i'm not a bad man

Chapter 321 Give me a cigarette

The flashing landscape lights by the river made me feel a little dazed, so Zuo Xiaowei's face was not so clear in my sight; she seemed a little helpless and a little sad. I didn't know if this was a true portrayal of her heart. , if so, I will regret this, because staying in the small town is already my unswerving will, so I will not change anything for her...

I found that on such a deserted night, I especially needed cigarettes to save my mood, so I lit another cigarette in front of Zuo Xiaowei, took a deep breath, and then said to her: "You should side with Guan Yubo. He is your childhood friend, your friend for more than ten years, and your current boyfriend. Emotions must be light and heavy. I can understand you."

After saying this, I closed my eyes hard and opened them again, and then I saw everything in front of me clearly. Zuo Xiaowei was indeed a little helpless and a little sad.

Zuo Xiaowei noticed that I was staring at her, so she turned around and lay on the guardrail. The wind blew her long hair into a mess, but with short hair, I only felt a bone-chilling chill, and subconsciously put my hand on On the head...

I want to grow my hair long again, in such a small town where it is extremely cold in winter.

"The wind in the small town was too strong this year, blowing away many people and leaving a lot of regrets..."

I looked at Zuo Xiaowei, who still had her back to me, and felt confused. I didn't know why she suddenly said this to me.

She took a long breath and whispered to me: "Han Chao, you once told me that no matter what kind of pain, it will pass one day. After so many things have happened, do you still think so? ?”

"I still think that any pain will disappear one day, but time is a machine that creates pain. As long as you are still alive, there will be new pain. Pain and death are the only justice given by God... So , after having this understanding, I am not so afraid of pain...Life is nothing more than ups and downs, joys and sorrows."

Zuo Xiaowei shook her head and smiled. I thought she would continue the topic, but she changed the topic and said to me: "Give me a cigarette."

"I remember you don't seem to have the habit of smoking."

"So I want you to teach me, just like you taught Sister Ran to smoke... Sometimes, I really envy Sister Ran. She can always get along with you. She asked you to teach her to drink, teach her to smoke, teach her She fisted, but she just didn’t say she liked you... Speaking of which, this is how a woman truly matures..." After a pause, Zuo Xiaowei said to me seriously: "After smoking this cigarette, I also want to be a mature woman like Sister Ran...who can afford to take things up and put them down!"

After saying that, Zuo Xiaowei took the cigarette that I had just lit from my hand, followed my example, held it between her index finger and middle finger, and then held it in her mouth... She did not smoke, but seemed to be Wait for me to teach her.

Maybe I am really a bad man, so I never refuse to teach a woman who wants to smoke to smoke; so, after a short silence, I opened my mouth and said to Zuo Xiaowei: "Don't smoke hard, first gently Take a sip, and after you get used to the smell of cigarettes, you can slowly increase the intensity of your puffs... As for smoking through your lungs, if you inhale too much, you will naturally get it..."

Zuo Xiaowei listened to my words and took a gentle breath. She let the smoke stay in her mouth for a long time before spitting it out, and then took another sharp breath. This eager behavior made her choke on the smoke. , and then a violent cough...

"Are you so anxious to become a mature woman?...You don't really understand Sister Ran's pain."

Zuo Xiaowei looked up at me...

I wanted to explain Ren Ran's pain to her, but I didn't know where to start, so after a while of silence, I just said: "This winter, the wind is not only strong in the small town, but also everywhere, so I blew away a lot of people... Unconsciously, Sister Ran has been gone for more than a month, and I don't know who will leave next... Anyway, even if we go back to Qingdao, those of us who used to play games in bars will People will never gather together again!”

"Ah."

"It's better to smoke less. From now on, you will be a public figure."

After saying this, I didn't wait for Zuo Xiaowei to respond to me, and walked towards the main road against the night and cold wind... Before getting in the car, I turned around and looked at the river again, and Zuo Xiaowei was still standing there. As she stood there, her back looked lonely, as if she had returned to the darkest night in her life...

Poor woman, it's a pity that I don't love her; otherwise I would turn into a flame and stay by her side to warm her.

...When I returned to my residence, I put the lost bracelet in the most secret cabinet in the room, and then made another voice call to Ren Ran, because I needed to talk to her about this matter.

After a while, Ren Ran answered the call, and she said to me in surprise: "If I remember correctly, this should be the first time you have called me since I came to Thailand, right?"

"This is my first time calling you...but you didn't call me either."

Ren Ran smiled and replied: "Just because I don't call doesn't mean I've forgotten you... Speaking of which, we really have a tacit understanding. If you don't call me, I'm going to call you after the restaurant closes." Phone...I also have something to ask you."

"whats the matter?"

"There's no rush. Since you made the call to me first, I'd better let you speak first."

It was a happy thing for me to find the lost bracelet, so I took a deep breath and said in a relaxed tone: "The pair of bracelets you gave me before are back..."

"really?"

"Really, it was Xiaowei who sent it back to me... This pair of bracelets was indeed stolen by her uncle and then sold to Guan Yubo."

Ren Ran fell into silence on the other end of the phone, and after a moment, he spoke to me: "It seems like this Guan Yubo is really a person with evil intentions... I remember the trigger of your breakup with Xiaowei. This is a pair of bracelets."

"Well, it's this pair of bracelets that amplifies the conflict between us."

"It's a pity that the bracelet has been recovered, but the relationship between you and Xiaowei will never be the same again... I heard that she has confirmed the relationship with Guan Yubo as boyfriend and girlfriend."

I fell into silence, and thought again of what Ren Ran said to me when Zuo Xiaowei and I decided to come to the small town; she was strongly opposed to our coming to the small town at the beginning because there were too many right and wrong in the small town, but now she made it clear Prophecy, how can I not feel emotional or sigh in my heart? (Follow the author's Weixin public account: ***, reply "B&B" to view the prototype of Tank Inn B&B. Reply "Lu Xi" and "Qiao Jiao" to view character pictures! You can also view the latest chapters)
But I still don’t regret it, because while I lost something, I also gained a lot in the small town, such as ambition and the possibility of reshaping the future.

At this time, Ren Ran said to me again: "Actually, what I want to call you to talk about is also related to Xiaowei... I have listened to the new album she just released... Although, I am not very She understands music...but I can still tell that the songs in her album are all the ones you have listened to me before...How can she claim to be her original work?...This is too devoid of copyright awareness! "

I recalled a little and suddenly remembered that when Ren Ran and I went back to Tianjin to find my parents, we had listened to her the songs I wrote on the long road; I once thought that no one in the world would know this secret, and I didn’t want to But it left a loophole here!

In order not to cause unnecessary trouble to Zuo Xiaowei, I could only explain to Ren Ran sincerely: "Sister Ran, there is no sense of copyright at all, because these songs were all given to Xiaowei willingly by me. , the competition in the music industry is too fierce now, and she has no background, so by packaging her as an original female singer who is rare in the circle, it will be easier to get ahead... I have never had any intention of entering the circle, so these songs can be regarded as a showcase for her. The real value is much better than being buried in my hands..."

Ren Ran seemed a little unwilling, and she asked again: "Do you really think so?"

"It's absolutely true, that's what I think."

Ren Ran sighed and replied after a long time: "Well, except for love, you have really given everything you can to Xiaowei... If I have to care about gains and losses between you, I think Xiaowei You get more, because a person will experience many relationships in his life. Although you feel sorry for her emotionally, you gave her a career that most people will never have the chance to achieve in their lifetime..."

"Is this your summary of us?...Sister Ran."

"That's right... After all, money is more reliable than love in this world... Regarding this, I'm afraid no one has more say than me... So, I think one day, Xiaowei will let go of her feelings for you. Sad, I really want to thank you."

(End of this chapter)