i'm not a bad man

Chapter 127 Let's go
My residence is very close to the beach, and there are few vehicles coming and going in the early morning, so the journey was smooth. It only took 5 minutes for Zuo Xiaowei to drive the car to the beach.We didn't get out of the car, but we opened all the windows. The feeling of the sea breeze blowing in was the same as standing on the beach. The sound of the tide was also clearly visible, but the windshield in front of the car was like a barrier, giving us a relatively private place. The space allows us to have unbridled conversations while waiting for the rising sun to break through the sea level and bring light and warmth to the city...

"Han Chao."

I turned to look at Zuo Xiaowei: "Huh?"

"It's a total of 628 kilometers from where I live to where you live. I drove for almost seven hours; I used these seven hours to carefully sort out my life... So far, my life There are regrets in life, especially when it comes to choosing your studies. My parents are both music teachers in a local middle school, so they hope that I can follow the path they have taken and study music. They always say that I Inheriting their talents, this is the safest path. If it doesn't work out, I can go back to our city. They made connections and asked me to find a school to teach music. Although I won't be a star in this life, I can still do it. Life is worry-free. Our city is not big and there are not so many temptations and comparisons, so teaching is still a decent job. But in my heart, music is not my first choice. What I want to do most is actually a fashion designer. , because I love beauty so much and have liked all kinds of beautiful clothes since I was a child... At that time, my parents put a lot of pressure on me, so I succumbed... I felt uncomfortable for a long time, but after On the way back, I felt relieved, because what happened yesterday gave me a great revelation. I found that when I felt painful, unable to survive, and unable to cater, I could still go back and be a music teacher. I finally realize the good intentions of my parents. At least music allows me to see where the lower limit of my life is. My lower limit is better than the upper limit of many people. My parents seem to be forcing me, but they are also using them. The best way to give me confidence and confidence..."

"Since your lower limit is already higher than the upper limit for ordinary people, why did you come to Qingdao in the first place?"

"You have to rebel once in life, right?"

I was stunned by Zuo Xiaowei's words. After Zuo Xiaowei was silent for a while, she said: "If there is a chance to be a star, who wouldn't want to fight for it? But after I decided to go to BJ to develop, I found that this industry is really It's not suitable for me because there are too many unspoken rules that I don't like. Especially last night, Chen Linqi said that he would support me... If I don't agree, he will completely disappear from this industry... There is nothing worse than this. It was a disgusting multiple-choice question, so I was really desperate at that time... Later, Chen Linqi received a phone call, and his attitude changed 180 degrees. He apologized to me and vowed to help me make an album. ...I'm not stupid. I know that this is the power of capital and power. I also know that if I go with the flow and rely on Lu Xi's goodwill, I might really be able to make a name for myself in this circle, but I just hate this kind of push. ...I am facing Chen Linqi now, but if one day I face someone with a higher status than Uncle Lu Xi, who will show me kindness at that time?...At that time, I will really I can't retreat even if I want to, because big shots at that level cannot be easily offended... It's better to take this opportunity to completely give up on that unrealistic dream of stardom. I can deceive others, but I can't deceive myself. Those I didn’t write the song at all, it was your hard work, and I don’t have such talent.”

I looked at Zuo Xiaowei in surprise. I didn't expect that she could be so awake at this time!After pondering for a while, I finally asked: "So, what is your choice?"

Zuo Xiaowei looked at me and replied in an extremely serious tone: "I want to go back to Qingdao and take you with me... Do you know why I worked so hard to sing in the bar and even dressed very sexy on purpose?"

"Uh... You work hard to sing in bars because you have no money... As for you, you dress sexy on purpose..."

"If you let go, I won't be angry."

I lit a cigarette, then touched my forehead out of habit, and replied: "If you want to be a sugar daddy, wait for the rich man to take you away."

"anything else?"

Seeing that Zuo Xiaowei was really not angry, I opened up completely and said, "In my opinion, there are two types of women, one is reserved and the other is coquettish. I think you are the latter."

Zuo Xiaowei laughed angrily. She slapped me and said, "Hey, think about it for yourself. What did I wear when we first met?"

I thought about it seriously and couldn't remember such a small detail, so I shook my head.

"I knew you were sexy, so I gradually started dressing like that." "Are you catering to me?"

"Then you took the bait, didn't you?"

My emotions gradually became complicated, and this complexity made me speechless; Zuo Xiaowei didn't seem to expect me to say anything, and she said to me: "I thought of this matter too simply. Later, Sister Ren Ran told me that you are the kind of man who needs to be hung up. If you get it too easily, you will not cherish it...Okay, I admit it."

"Then why do you work so hard to sing?"

"I want to save travel expenses, and I want to travel to the ends of the world with you... Before I left Qingdao and decided to go to BJ, I had already saved 10 yuan, but you had no intention of taking me away. Seeing that the money was gone. When I was angry, I bought this car, and when I saved up the next [-], I would drive it around the world."

"So this is the story of you and this car."

"I can't compare to you and your RV. You are all unrestrained and dissolute. We are only unwilling and aggrieved..." After a short pause, Zuo Xiaowei burst into tears again and whispered to me: "Han Chao, You really hurt me too deeply!"

I raised my hand and took a deep breath from the cigarette in my hand, still not knowing what to say; at this moment, the sun finally rose from the end of the sea level, and the sunlight spread like mercury over our eyes. The surroundings, including the sea and the beach, are all golden...

The street lights went out one after another, everything began to come to life, and the sound of whistles and birdsong gradually filled my ears.

I finally spoke to Zuo Xiaowei and said, "I don't know how to redeem myself?"

"I don't need your salvation, let's go, get out of here... drive my car, stop when I see a city I like, and let's go to the bar to sing together. When we make enough money, we will go to the next city we like. Until we visit all the cities in China... Then, we will go back to my city together, I will become a teacher, and you will open a music shop and teach children to play guitar. When we save enough money to get married, we will get married."

After a short pause, Zuo Xiaowei said to me softly: "Don't use Sister Ran as a shield... Sister Ran is so good to you, and she always hopes that you can have a home that truly belongs to you. As long as we can be together well, Live up to each other, love life, love our little family... Sister Ran will let you go."

I looked at Zuo Xiaowei, and my cold heart seemed to have some warmth, but not completely, so I fell into a painful pull... I have been free and unrestrained throughout my life, and my family has also been brilliant. At certain times, I I was greedy for enjoyment, so I rented that extremely expensive sea-view suite at all costs; so, can I really accept the kind of small-town life that Zuo Xiaowei mentioned, where you can see the end at a glance?

Maybe, in the small town where she lived, there was no sea, no grassland, no criss-crossing lakes, and no beautiful women who made life full of imagination. There was only her love for me.

(End of this chapter)