i'm not a bad man

Chapter 391 Just because she is Lu Xi

After breakfast, Lu Xi and I went with my godfather and godmother to the venue where the sacrificial ceremony was held. There were many decorations on the venue that we couldn’t understand, but the most eye-catching thing was the knife ladder, which was built deep into the sky. On the cliff at the bottom of the mountain; this is a very important ceremony. All the villagers who came to participate in this ceremony wore unique costumes of the Miao people. Together they faced the dazzling sunshine and looked at the ladder that was about to rise into the sky. People were talking and whispering privately, with solemn and solemn expressions...

Lu Xi and I also followed their gaze and looked at the ladder together. I am a person with a slight fear of heights. I remembered that the third child would have to climb up the ladder with bare feet and bare hands without any protective measures. At the top, my scalp was numb and I felt extremely guilty. I felt that this was something I could never do, no matter what the circumstances.

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After standing for a moment, there was finally some sound in the crowd. Then I looked towards the entrance of the venue. It was Lao San coming with his basket on his back. The basket was filled with steel knives that he had polished several times. These steel knives were The knife shone with a sharp cold light in the sunlight.

If we hadn’t traveled to so many places, it would be hard to imagine that in this society where technology and civilization have become highly developed, such ancient rituals would still be preserved. Speaking of which, this is not the charm of travel. Otherwise, it will only be in this life. I can live in a limited space, look at the tall buildings, look at the neon lights, look at the busy streets, but forget what faith is, what courage is, and what inheritance is.

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The farewell ceremony for the old master is called "Nuo Opera", which combines Buddhism, Taoism and Miao witchcraft culture. After the ceremony began, a bonfire was lit and the drums and harps sounded...

In my opinion, this is not only a farewell to the old mage, but also a way to cheer for the new mage. I specially observed everyone’s expressions at this time. In addition to the continued solemnity and solemnity, there was also a hint of nervousness and Uneasy, I even saw a toddler in the crowd holding a feeding bottle, looking at the third child without blinking, as if he was frozen.

Under everyone's gaze, the third child puffed up his cheeks and exhaled heavily. Then after rubbing his hands, he picked up a piece of bamboo pole and swung it at the steel knife. The bamboo pole instantly broke into two pieces. It can be seen that the steel knife How sharp.

Before going up the ladder to heaven, the third child carried a huge bell on his back. My godfather whispered to Lu Xi and me that this is called the "Master's Sword". The Miao people believe that this is a psychic weapon, and only one " "Master's Sword" is held high in the place closest to the sky and shaken to send away the soul of the deceased.

Here, death is such a dignified thing, so in my godfather’s words, Lu Xi and I’s faces became a little more solemn and we gradually integrated into this atmosphere.

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The long-term migration and hardships of the Miao people have made the Miao family more convinced of bravery. Therefore, when the third child climbed up the knife ladder, there was no exclamation or noise, only silent conviction. In their hearts, this is something that must be done. Although extremely dangerous...

But we who come from the city are thinking about whether it is worth it and whether it is necessary to maintain this custom, because it is really too dangerous, especially when you see it with your own eyes, watching the third child’s feet stepping on the sharp On the steel knife, every step was taken carefully, as if a slight gust of wind could blow him off the knife ladder, and there was no retreat under him, only a bottomless cliff.

Anyway, I was sweating all the time, and Lu Xi was holding on to my sleeve, and I couldn’t bear to look at it.

In fact, we who come from the city have no way to really integrate into this custom.

This ritual has lasted for hundreds of years, and it is not without a mage who slipped and fell from the knife ladder and died.

For such a ceremony, my mentality changed several times, from curiosity to awe at the beginning, and then to thinking and thinking about the value of this ceremony when the third child actually climbed up the knife ladder.

This change in state of mind can only be truly experienced by being there. This is a very subtle change, but it does not come out of thin air. It has a reason.

At this moment, I couldn't help but think of my feelings for Lu Xi again.

It also started from curiosity, to appreciation, admiration, and finally, because of the changing environment around me, it turned into thinking again.

The root cause of all this is that I didn’t regard being together as something that I had to do. But until now, I haven’t figured out why I didn’t regard being together as a thing since we loved each other so passionately. It is something that must be done.

Just because she is Lu Xi?

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In a brief trance, Lao San had already climbed to the top of the knife ladder on the steel knife. At this time, he finally took off the "master's knife" on his back and shook it with all his strength...

The valley was filled with the echo of bells, bidding farewell to the old mage and welcoming the new mage and the good weather they expected; only then did the crowd burst into cheers that resounded throughout the world, as if they were completely released, released of glory and conviction.

Everything looked so powerful, Lu Xi and I couldn't help but clap along. My mood changed again at this time. I no longer viewed this ceremony with a negative attitude, because when the third child climbed to the knife ladder, When he is at the top, he is like the person closest to the sky in the world, and he also makes death dignified. When death becomes dignified, it does not seem to be a terrible thing.

When a ritual can alleviate a person's fear of death and bring endless vitality, can its value be denied?

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After returning to her residence, Lu Xi began to pack her luggage; in fact, she did not bring many things, only a small suitcase containing her clothes and other daily necessities, so within a few minutes, she It was packed up, and I stood beside her and watched...

"Why do you keep looking at me?"

The moment Lu Xi closed the suitcase, he finally asked me.

"I'll take you out of that winding mountain road... I don't trust you driving alone."

"Then how did you come back?"

"I'm hitchhiking back... I'm not afraid of not meeting you. There are so many cars on the road rushing back to celebrate the New Year." "I know this is a very painful and troublesome thing, why do I have to let you suffer again after following me? What about once?”

"Didn't you come to this place because of me?"

Lu Xi then looked at me. She was holding a baseball cap in her hand with a complicated expression, but in the end she forced a smile and said, "I did it for the promise I made to Luan Yu, and now the promise has been fulfilled... between us. It doesn't matter anymore... Some things, if you don't deal with them calmly enough, you will really think about them more and more... But calm down and think about it, Jiaojiao is indeed the most suitable person for you... I have nothing to be unwilling to do... ...Actually, in the more than ten years that Jiaojiao and I have known each other, I have not done as well as her in anything we deliberately wanted to compare with, because as long as she wants to do something well, she will become a full-fledged The person who came before... I will envy her, but not jealous... So, you don't have to have any unnecessary emotions, treat her well, and treat yourself well..."

"Ah."

Lu Xi put on his baseball cap and picked up his suitcase.

I hurriedly took over her suitcase, wanting to finally help her bear some of it.

Lu Xi glanced at me again, and then walked out of the house before me. My godfather and godmother were standing outside the house...

"Xiaolu, are you ready to leave now?"

"Well, uncle and aunt... take care of your health. If you have the opportunity to go to BJ in the future, remember to contact me."

My godfather looked at me and nodded, because it was clear enough that she was not my girlfriend, Qiao Jiao was.

My godfather suddenly remembered something, and he hurriedly said to Lu Xi: "If you are not familiar with the mountain roads here, don't drive out by yourself... The village party secretary said that he has to go to Changsha to do something in the afternoon, so you can go with his car. Let’s go to Changsha… wouldn’t it be more convenient to fly from Changsha?”

This was what I was most worried about, so I hurriedly echoed: "Just go with the village party secretary's car. I'll find a way to check your car for you later."

Lu Xi nodded and accepted the proposal, and it can be seen from this that she is in a very calm mood now and is not competing with me, nor is she deliberately trying to make me feel uneasy.

Just when I was about to drive her down the mountain, she focused on my godfather's tractor, and then said to me: "Han Chao, can you use uncle's car to send me down?" ?”

I was stunned for a moment, but it was indeed not a difficult thing to do, so I nodded and asked my godfather for the key. He said it was a key, but it was actually a big rocker.

It took some effort for me to start the tractor, then put Lu Xi's luggage in the carriage and helped Lu Xi into the car.

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After a simple farewell, I drove the tractor down the mountain. I turned around and looked at Lu Xi. She didn't sit down, but stood behind me, holding on to the railing. There was some novelty in her eyes as if she was riding a tractor for the first time. .

All sounds were drowned out by the roar of the tractor, the wind was also strong, and Lu Xi’s baseball cap was in danger of being blown away by the wind; and I didn’t expect that when she came, she drove the navigator, but when she left, It is a tractor with no roof and no windows, but the view is extremely wide...

"Han Chao, do you still remember your promise to write two songs for me?"

Over the noise, I almost shouted back, "Remember."

"You don't have to write it for me... If you sing a song that suits the occasion, our agreement will be cancelled."

When Lu Xi took the initiative to cancel the agreement, it was a kind of farewell that tried to clear away all relationships. I can accept this kind of farewell, so I am willing to sing a song for her at this time, but what kind of song is considered a suitable song? Woolen cloth?

Tractors, countryside surrounded by fields, and two people who were about to say goodbye, these keywords appeared in my mind.

I really thought of such a song, so I said loudly to Lu Xi: "There really is such a song, but it's a little bit funny. Are you sure you want to listen to it?"

"You are a wicked person to begin with."

"Not only is it bad taste, but it's also a bit immoral."

"I never thought you were passing by... hurry up and sing, we will be at the bottom of the mountain soon."

I let go of all the emotions in my heart and turned myself into a blank. I also forgot that the woman standing behind me was so beautiful that at first I thought she came from the stars and the world. I also forgot that she was at the forefront of the trend. Female star.

In the howling wind, I sang at the top of my voice: "Let's break up with you at the pier together. I'm going to break up with you soon. The urging sirens drowned my sorrow and I couldn't stop the tears from flowing. It's not that my brother doesn't love you, because I I am from a rural area. I can only support myself with my annual income, so how can I care about you? I want to fight for you. No matter how hard and tired I am, I will never look back. As long as you wait patiently for me, I will succeed one day; When I move to the city, I will pick you up in my Mercedes..."

The song was floating in the wind, but I never dared to look back at Lu Xi’s expression.
Even if I get to this point, I don't want her to label me as vulgar and immoral...

I must be crazy to think of this song. I am an original singer who can play various musical instruments and play high-end music!
But when I think of the countryside and look at the walking tractor controlled by myself, I think of this song and nothing else...

(End of this chapter)