i'm not a bad man

Chapter 129 Love you with my soul

In this extremely long dream, in addition to me and Zuo Xiaowei, I also dreamed of my parents. By the time we got together again, my dad had made a comeback, even more glorious than before. There were only results in the dream. , there is no process, so I don’t know what kind of opportunity led him to achieve this almost impossible reversal; but his temper is still the same as before, he is still stubborn and arbitrary, he wants me to leave the small town to inherit His career, but I have already taken root in a small town. I don’t want my life to be controlled by him again, so he laughed at me. I don’t even have a successor, so it’s nothing to take root...

For this reason, I specifically asked Zuo Xiaowei in my dream why we don’t have children, and she also looked confused.

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I don’t know how long I slept like this, but I was woken up by the stronger sunlight. Zuo Xiaowei’s side was shady and unaffected, so she was still sleeping. In order not to wake her up, I stood in an extremely awkward posture. I took my phone out of my pocket and looked at it. It was already 09:30 in the morning.

It was time for me to leave, because our rehearsal time was set at ten in the morning. I went back to wash my face and cook some noodles, just in time. Just as I moved my body slightly, Zuo Xiaowei suddenly tightened her grip. My hand, this was not a subconscious movement. Although she did not open her eyes, she whispered to me: "Don't agree easily, let alone refuse in a hurry. This is a decision that affects our lives. I will give you time." consider."

"it is good."

"Then you go first. I'll find a hotel to rest for a while, and then I'll come with you to rehearse in the afternoon."

After saying that, Zuo Xiaowei let go of my hand, then opened her eyes and smiled at me...

I'm not a particularly observant person, but this time, I really saw the love for me in her eyes; before, I never believed that a person would give up the person he loves to choose someone who loves him. But at this moment, I have a new understanding of the relationship between men and women: choosing someone who loves me will give me a sense of satisfaction and security, because I know that she will not give up easily unless I really put her down. She was heartbroken, but whenever she saw a little hope, she would tirelessly give and love.

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When I returned to the place where I lived, I opened the door carefully. Qiao Jiao was no longer there. It didn’t matter that she was gone. Having such an energetic woman like her by my side would bring a lot of fun, but it would also cause great mental torture. , because I never know when and how she will break into my world. If I want to deal with her, I must always be vigilant, but I am not a robot that does not need rest, so she is to me. Yan is like a piece of candy that has been poisoned. I dare not swallow it, but I find the sweetness quite tempting.

Not long after washing up, Saozhu sent a message to our performance group, saying that he would discuss divorce with his wife in the morning and would have time to rehearse in the afternoon; Brother Shanhe also wanted to use the morning to go to Badaguan in Qingdao. Therefore, without two core members, the rehearsal in the morning could only be abandoned.

I could have been lying on the bed to catch up on my sleep, but I couldn't fall asleep because I was worried about something, so I simply called Ren Ran. I wanted to talk to her, because she is the only person in this city who can talk to me intimately. people.

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Ren Ran and I made an appointment to meet at a coffee shop near May Fourth Square. I ordered a latte and she ordered an Americano. While waiting for the coffee, she first said to me: "Yesterday At night, Xiaowei called me and we chatted for almost an hour... I thought you would also want to talk to me, so I put aside everything I was doing this morning and have been waiting for your call."

"Then why don't you take the initiative to call and ask?"

Ren Ran shook his head and replied: "I don't dare to be too proactive about such an important matter..."

After saying that, Ren Ran sighed, then turned his attention to the clothes I was wearing, and asked: "In this weather, you don't want to wear such a thick down jacket, right?"

"Xiaowei gave it to me. It was cold last night and I wore it when I went out. I'm too lazy to look for another coat today, so I didn't change it..." After a short pause, I said again: "By the way, Sister Ran, I don't know the stuff. Can you help me?" Let me see if this big goose is real or fake."

"Why do you care so much about authenticity?"

"I don't care, but I really don't want Xiaowei to spend money on me. I told her, and she said it was fake and only cost a few hundred yuan, so the nature of the matter changed. If it's true……"

I didn't say any more, my mood was a bit complicated; Ren Ran, after pondering for a while, took over my words and said: "If it is true, then her love for you really comes from her soul... How can there be such a thing these days?" You love such a girl who doesn’t show off or take credit!” After saying that, Ren Ran walked over to me, and I took off my clothes and handed them into her hands.As she carefully identified it, I kept watching with concern because I really cared about the result.

After a while, Ren Ran returned the clothes to my hands and said: "Compared with how much money she spent, she cares more about you being able to dress warmly and decently... It seems that her love for you is really Without expecting anything in return...this is a genuine goose!”

"Are you sure, Sister Ran?"

"I'm sure. I also bought a women's model last year. I've looked at all the details, and they all match the original."

I lay heavily on the back of the chair and thought about the scenes since I met Zuo Xiaowei. I couldn't help but have mixed feelings in my heart. How many nights would it take her to earn back such a genuine piece of goose?However, I didn't cherish her so much. I even bought her a bag before. Because I needed money urgently, I went to the bar and wanted to get the bag back with her in front of so many people in front of so many people.

In comparison, I'm just a beast!

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When the coffee in Ren Ran's cup was almost finished, I said: "Xiaowei wanted me to go back to their small city to live with her. She didn't force me to give her an answer right away, but I felt that this matter would be a big deal in the charity show." After it’s over, there should be a result.”

After a short silence, Ren Ran replied: "I have always thought that you are a very straightforward person. You can come when you want and leave when you want... The reason why you asked me out to talk about this matter is because this time Why don't you just go ahead? You are particularly conflicted now..."

"You seem to have said it, but it seems you haven't said anything at all!"

Ren Ran replied seriously: "Because I am more conflicted than you. If I suggest you leave, it means that we will be separated, and the next meeting is far away; if I don't suggest you leave, from the perspective of a woman, or from the perspective of a woman, As someone who has experienced this, I sincerely feel that you will never meet a more suitable girl than Xiaowei. This is where I feel conflicted."

After saying that, Ren Ran completely fell into silence. Even if she spoke again, she would just ask the waiter to refill her coffee.

"Sister Ran, I'm really conflicted. Because of the incident between me and Xiaowei, you all labeled me a scumbag, and I didn't excuse myself. I really didn't want to take responsibility at the time... If I could... Xiaowei confirms the relationship and goes back to their small town with her so that I can get rid of the label of a scumbag... Actually, I don’t care if others call me a scumbag, because if this matter falls on them, they may not be able to Make a nobler choice than me... I just... It's that momentary feeling, I don't know if you understand... It's like having such a woman by your side, choosing a small town, doing what you like It seems that it is a good choice to live a life in peace..."

"So, between the person who loves you and the person you love, you choose the former?"

I let out a long sigh, and then after a long silence, I replied: "If Luan Yu is the old love that I can't get back, and Zuo Xiaowei is the hope for the future, then Lu Xi is the woman who exists in my fantasy... ...I also know that Lu Xi and I have almost no possibility in real life, but this kind of fantasy is really addictive, just like an emperor who has everything, exploring and longing for immortality, even though he knows It is impossible to do anything. After experiencing disappointment again and again, we still use the strength of the whole country to give ourselves the comfort and joy of living." (Follow the author Wei Xing's public account, ***, reply "Luxi" to view the heroine photo!)

"Your metaphor is quite appropriate."

I looked at Ren Ran and felt a little disappointed, because I had always hoped that she could give me some guiding advice at this time, but she just ignored him and made me unable to grasp it and settle down.

At this time, the phone on the table vibrated again. I temporarily put aside my emotions, picked it up and looked at it, but was shocked again. This was a message from Lu Xi. She said: "My brother wants to take it with me." My sister-in-law is having dinner with us, are you free tonight?"

I was stunned for a long time before I figured out why there was such an invitation suddenly. Because what happened last night was too big. Lu Xi said in front of Zhao Xin that I was her boyfriend, and they and Zhao Xin both They have been playmates since childhood, so it is impossible for this kind of thing not to reach Lu Ming's ears.

(End of this chapter)