i'm not a bad man

Chapter 204 Turning Dusk into a Letter

Things had developed to this point by mistake, and I had no choice but to avoid it, so that night, I no longer chose to escape. Chang Yuli and I invited Lu Xi to have hot pot at one of the most famous local hot pot restaurants.

The small town entered winter earlier than Qingdao, and it was freezing outside. The three of us sat in the hot private room and ate spicy hot pot. It was actually a very good enjoyment. Lu Xi did not want to ruin this atmosphere. So she didn't mention the personal matters that I avoided to me at the dinner table. Instead, she talked a lot with Chang Yuli.

It was obvious that she did not dislike Chang Yuli, so the conversation between the two of them extended far and wide, even to the country of Switzerland, because they had both traveled there. While praising the pleasant scenery, they also expressed their nostalgia. On the contrary, as someone who has never been abroad, I am a bit unable to speak.

Speaking of which, Qiao Jiao knew Lu Xi quite well. Her indifference was only relative. When she met someone she didn't dislike, she would become very easy-going.

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An hour later, we finished eating the hot pot, and Chang Yuli gave the space to Lu Xi and me. We walked from the hot pot restaurant to the river, and then took a walk along the river.

This time, it was me who spoke to her first: "I can't tell, but you and Xiao Chang are quite speculative. When you were with Tu Lin Saozhu and the others, I never saw you talking so much."

"From now on, Xiao Chang will be your closest friend. If you establish a good relationship with him, one day he may tell me the secret you are guarding."

"Your tricks are quite deep! But I'm afraid you will be disappointed. I don't have any secrets, and I don't have any secrets that I want to keep."

Lu Xi stopped, but she was not as eager to prove anything as before. She sighed softly first, and then smiled and said: "It's so tiring to talk about private matters, and I don't want to talk about private matters anymore. Let's just talk about business... This The first time Sister Minhong and I came here to see you, we wanted you to help me write two songs."

"I know, Sister Minhong even told me how much publishing fee I should pay."

"What do you think about these two songs?"

"It depends on your needs. For example, what kind of music style do you like, or what kind of thing do you want to talk about in the song? It can be about love or life. If you want to be more grand, you can also talk about it. History, if you particularly yearn for a place or a way of life, then write it as a ballad. If you have many unrealistic fantasies, then we will go with the psychedelic style... As long as you have needs, I can do it."

Lu Xi looked at me, and I thought she found inspiration in my words, but she shook her head and said to me: "I don't want these general things, and I don't expect these songs to sell well. , that’s Sister Minhong’s need. I just hope that the song you write for me is a kind of record, just like Jay Chou’s grandmother, listening to dad’s words, and grandpa making tea... I think these are his feelings. And Fa, although it is not his most popular song, it must be his favorite."

After pondering for a while, I replied: "I understand, then you need to find a prominent event in your life, and then adapt this event into a song. It can also be a person you think is very important, your relatives, you Friends..." I thought we had entered the topic, and Lu Xi would focus on talking to me about people or things that she felt were important, but she turned to me and asked: "Do you still remember what we have experienced between us? Those things?... Although we have not known each other for a long time, we have really experienced a lot of things... From the first time you broke into my room, I thought it was the beginning of a disaster, but you But after that, I drank two kilograms of liquor for the record I wanted. You made me a deer that symbolizes the safety of a deer. Later, you followed me to Shenyang. We had pedicures in a foreign place together. That was my life. I was at a low point in my life, because I couldn’t let go of someone I once cared about, who disappeared without a trace in my world. In order to give me hope, you said you would help me go to XJ to find him. You said these words , when doing these things, you were so unhesitating that... so much so that I felt that you were sent by God to save me... Later, in order to help your friends find their lost children, you decided to do a charity performance, Only then did I discover that you are such a talented person. You can play various musical instruments, arrange music, and even hip-hop... Speaking of hip-hop, I remembered that day again, when you almost helped me win back that set. Cosmetics, I actually regret it in my heart... This feeling is very strange. At first glance, you were such a scumbag that annoyed me, but you gradually transformed in my heart... This transformation made me start to face it. Your advantage is that you are actually a very persistent person. Even though everyone quit that concert, you still tried your best to fulfill your commitments to others in such a simple environment. Later, the reason why everyone I went to help you together because I was impressed by your spirit, including me... Originally, we could have become very good friends, but everything was shattered that night... You dropped you The deer you gave me seems to have killed you. You have completely changed into a completely different person, becoming ignorant, indifferent... You know, what I am doing now is not to explore anything, I just want to Let you return to the Korean trend you once were, full of talent, warm to others and yourself."

After saying that, Lu Xi looked at me. I saw confusion and sadness in her eyes, and I couldn't help but feel filled with emotion.

I lit a cigarette, squinted my eyes and took a deep breath, then said, "I said I won't talk about private matters, isn't this still a private matter?"

"This is not a private matter. I hope you can write everything we have experienced between us into a song. You'd better give me an answer in the song."

I looked at Lu Xi in surprise. She was really a very smart woman. She actually came up with such a way to handle business privately. She gave me a step down and also allowed her to get the answer herself.

Maybe my talent is limited. I thought about it carefully, but I really couldn't come up with any special inspiration that could integrate these experiences and the answer Lu Xi wanted into a song.

This made me feel embarrassed again; so I said to her in the same way: "I admit, there is indeed an unavoidable reason why I treated you like that and left Qingdao, but I really There is no way to tell you...unless...I like dusk very much during the day, and unless you can turn dusk into a piece of stationery, I will write this helpless reason on this stationery, and then give it to you with both hands."

I thought Lu Xi would give up, but after thinking about it for a while, she replied: "If I can really turn dusk into a piece of writing paper, you won't break your promise, right?"

"I...will not break my promise."

"Okay, I'm a little tired. I'll go back to the hotel to rest first. You can go back and rest early too."

I responded, and then asked her: "Regarding song writing, do you have the final say, or does Sister Minhong have the final say?"

"I have the final say."

Lu Xi definitely gave me an answer. After a moment of silence, she said to me: "The day you left Qingdao, I had a dream. I didn't want to be a star, and I didn't care how long I would be famous. , so I turned into an elk in my dream, a happy elk... The only things that can make me stop are the green grass on the ground and the wind blowing wantonly..."

(End of this chapter)