Recast youth

Chapter 144 The sun will eventually rise
After all, Ye Feng still didn't change Kong Jingke's clothes, but he had a way, which was to bring a hair dryer and blow it on Kong Jingke. This was also a helpless solution.

After blowing for about half an hour, it was almost dry. However, Ye Feng was so tired that he thought it was not winter. Otherwise, he really wouldn't have much to do if his down jacket or the like got caught in the rain.

Then came the high fever.

Ye Feng didn't know much about high fever. His only knowledge was that in his previous life, colleagues would talk about how children with high fever could use Motrin to reduce fever. Ye Feng guessed that if children can eat it, it should be fine for adults. .

So Ye Feng ran out to a small drugstore and bought a box of Merrill Lynch and fed it to Kong Jingke.

Don't tell me, it really worked. After Kong Jingke broke out in a sweat, he woke up. Ye Feng thought that Kong Jingke would say thank you or something when he woke up, but he didn't expect the first words Kong Jingke said to him. It's just the hair dryer that's so noisy.

"There's nothing you can do about it, I can't help you change your clothes."

Ye Feng said speechlessly.

Kong Jingke was always conscious, but he just didn't have the energy to move. Ye Feng turned the hair dryer up and down and blew it on her. How could she not feel it?In the beginning, I was resistant inside.

But slowly, Kong Jingke relaxed.

The main reason is that Kong Jingke has been too exhausted in the past year and no one can help her. Some people are like this. Even if they starve to death, she will not ask for help from others. Ye Feng in the previous life was such a person, and so was Kong Jingke. Humanoid.

Kong Jingke took a sip of the hot water poured by Ye Feng, gained some strength, and said thank you to Ye Feng.

Ye Feng said that they were all neighbors and it was what he should do. Then he took out 4800 yuan and put it in front of Kong Jingke: "Here is my rent for the second half of the year. The house I rented at the end of April is now November, which is exactly half a year."

Ye Feng did not say much. He could see that Kong Jingke was a very proud woman. From her, Ye Feng saw the shadow of his previous life, and she was also so strong.

In fact, Ye Feng wanted to persuade Kong Jingke that a crying child would have candy, so why force him? In the final analysis, he was just embarrassing himself, but Ye Feng gave up in the end.

Because everyone knows the truth, but it’s really difficult to do it.

"Actually, you are quite similar to a friend of mine." Ye Feng looked at Kong Jingke and said with emotion.

Kong Jingke smoothed the hair around his ears and asked, "Oh? Where does it look like?"

"They are all stronger."

Ye Feng just finished speaking and shook his head: "Actually, it's not accurate enough to say that you want to be strong. It should be said that you are trying to be strong and can't get out of your own world. The same is true for my friend. He has an older sister and a younger sister, but the family conditions are not very good. , can only support two people to go to school, so his sister gave up the opportunity to study and went out to work to supplement the family income. Then my friend successfully entered college and fell in love, but after breaking up with that girl, he changed and gave up. Degenerate and hang out in Internet cafes.”

Kong Jingke asked: "What happened next?"

"Then?" Ye Feng smiled: "Then he was kicked out of school. It's quite interesting. Do you know what he was thinking when he hung out in the Internet cafe? In fact, he didn't like the Internet that much. He just wanted to use this method to let people The girl discovered his depravity.”

Kong Jingke said: "I don't quite understand why he did this. He doesn't like Internet cafes, but he keeps hanging out in Internet cafes? When that girl finds out that he can't even go to school, won't she feel that she is right to break up with him?"

"Yes, but he doesn't think much about it. He thinks that the girl found out about his depravity and realized that the reason why he degenerated was because he loved her. Then she would feel distressed, and then she might come to persuade him and give him a good name. Said, I love you, if I don’t torture you, I will torture myself.”

When Ye Feng said this, he smiled and looked at Kong Jingke, his eyes were deeply touched by Kong Jingke: "Then he realized how wrong he was. After dropping out of school, the first thing he faced was his father's disappointed eyes. , and then there was the scene of his eldest sister hiding in the room and crying bitterly, and then he began to escape, refused to go home, and completely closed himself off, because he could not face the family he was ashamed of, and lived a failed life. .”

Kong Jingke said: "It sounds like you are talking about yourself."

"How is this possible, how old am I?" Ye Feng was surprised at Kong Jingke's keen sense, but quickly covered it up.Kong Jingke did not ask further questions, but simply asked: "Does your friend still love that girl?"

"No more love, it's all over."

Ye Feng shook his head.

Kong Jingke was silent for a while and asked, "Do you want to listen to my story?"

Ye Feng nodded and said, "If you don't mind, I can be a listener."

Kong Jingke didn't speak at first, but got out of bed, walked to the window, and opened the curtains. Outside was the dark night sky, and there were three stories high below. She didn't turn around, looked down, and asked in a calm voice: "What do you mean? If you jump here, will you feel relaxed and not have to think about or care about anything?"

"Well, you don't have to think about it or worry about it."

Ye Feng nodded, and then said: "But what I will leave my loved ones with is pain."

"Yes, what is left to your loved ones is pain."

Kong Jingke looked at the night sky outside and said softly: "We have never lived for ourselves. In the past few months, I would stand here for a while almost every night when I came back, quietly, without any sound, and then I would I keep saying to myself, jump down, and you won’t have to think about anything else. But another thought will ask yourself, Kong Jingke, if you jump down, what will your mother do? Will she be even more sad? She What about her medical expenses? Didn’t you say you could take good care of her? "

"So, I put shackles on myself and survived day after day."

Kong Jingke turned around and looked at Ye Feng.

This was a picture that shocked Ye Feng. He was silent for a while and said, "Since you have endured until now, why not continue to endure?"

"Because I can't hold on any longer."

Kong Jingke's eyes were very calm, without any desire for life: "Since you are not happy, why should you hold on? You don't have to think about anything, and you don't have to do anything, isn't it great? Just jump down and instantly The world suddenly becomes pure.”

"I don't think much of it."

Ye Feng thought of the teaching assistant who jumped off the building at school and shook his head: "I don't know anything else. I just know that jumping down will hurt only my loved ones and it doesn't make any sense. So I don't want to die. I want to live. The most important thing is , I am unwilling to do so."

Ye Feng raised his head and looked at Kong Jingke: "I am really unwilling to bow my head, to others, to myself, to life. I am not willing to bow to any of these things."

Are you not reconciled?

Kong Jingke asked himself, yes, I am not willing to give in, but so what?
"One day I will be willing to do it." Kong Jingke said quietly.

"How do you know if you don't try?"

Ye Feng laughed, full of sunshine, walked to the window sill, side by side with Kong Jingke, looking at the darkness in the distance: "Isn't it just a little tired? It's okay to be tired. Comfort is reserved for the dead. Look at the distance, it's Isn’t it pitch black and you can’t see anything? It’s okay, if you wait a little longer, the sun will rise and you can see everything.”

"The sun will rise eventually."

Ye Feng said so.

(End of this chapter)