i'm not a bad man

Chapter 180 Life is a wilderness

The call between me and Zuo Xiaowei hasn't ended yet, but Qiao Jiao is standing outside the door with a half-smiling smile. I can't help but feel a little confused. Qiao Jiao is like this. She seems to particularly like to pursue the kind of things where she falls from the sky and then surprises others. Pleasure, she has experienced this more than once...

I decided to end the call with Zuo Xiaowei first before dealing with her, so I said to Zuo Xiaowei on the phone: "I'll call you later, a friend is here."

"Who?"

I never like to hide things, so I subconsciously glanced at Qiao Jiao who was left outside the door and said: "Qiao Jiao, she is going abroad tomorrow, and she is transiting in BJ. We happened to meet her and let's have dinner together in the evening. "

After telling Zuo Xiaowei the truth, I didn't think about her feelings, because in my opinion, it was a normal thing, just like I had never objected to her having Chang Yuli and Guan Yubo around her. Just like your friends of the opposite sex, just tell the truth.

Zuo Xiaowei didn't seem to be in any special mood. She said "Oh" and then said, "Don't eat too late. Go back and rest early."

"Okay, it won't be too late."

……

After I ended the call with Zuo Xiaowei, I said to Qiao Jiao: "How did you find my room?"

"A person with boundless power like me can figure it out with just a few fingers."

As Qiao Jiao said this, she pushed me away and walked straight into the room. She looked at Chang Yuli's suitcase for a while and asked me, "Is there anyone living with you?"

"Well, he's a friend I met in a small town. He went out in the afternoon."

"You won't be able to come back for a while, right?"

Qiao Jiao asked this question and sat down on my bed, and I looked at her with vigilance. At this moment, we were alone in the same room, so if you asked me such a question, it would inevitably be a hint.

Seeing that I didn't speak, Qiao Jiao glanced sideways at me and said, "What's your expression?"

"Why do you care if he comes back?"

Only then did Qiao Jiao react, and then she sneered: "Can you keep a little less pornography, gambling, and other things in your mind? Isn't this the disgrace of the world?"

"Except for us, a man and a woman, there is no one else in the room. If you ask me when my friend will come back, normal people will have wild imaginations."

"Hey, I finally started to face my gender!"

After saying that, she didn't know whether it was accidental or deliberate, but she used her hands to brush her long hair that reached past her shoulders, pushed all her hair back behind her shoulders, and tied it up with a rubber band, and her whole body followed suit. She became fresher and sharper. Just when she felt fresher and sharper, she crossed her legs again, looking very restless. My perception of her could not keep up with her changes!
I no longer looked at her directly, but a very strange question still inevitably popped up in my heart. Yes, when did I start to treat her as a normal woman?And did this change happen before I left Qingdao, or after?
I can’t explain clearly. In short, this has become a fact. Sometimes when I think about Qiao Jiao’s sexual orientation, it feels unreal, because after we got to know her, she didn’t have a real relationship. My girlfriend, her own dress is not obviously masculine. She wears skirts, does manicures, and uses various cosmetics to make herself more delicate and attractive...

These are all important reasons why I gradually treat her as a woman, and they are also the truest feelings in my heart. I don’t like to deceive others, let alone myself, so I bluntly replied: “Is it wrong to face your gender? ...Look at yourself in the mirror, your appearance, your clothes, what is not the configuration of a top beauty? Of course you can treat yourself as a man, but others have no way to control their perceptions... Just like now, you are sitting In my bed, saying something suggestive to me, of course I have to be vigilant."

"Come on, I didn't see you like this when I was in Qingdao. In a different place, have you learned to act coquettishly?"

"This is not pretentious, this is avoiding suspicion. I have a girlfriend now."

Qiao Jiao looked at me motionless, but her expression became more and more serious. Suddenly, she laughed loudly, and then said to me: "Forget it about your girlfriend...if she is the woman you really like. , you don’t need to avoid being suspicious of me, I also know to keep my distance from you... But is she?... What’s even more bizarre is that she knows clearly that she is not the woman you really like, but she can ignore all contradictions and bring you to them Go there, isn't this a typical case of taking advantage of someone's situation?... I, Qiao Jiao, never like to speak ill of others behind their backs. She is the only one who makes me unable to control my mouth. I feel that as a woman, I shouldn't let that damn thing take possession of me. Desire makes oneself less like a normal person, and no twisted melon in this world is sweet..."

After saying that, Qiao Jiao actually took out a watermelon about the size of a human head from the black convenience bag she brought with her luggage and placed it on the bedside cabinet. "It's winter, where did you buy the watermelon?"

"The fruit shop at the airport sells out-of-season watermelons. I didn't want to see you empty-handed, so I bought one...Look, does this watermelon look like your head?"

I didn't know what kind of medicine she was selling in her gourd, so I couldn't help but look at her with vigilant eyes.

Suddenly, Qiao Jiao made a fist with her right hand and hit the watermelon hard. The watermelon burst suddenly, and the pulp and juice flowed all over the floor. I was frightened by this sudden blow, and then stared blankly...

"Han Chao, life is a wilderness, not a track. If you must live a life restricted by the track, your end will be the same as this watermelon. It may not be me who beats you up, it must be the bloody reality."

I remained silent for a long time and then said, "You soiled the carpet."

"If you lose some money and can wake up someone who is pretending to be asleep, I think it's worth it."

……

I gave all the free space in the room to Qiao Jiao, and stood alone by the window, lit a cigarette, and smoked silently...

"Do you still want to continue pretending to be asleep?"

"You are going abroad soon, why do you still care about my affairs?"

"I didn't have to go abroad. For the first time in my life, I had the urge to start my own business. I thought opening a bakery was a good choice. I would make a one-time investment and have money in my account every day. There is nothing better than this. It's more suitable to fight against my dad, but I don't know why, since you left, I have no desire to open a bakery... You said that you have to promise me four things, just help me open a bakery. One of the things I wanted you to do, but you left without looking back."

"You are the only one who knows the truth. You should be able to understand my choice. I can't stay in Qingdao any longer."

"But you left this problem to me. In the past few days after you left, I met with Lu Ming three times. Each time I had a particularly strong sense of guilt... This sense of guilt made me I don’t want to stay in Qingdao anymore. If I can’t see Lu Ming, I won’t think about these things... You can just slap your ass and leave, but I am a native of Qingdao. I can’t never go back to Qingdao for the rest of my life. ...So, the more I think about this matter, the more I feel aggrieved. Why do you want me to rush to the front line and take the blame for you because of the evil you have done? Am I made of steel or do I have a superhuman will? ...It just so happens that you are also at BJ, so I must come to you and give me a clear answer. Do I really want to give up the city and life I love for you guys, liars and scum?"

"Isn't your father the main reason for leaving Qingdao?"

"I said I was going to open a bakery to fight him."

After a long silence, I finally replied: "I'm sorry for you, but I don't know how to make it up to you."

"Eat with me first, and think about it while you eat, until you figure it out."

……

I thought Qiao Jiao would definitely meet Lu Xi when she passed by BJ, but this night, she had no intention of calling her Lu Xi. In the end, it was just the two of us, and we left the room and the hotel together.

While waiting for the taxi, I stood behind her because I had no face to look at her.

She wouldn't let me smoke, so I chewed gum and spit out bubbles from time to time to make myself look less idle. But suddenly I lost control of my strength and spit the gum into her hair. I was so panicked that I tried to pick it up creptly. Suddenly, Qiao Jiao turned her head...

(End of this chapter)