i'm not a bad man

Chapter 393 Am I really a passionate man?

Before seeing this short video, I swear, I had no idea that Lu Xi had ever issued such a statement, and after meeting, Lu Xi never mentioned this matter to me...

I tried to figure out why Lu Xi did this, but when I remembered that she was gone, I felt that such speculation was meaningless, but the sadness and sadness in my heart were so real.

How could I forget that between Qiao Jiao and Lu Xi, I liked Lu Xi first; now, when I look back on that love, I still feel it is a kind of beauty, because in my emotional experience, She was the first and only woman I fell in love with at first sight.

To be precise, after I left her room, I sat under the giant billboard and watched her in the commercial, moving freely and agilely in the snow, and I developed a kind of love and appreciation out of control. It can be considered infinitely close to love at first sight.I have imagined more than once, how would I feel if such a woman could be my girlfriend and a lifelong partner?
Satisfied, I will feel very satisfied. I even feel that this sense of satisfaction is enough to subvert the nature of my life and transform me from a tragic figure into a lucky child.

But one day, when this fantasy was about to become reality, I gave up.

Of course there are regrets, but I don’t regret it, because in my heart, Qiao Jiao is equally worthy; her enthusiasm and fearlessness are like a bright light, illuminating my life and making me no longer afraid of loneliness and darkness. About Qiao Jiao, I am also looking forward to it in my heart. This kind of expectation is like fire, like sunshine, like flashing neon, hot and blurry!
……

Perhaps it was because the wind was so comfortable that I gradually developed a strong sense of dependence on this originally joyless tractor compartment. So after finding a comfortable position, I sat in the compartment and looked around until The phone rang again...but this time, it was calm, because I felt that this was probably a work-related call.

I picked it up and looked at it, but it was a video call from Ren Ran. After settling in Phuket, she seemed to like this way of communicating with me face to face.

When the video was turned on, the picture was dynamic. Ren Ran seemed to be driving a convertible sports car. Coconut trees, clouds, hot air balloons, and tourists surfing on the beach all quickly moved back in the camera. The sound of the wind even overshadowed the car's engine. Voice.

Ren Ran pointed the phone camera at himself again and raised the windows on both sides, and the wind noise became less.

Ren Ran in the camera loses some of the nobility she once had, but she looks high-spirited. If I want to be more accurate, she no longer relies on packaging herself with various luxury goods. But she also found herself because of it... At this moment, she was only wearing a simple halter top and denim shorts, without any brand-name accessories, and her face was white and rosy. This was In my opinion, it is a display of mood.

Sure enough, Ren Ran on the screen gave me a toothy smile, and then said to me: "Guess where I'm going now."

"I haven't even been to such a big island, Phuket. Aren't you making things difficult for me?"

"The place I asked you to guess must be a place you know. Make a good guess."

I thought for a moment and replied, "I heard that it's a shopping paradise. You should be on your way to the duty-free shop."

"Duty-free shops are aimed at tourists. As a person who has already settled there, why would I go to a duty-free shop when I have nothing to do?"

"Then I really don't know."

Ren Ran smacked his lips and sighed: "Have you been too depressed recently, which has restricted your thinking... Since I asked you to guess the destination in a strange city, it must be the airport."

It dawned on me and I immediately asked, "Are you planning to return to China?"

"Look at you, your thinking is restricted again. Why do I have to go back to my country when I get to the airport instead of picking up someone?... If I really plan to return to my country, I will definitely go back quietly and then give you a surprise, so I don't Will expose myself now.”

"Who are you picking up?"

"It must be someone you know. Guess again."

I slapped my hand heavily on my head and sighed: "Sister Ran, please don't embarrass me. My IQ is really not enough right now."

Ren Ran still refused to say who the person he wanted to pick up was. Instead, he changed the topic and said to me: "Looking at where you are surrounded by mountains, you must have arrived in Hunan, right?"

"It's here, it was here yesterday."

"Then I must ask you how you feel now."

I looked confused, and after a while I replied: "I don't know how to describe it...it seems very relaxed, but also very lost." "Why are you relaxed, and why are you feeling lost?"

I lit a cigarette and looked at the scenery in front of me. It seemed that the mountain was still the same mountain and the wind was still the same. Even the clouds did not move. Then I felt that Luxi had not gone too far.

I finally spoke to Ren Ran on the other end of the phone: "Before I came to Hunan, I didn't even dare to think about it...but I still met Luxi on the road."

"She also went to Hunan!?"

"Well, I was driving from Qingdao to Hunan alone, and there was a car accident on the most difficult winding mountain road."

Ren Ran, who had always been smiling on the other end of the phone, suddenly fell into silence. After a moment, he spoke to me and said, "I actually feel sorry for her!"

I felt some empathy and echoed in a low voice: "At that time...seeing her car getting stuck between the truck and the mountain, I felt really uncomfortable...but..."

"But you didn't say anything, not even a word of comfort."

"Sister Ran, I don't want to be like this, but I have my own situation... I don't want to put myself in a dilemma between her and Qiao Jiao."

"Then you can be more cruel and scold her, say she's blind and arrogant, say she's just looking for trouble..."

"In this case, I can't say it."

"Of course you can't say it. After all, she is the woman you once liked so much. What's more... from her point of view, she didn't do anything wrong. It was you who made unreasonable suspicions about her feelings for that man. emotions, but it happened to be another man who made you feel unconfident... But at this time, Qiao Jiao said some heartfelt love words to you again, so the balance in your heart became unbalanced... If your guess is Correct, there won't be so many troubles and embarrassments, but you are completely wrong. Not only did Lu Xi follow your footsteps to Hunan, but before she came, she also declared her relationship with that man to the media with harsh words. ...If she just clarifies her relationship with that man, it can be regarded as a common practice in the entertainment industry. After all, popular female stars do not want to be involved in scandals. The so-called refutation of rumors is actually a routine matter... However, she not only clarified her relationship with that man She has a relationship with a man, and she also told the media that she already has a crush on her... People all over the world can not know who the man in her heart is, but you, Han Chao, can't pretend to be stupid, right?"

"Why are you saying these things to the media?"

"She is a star. For her, this is the most firm confession, and it is also a confession that leaves no way for herself to fall back... You can think about it, if one day, she is really with that man. , when the public thinks of her confession, will they think that she is a woman who goes back on her word and is flirtatious? She clearly said that she was just an ordinary friend, and clearly said that her heart belongs to her... So, she took the initiative to cut off being with that man. Every possibility that exists emotionally.”

I fell into silence again.

At this time, Ren Ran asked me again: "Are you together now?"

"No, she left half an hour ago."

"It means that you didn't speak clearly during the night you were together."

"It seems that I said it, but it seems that I didn't say it."

"The reason why you feel this way is probably because you don't want to face it... But from my point of view, Qiao Jiao and Lu Xi are both good girls, but one is emotional and the other is rational... Of course Lu Xi She is the rational one, at least when she wants to express her feelings, she will worry about her feelings with Qiao Jiao, but Qiao Jiao will not. She will not regret it until after the incident, and realize that she may have done something wrong. , I’m probably also neglecting you at this time.”

I was so surprised that I replied after a while: "How come you know everything?"

Ren Ran said to me sternly: "Don't forget, your sister Ran also came from that age. I definitely understand a woman's mind better than you..." After a short pause, Ren Ran sighed and said to me: "You I'm afraid this year won't be stable... You might as well listen to me and come to Phuket for vacation early, give yourself some space, and give them some space. After everyone calms down, maybe you can get the best results... And It’s not like you put an already complicated emotion on an impulsive choice..."

I took a deep breath of cigarette and became thoughtful.

"Falling in love with two people at the same time, and both of them having a crush on you, is probably the most uncomfortable and contradictory thing in the world... But what can you do? Who made you destined to be a passionate man... …”

Listening to Ren Ran's concluding speech, I seem to be even more confused!
Ren Ran is really a "bad guy". Every time he chats with me, it seems to just make me more confused and self-doubt.

Am I really a passionate man?
(End of this chapter)