i'm not a bad man

Chapter 344 We are all bosses
In fact, when I can't give a definite answer, it is already an answer, because the most sincere love must be without thinking, but the love between me and Luan Yu does not seem so sincere, at least we have both I have chosen and been chosen in this relationship. Even more than a year after she left, I once felt that I no longer had any feelings for her. It was impossible for me to have those feelings explode in my heart just because of her sudden death. This kind of desperate love, the reason why I am heartbroken is more because of that time together. During that time, I was sure that I loved her, but I also had some reservations about my love. Therefore, I I never thought about giving her a home.

Pain, in addition to the lack of pure love, and the regret of inaction, these finally made me no longer ambiguous, so I opened my mouth and said to Lu Xi, who had been waiting for my answer: "In the two years we were together, she was my My favorite woman... After she left, this love was gradually consumed by incomprehension and resentment due to misunderstanding... The love that has been consumed, even if the misunderstanding is resolved later, will never come back. Rekindling... is like a lighter. The love between two people is the fuel. When the fuel is exhausted, it is impossible to ignite it again... But it cannot be denied that when the fuel is still sufficient, the relationship between us The most dazzling sparks indeed burst out during this period... Therefore, those 296 cities and the experiences along the way all represent my youth, and she can already be equated to my youth."

After a short silence, Lu Xi replied: "I understand, you are actually a person who needs companionship very much, so your biggest need for love is companionship. Once you lose this companionship, you will become very reason."

"Who doesn't like companionship? If you can't even be accompanied, can it still be called love?"

Lu Xi's face looked a little solemn, so that his voice seemed a little low: "Yes, in addition to being a spiritual belief, love also needs to blossom... Without companionship, it means there is no sunshine and No matter how beautiful the flower is, it will never bloom due to rain.”

After saying that, Lu Xi sat on the sofa in the living room before me. She looked at the 160-square-meter house again, not knowing what she was thinking.

I sat down on the dining chair opposite the sofa. After a while, Lu Xi said to me again: "If you really want to sell this house, you can sell it... But there is no need for Luan Yu to No matter what you have to pay, Luan Yu doesn't need you to pay anything, so she didn't mention her parents in her last words to you. She doesn't want you to live in regret because you were the chosen one in the first place. Wake up, you are also a victim of this relationship. You two did not meet the right person, which caused this tragedy. In fact, neither of you is wrong... Moreover, I have promised Luan Yu that I will take good care of her. Parents, so according to Luan Yu's wishes, we each have our own division of labor... As for the money from selling the house..."

Lu Xi seemed to think for a while and then continued to say to me: "Give it to those who need it... those people who need help you meet on the road. You have traveled through 296 cities in total. Idiots must not be the only ones." A tragedy... You are actually a very idealistic person at heart. Looking at these tragedies, you are powerless and must feel very uncomfortable... Therefore, 296 cities may seem beautiful, but they are also accompanied by many shortcomings. Use this money to make up for these shortcomings, and then give yourself a better memory, a memory that only belongs to you and Luan Yu, this is more meaningful than anything else."

I looked at Lu Xi with mixed feelings in my heart; among all the people I knew, she was probably the only one who would give me such advice. If it was Ren Ran, she would definitely not let me hold this set with great difficulty. If I get a house to pay for my idealism, she will only tell me that you have matured and everything in the rest of your life should be built around starting a family and starting a business.

Neither can Zuo Xiaowei. To a certain extent, she has some similarities with Luan Yu. If she is not extremely talented, she must be a singer. In fact, she is also a woman who wants stability, so she will This house is regarded as a treasure in life, and there is no way I would be advised to sell it.

Qiao Jiao is a woman who can be influenced by her own mood. She may or may not, it all depends on her mood. Therefore, only Lu Xi in front of me is firm. She seems to know what my deepest needs are better than anyone else. , but this kind of demand is somewhat difficult to mention in today's social environment where everyone has too much time to take care of themselves, because it will be regarded as a fool by others; therefore, I just think about it in my heart and have never put it into practice.

In my silence, Lu Xi said to me again: "Can you tell me more about the people you met on the road?... It doesn't have to be about like-minded people, or simple tragedies, as long as they have had some understanding of you. Anyone who affects it can talk about it.”

I habitually lit up a cigarette because the amount of information involved was too huge, so when I was about to finish smoking the cigarette, I said to Lu Xi: "There is such a person. We met when we were... It was also because the car broke down. I knew a little about car repair skills, so I helped him repair the car... That night, he invited me and Luan Yu to dinner, and during the chat we learned that he was from a pharmaceutical factory. Boss, in fact, I deeply respect this kind of boss who treats diseases and saves people, so I have been chatting with him about his career... As we chatted, I talked about the doctor named Liu Jiujin who cured Yu Li's eyes. , I told him that Liu Jiujin is an authority in this industry, and he is also a big brother who has a very good relationship with me... He became interested and said that he wanted to use Liu Jiujin's connections and authority in the medical industry to promote his own drugs... He said that as long as I can successfully connect people, he can give me 20 yuan in benefits... He also told me that their pharmaceutical factory is a very powerful pharmaceutical factory. In recent years, it has bought from the private sector, medical institutions, and colleges and universities. He had countless effective prescriptions and the reserves were very sufficient... Since they were all effective prescriptions, I was a little confused, so I asked him: Since there are so many effective prescriptions, why are there so many chronic diseases that cannot be treated well? , what about those who need long-term medication?... He smiled at me, and then said meaningfully: Xiao Han, you have to know that good medicine is not a good commodity..."

I added another cigarette, took a deep breath, and then said to Lu Xi: "Do you know how I felt when I heard this sentence? I just felt that my world view had been subverted. I know this sentence What the words meant, but I wanted to hear him say it himself, so I asked patiently: What kind of medicine is considered a good product?... He said, the kind of medicine that makes you feel better once you take it, but relapses if you don't take it. , is called a good product... I admit, I was an angry young man at the time. I exploded when I heard this sentence. I slammed the table and yelled at him... I couldn't stand others subverting my world view... This is medicine. , is something that can cure diseases and save lives. As such an influential pharmaceutical factory owner, he actually created a set of such values ​​for himself when doing business... Later, I learned that there are many diseases in this world, not We had no choice. It was just because the prescriptions were blocked by certain interest groups that there were so many illusions that they could not be cured... After such a confrontation, of course the matter was not settled. That night, Luan Yu and I There were some arguments, and she felt that I was too angry. If this had become the norm, my anger would only appear childish and naive, but I really didn’t feel that I had done anything wrong, at least I didn’t feel that I did anything wrong at that time. I did it wrong... I can't help that kind of person to sell drugs..." "So, you lost 20... 20. For you at the time, it could have solved a lot of conflicts."

"Yes...if I can successfully pull the strings, I will not only get 20, but also very likely to become his confidant. During the conversation, he said more than once that my resources are very useful to him. He I hope I can stay with him and help him do things... Looking back now, if I had agreed to him at that time, Luan Yu and I would have had a completely different fate than now, because at that time, I was closest to Luan Yu. The kind of life you want..."

Lu Xi sighed heavily and replied: "The world is like this. If you don't want to follow the crowd, it's hard to be alone...So, people like you are destined to live in pain, because your expectations of this world are really too high. , you will continue to doubt and be disappointed..."

"You are right, but now I have looked away... Since I don't have the ability to change the world, then I will be myself... From now on, I will sponsor a leukemia patient every year to prevent them from living in this world. Faced with the despair of death because of lack of money..."

Lu Xi smiled, and then said to me in a tone of making a decision: "I agree...Brother Chao, let's do this together. I will also sponsor a leukemia patient every year...Although I can't save all sentient beings, I can Saving one is one..."

I looked at Luxi and felt a warmth in my heart. The reason why I felt so warm was because I felt that there was finally someone in this world who could truly understand me and prevent my kindness from turning into a kind of kindness. Acting like a fool.

This burst of warmth almost made me lose my ability to express myself, and Lu Xi clapped his hands again at this time and said: "Let's go, let's go to the hospital now... You are the boss, I am your follower, let's go on a journey together Honesty."

"I...I don't have that much money now."

"I have it."

"Then you should be the boss and I should be the follower."

"You are my spiritual boss, I am your material boss, we are both bosses."

(End of this chapter)