nodded and replied with a firm tone: "Yes, I can definitely do it. Just wait..."

Tu Lin was not ignited by my words. He looked nostalgic and said, "If you think about it carefully, I was most comfortable when I was hanging out in bars with you... Actually, there is nothing wrong with being a loser. Although I will be looked down upon by others, at least I live for my own preferences... If I really fail to get married this time, I will never get married again in my life."

This time, Tu Lin didn't expect to get a reply from me. After he finished speaking, he squinted his eyes, took a deep breath of cigarette, and then looked up at the sea that was completely shrouded in night, and I was already on top of him. There is no motivation to break through.

He probably wanted to reshape his useless body and completely lie down.

……

After finishing the pot of tea, my phone vibrated again. I picked it up and looked at it. It was a message from Lu Xi; this was the first time she took the initiative to send me a message since we met.

To be precise, it was a photo. She placed the deer I gave her as a decoration on the center console of her car.

I couldn't help but sigh: "You really found the right place... A safe deer, a safe journey..."

"Well, the deer is safe, and the journey is safe... Be careful on the road tomorrow, and the deer is safe."

(End of this chapter)