i'm not a bad man

Chapter 414: Obsessed, but still gentle
I saw a busy Qiao Jiao on the screen of my mobile phone. This was probably the only refund message she had received today. You can imagine her mood. I was even more nervous than her because it seemed inconspicuous. The ticket is a bridge between us, deciding whether she can come back to me on the night of the [-]th; I like the feeling of two people face to face together, rather than being empty of each other on the phone...

Qiao Jiao suddenly raised her head with a startled expression, and my heart suddenly sank. This seemed to be a sign of not getting the tickets. Then I comforted myself, Qiao Jiao is a person who likes to play tricks by nature, and maybe she is playing tricks on you first. The purpose of the suppression routine was to give me a stronger psychological impact.

However, I stared at her for a long time, but there was no change in her expression. She threw aside the mobile phone she used to book the tickets, covered her face with her hands, and then said to me: "My hand slipped and I didn't grab it! "

"Impossible? Didn't you get it immediately?"

"Really, I accidentally pressed the return page, and when I went in again, I couldn't pay."

Recalling how she was in a hurry just now, I believed this fact, but believing it did not mean I accepted it willingly, so I said to her again: "It's okay, someone will definitely refund the check later."

"I really have given up hope. In the past two days, I have swiped thousands or thousands of times, and I encountered a total of two refunds. The one before was snatched by me, but you also saw this one. My hand slipped. All of a sudden, someone else snatched it away... It will be the thirtieth night soon, and there are people everywhere waiting to go back to China for the New Year. Who knows how many eyes are watching behind this..." After saying that, Qiao Jiao rubbed her lips again. Eyes, complained: "I feel like my eyes are going blind... My mother scolds me every day for being crazy, saying that I am always staring at a broken mobile phone, and does not go shopping with her or buy New Year's goods with her. I don’t know what I’m here for…”

As soon as Qiao Jiao finished speaking, her mother's voice was heard complaining about her. It was similar to what Qiao Jiao said. She was indeed scolded for being crazy.

I felt really bad. I knew better than anyone how difficult it was for her to meet her mother. In the end, I had no solution and her mother was complaining, so I might as well settle down.

Based on this change of balance, I finally said to Qiao Jiao: "You and your mother haven't seen each other for so many years. You should stay there and spend the New Year with her... There is a long time between us, and there are many opportunities. "

"Who is Fang Chang?"

I was stunned for a moment, but Qiao Jiao was already laughing. Her mood didn't seem that bad, so I didn't care so much about not getting a ticket.

Qiao Jiao really didn't worry about it anymore. She simply turned off the mobile phone she used to pay for air tickets, and then ended the video call with me, saying she was going for a walk on the street with her mother.

Compared with other women, she is still free and easy after all, and isn't it the free and easy energy in her that I like.

Therefore, I also forced myself to be more free and easy, and not let myself be trapped by those unknown things. As for whether I can find my parents, whether I will spend thirty nights alone, just let nature take its course.

I chose to let nature take its course, and I no longer had any worries in my heart, so it didn't take long before I fell into a deep sleep.

……

Early the next morning, after having a simple breakfast, I sat on the bench across the street from the scrap collection station again. I was a little bored and a little numb; boring because I was really alone, and numb. It's because I don't look forward to it anymore. After all, this waste collection station has closed down. Even if that person is my dad, he will most likely never come again. No matter whether he is doing well now or not, as the Chinese New Year is approaching, he should also Like others, in addition to rest, we also need to prepare some New Year matters.

I still have a few pieces of the warm baby I bought in Luxi yesterday. I put one on my belly and another on my chest to resist the low temperature caused by the haze; Tianjin really hasn’t changed much, especially the fog. The frequent occurrence of haze makes it difficult to see the very refreshing and clean sunshine in winter. The haze always makes the city gloomy and cold.

At this moment, I really have nothing to do, so I can only face the haze and mentally figure out what kind of New Year’s Eve dinner I’m going to have tomorrow night.

If you're not in the mood, most likely it's still the same as before, just eat some instant noodles to celebrate the New Year. …

I don’t know if it was due to Ren Ran’s influence, but I seemed to fall in love with making video calls. Guessing that Qiao Jiao was still asleep, I made another video call to her...

This time, she was not in her own home. It seemed that her mother had taken her to someone else's home as a guest. At this moment, she was at the dinner table with a table of Hunan cuisine. Qiao Jiao told me that the owner of the family was originally from Hunan. He immigrated there the year before last and followed her. Mom has become a neighbor, and now the two families have a very good relationship. They get together for dinner from time to time, and this year they even agreed to have a New Year's Eve dinner together.

Qiao Jiao asked me again what I had eaten for lunch. I pointed the camera at the closed scrap collection station and told her that she was lonely after eating the smog.

……

Because Qiao Jiao was a guest at someone else's house, the video call didn't last long. After hanging up, I just sat like this all morning, and the two pieces of baby warmers attached to my belly and chest gradually lost their warmth.

I really wanted to go back to the hotel room and take a hot bath, but I was unwilling to do so. I was afraid that my dad would come or pass by when I was taking a bath.

Sometimes, being too persistent is really torturous, because you will keep betting on the odds in your mind, and then regard this unreliable probability as a reason to persist.

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It was this kind of persistence that forced me to persist at the door of this scrap collection station until the evening of New Year's Eve. Looking at the gradually darkening sky and the lights that turned on because of the reunion, that feeling came back to me. There was a heavy feeling of loneliness, which reminded me of those thirty nights I spent on the road...

Just when it was getting dark, I saw several private cars picking up the elderly from the countryside. The children were particularly happy to see the elderly and called their grandparents affectionately. The grandparents were busy giving red envelopes to their father. Mom was carrying all kinds of New Year's goods in her hands. I seemed to have seen the scene of their family gathered around the TV, eating New Year's Eve dinner and watching the Spring Festival Gala.

I lit a cigarette and just watched with concentration.

Suddenly, I thought of the Spring Festival Gala again. It was because of the Spring Festival Gala that Lu Xi left. Since I was so bored and lonely, why not watch the Spring Festival Gala with Lu Xi’s performance to kill time?
So, I searched the Spring Festival Gala program online.

……

I don’t know what happened in the middle. I didn’t see Lu Xi’s name in this program list, but I saw Zuo Xiaowei instead. Zuo Xiaowei is obviously in Thailand!

At this moment, some daring person secretly set off firecrackers in Tianjin, where fireworks are strictly prohibited...

I looked for the sound, but couldn't find the source, but I saw Luxi standing not far away!

This time, she did not wear a baseball cap, but a red hat with ears. The words "Gong Xi Fa Cai" and mahjong were printed on the hat, which are all elements related to the New Year.

I don’t know where she bought it from, so I just looked at her, watching her walk towards me little by little. Wherever she walked, even the haze seemed to disappear, and what I saw were stars. It is the most beautiful spring, and she is obsessed but still gentle.

(End of this chapter)