i'm not a bad man

Chapter 399
After making sure that the third child was not trying to stop me, I slowed down and turned to look at him. His hair was completely wet from the rain and his feet were all muddy. I must be no better than him. But I don’t think that I have surpassed his courage to climb the knife ladder. The reason why he said this was just to distract me so that I would not be too nervous. I was indeed too nervous, and alone When you are too nervous, you will definitely make wrong judgments.

I have already done one thing wrong. I should have gone out with a raincoat. If I didn’t have a raincoat and an umbrella, I wouldn’t have been caught in the rain like this. Moreover, I also made the third child suffer with me. Lu Xi has a kind of care that transcends everything, but he and Lu Xi are just casual acquaintances who have met once. There is no reason for him to be like me.

In the rain, I finally spoke to the third child with some apology: "Go back and sit in the car... I just want to confirm if she is on this road. It's enough to go alone for this kind of thing."

"You haven't answered my question yet."

The third child followed me at the same pace as before, but this time, I was successfully distracted by him. After pondering for a while, I finally faced his question and replied: "Although she is not my girlfriend , but she is the woman I once liked... We failed to be together, not because of conflicts, nor because of incompatibility, nor because of..."

I couldn't say the third reason, I just said: "I don't hate her, but I owe her a lot... Therefore, I value her safety more than anything else, and she is no less important than Regarding your heritage and beliefs, we may not live together, or even have no intersection in our lives, but she must be safe and live a better life than me."

"You said that...I remembered a word I saw in a book a few days ago, which is called love without success."

"It's not as regretful as you said. We all accepted the result peacefully... Besides, there is another equally important woman beside me."

The third child was silent for a while, and then said: "I also saw a saying about red roses and white roses in a book, which said that a man will meet two women in his life, one is passionate, is a symbol of youth, and is The source of happiness can bring a man a feeling of youthfulness and happiness; the other is the moonlight in the heart, which is a symbol of purity and a flower on the high mountain that can be seen from a distance but not played with... So, your current dilemma is that you are at the same time In love with red roses and white roses.”

I unconsciously slowed down a little, and then I said to the third child: "Do you like reading books?"

"I usually have a lot of free time. Sometimes when I go up the mountain to collect herbs, I can sit on the mountain and watch it all day."

"Really?... Third brother, to be honest, I envy your return-to-nature life. We live in the city and rarely have the opportunity to come into contact with nature. Our lives have long been dominated by various electronic products. There is also a lot of junk information... Just like me, after leaving college, I have never been in the mood to read physical books, but you can sit on the mountain and read for a day, and the channel for making money is the closest to nature. There are very few people who can live like you now!"

"Chao, you have talked to me so much, but you are actually avoiding the topic of red roses and white roses..."

I have long said that Lao San is definitely not a stupid man because he has no contact with the outside world. On the contrary, his mind is very delicate. This delicateness makes it impossible for me to get through in front of him; finally, I could only say to him honestly after a period of silence: "What I avoid is not the topic of red roses and white roses. What I really don't want to face is the matter of falling in love with two women at the same time... This will make me look very ugly." Not dedicated..." After a short pause, I said to the third child in a lower voice: "Since I became an adult, I have had relationships with many women, but this is the first time I have fallen in love with two women at the same time... I didn’t know how to deal with this state, and even felt a little embarrassed, so after choosing one, I treated the other with special indifference to prove that I was very sober and dedicated.”

"The one you are indifferent to is the one you are looking for now?"

"Yes... Third child, do you also think that I am confused, embarrassed, and dishonest?" "It's not embarrassing... If every man was so dedicated, there would be no white roses and red roses. Let me explain...your problem is that you did not stagger these two women in time, it can also be said that there is no room for space..."

The words of the third child simply spoke to my heart, so that the extremely nervous mood was slightly relieved by this understanding: "Yes, I couldn't stagger the time. The time I met them was before and after. It was only wrong by less than half a month... In terms of space, it was even worse... You know, they are both from Qingdao, and they have been best friends for almost 20 years!"

"Actually, all three of you are in pain, right?"

"I don't know how they feel. It's really painful for me. I always need to fantasize about the future in order to forget the regrets with another person... Lao San, I'm really not narcissistic. Sometimes I also wonder why they Everyone likes me, and I actually have nothing special about me."

The third child thought for a while and replied: "I read it in another book. This is also a manifestation of empathy... If you think about it, why they can be friends for so long must be because they have the same values ​​and The concept of love... Therefore, it is easy for best friends to fall in love with a man at the same time. This is not an exception, but a common phenomenon. "

"So you are the real relationship expert!"

"Don't put your hat on me. I haven't even dated a girlfriend. In fact, it's a typical case of theory being greater than practice." (Who do you think you will choose in the end? Follow Tank himself and send a message to the public account: ***, reply "Harem" to see the answer. You can also view the latest chapter)
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During the conversation, Lao San and I walked quickly for nearly five kilometers. I think Lao San wanted to use this method to relieve my anxiety. He knew that in such a scene where I didn’t know anything, I Anxiety is not helpful.

The rain still showed no sign of stopping, and the third child and I were already soaked by the rain. On such a rainy night, which was not yet fully spring, and in the mountains, the cold was so cold that it penetrated the bones.I can only pray that Lu Xi and the village party secretary will not be blocked at the front. Maybe Lao San and I can meet them if we walk another ten kilometers.

At this time, we encountered another car that made a U-turn. This time it was even more exaggerated. It was an Iveco passenger car that was much larger than a small car. It was estimated that the people in the car had lost their mentality, so they did this. It was a completely reckless decision, and the result was that because there was not enough space for passing cars, the way was blocked by a large truck in the opposite direction, blocking the entire road and blocking the way for me and the third child.

I was in a hurry to get on my way, so I spoke a little impatiently. The bus driver was even more angry because of the traffic jam, and a verbal conflict broke out between the two of them. The bus driver was unwilling to reverse the car at all, so give me He and Lao San made room for each other as they passed by.

I had no time and no mood to argue with him, so I was going to pass by the side of the big truck, which was the side next to the cliff... I checked visually and found that the body of the big truck was about [-] centimeters away from the cliff. The distance can be covered as long as you are careful.

I have a slight fear of heights, but compared to my worries about Luxi, I overcame this fear abruptly. To be precise, I either overcame it or gritted my teeth and faced the difficulties. So when I made up my mind, My legs had already begun to tremble slightly. For me, this fear was no less frightening than imagining myself climbing up the knife ladder that the third child had climbed.

(End of this chapter)